Heartache after saying goodbye- support thread

[Helplessandheartbroke]

I'm in agony after losing our boy 2.5 weeks ago. I had another thread deleted as it was too outing but realised quickly there's many of us suffering. Anyone want to join hands?

@Helplessandheartbroke hello! It was very nice, we went for some lunch and shopping. I suspect he is probably even more upset than me. He looked as though he had been crying a lot but it was good to spend time together and share funny memories. I listen to a mindfulness thing on headspace about grief this morning which helped get me out of bed but my sleep is so disturbed. Hopefully it improves with going back to work although I am dreading it. I was trying to do some work there to make it a bit easier.
How are you?

@Greenpiggy I'm so glad you and your dad got some nice quality time together today. ❤ I struggled to get out of bed for about 3 weeks and even missed ds Xmas party at nursery (thankfully my mum and grandma went) so you and your dad are doing so well!

Don't rush into work unless you feel it will help. I went back after 2 weeks (1 week sick, 1 week holiday) and it did help getting back into routine but it was hard.

I'm OK. I visited a large park today where we would go a few times a year with ddog. I've not been since we lost him so he was tough. There was a fair on and last time we took ds to this fair our boy was there with us. Just brought back so many memories going there today but nice memories of fun days out together.

Is your dp back soon? X

@miamiamia869 meant to ask how you are too x

@Greenpiggy thats awful about your work place! I would put a complaint in. My boss was very supportive. Glad dp is home for some support. I'm falling asleep but will message properly tomorrow

@Helplessandheartbroke thanks for checking in x
im struggling abit, but also got a very bad cold at the moment so not feeling great! Hope you are ok as can be xx

I don't think I can commit the next 20 odd years to a cat .

My little man is with me mostly and I don't have to leave the house often . He's seems ok just clingy.

Morning ladies, I was asleep for 9.30pm which is unheard of! I'm not sleeping well at all.

@Greenpiggy I hope work can be a distraction for you today and not too stressful.

@4658Lou sorry to hear you're not well and struggling. Have you got someone that can help with ds?

@damnedwhatever enjoy little man, hes a cutie! Plus a cute kitten couldn't fill bears gap sadly but you wouldn't want them to either.

I hope everyone has as good a day as possible. I'll check back in later x

Thank you for checking in, I’ve had to help my parents this weekend as mum has finally come out of hospital so it’s taken my mind of things but I do keep having wobbles, I just know I’m never going to be ok again ☹️

I haven't and I think I've lost my boyfriend as well.

@Ineedwinenow sorry to hear your mums been in hospital I hope she's well. The pain will never fully go but it does get easier.

@CeciledeVolangesdeNouveau what's happened? Hope you're ok? X

She has stage 4 cancer ☹️ so it’s been awful for us a family for a few months now

Sorry to hear that! On top of this you've also had the loss of ddog too and an operation! Life throws some shit at us at times. Thinking of you and here for a hand hold x

It’s all come at the same time and is bloody awful, I just want to smile and have something to look forward to but it’s all just different types of shit daily!

I hear you! You do sometime feel its one thing after another. Got to think it can only get better from now x

I've just had a meltdown 😥the window cleaners just been asking where Winston is. I cried. The poor lads.

Hope people don't mind a newbie. My Ddog passed away this morning, as I sat next to him stroking. He'd had a very poorly stomach and diarrhoea which made getting medication into him really hard over the last few days. I had gone to the vets to try him on some new wet food and he looked really excited, tucked in and a big seizure overtook his little body. I miss him so much. I have my other dog, who didn't seem to understand and just came over and tried to snooze with him.

I keep wondering if there was more I could have done, but legs were failing him, he was having seizures more often and he lived a wonderful life for 12 years surrounded by people who loved him and gave him all the scritchies.

I miss my baby puppy so much my heart hurts.

@PumpingRSI I'm so sorry for your sudden loss! It's so raw right now and we're here for you! He was a little cutie! Did he pass away from the seizure at home? Bless your other ddog 💔sending you a virtual hug at this terrible time.

The whats ifs are normal and we've all been through them but you were doing all you could x

Thank you. Yes he passed at he with me stroking his ears. He'd been poorly and his health was fading but it was all a bit sudden brought on by not wanting to eat and take his medication.

He was 12 but my baby puppy as my other dog is marginally older. He was my shadow and loved being carried and cuddles. I feel like I've lost a limb.

@PumpingRSI what a way to go! Being stroked by your best friend ❤ he's no longer suffering. Tonight and tomorrow morning will be incredibly difficult. Check in on here when you need to. Can you tell us a bit about your boy? Is he a pug? X

Thanks, he was a black pug with a big personality. Yipped when he wanted something, followed me around everywhere, very needy, wonderful mighty dog in a small dogs body. I keep finding his bowl, lead, hairs.

Awww he sounds amazing.

Don't rush to move his things but when you're ready decide what if anything you'd like to keep.

I've got my boys ashes, blanket, lead and collar. I'm thinking of just keeping his ashes and collar though x

@PumpingRSI awww look at your boy - he is just gorgeous, I just lost my black pug on Thursday. He was a bit older and grey than yours. They truly are magical little dogs and it’s tough when they suffer later in life with seizures and failing legs. Mine was the same. I am glad that you were by his side providing him comfort ❤️ and he will have had the best life and I hope in time that it will become easier for us but at the moment it is very raw.

@Helplessandheartbroke I am sorry to hear that today was tough. It’s so hard when you have to tell people that are always seeing and asking after them. I think my dad had a tough time telling all the residents in the housing complex he manages and I can’t imagine how upsetting it must have been for you.
sending hugs xx

@Greenpiggy thank you! @CeciledeVolangesdeNouveau will tell me off for bringing this up again but....I had horrendous guilt after our boy passed. He had little cysts between his toes that would pop now and then. Vet said all fine and normal but to clean them with Epsom salts. Well I never got round to it! This was a couple of months before he passed too! Dh would clean them and ddog would lock them clean but the guilt over not getting round to this small thing haunts me 😞 😓

Bless your dad I bet that was hard xx

Meant lick not lock* is anyone on tonight? Feeling the worst I've felt in a while. I think the convo with the window cleaners did me in today. Fancy crying to them! They felt that sorry for me they did the insides of my bi folding doors too for me! X

@Helplessandheartbroke is there anything I can do? Regarding Winston’s paws… if it makes you feel any better our boy was a bit smelly… his ears in particular and his teeth god his teeth. He was getting harder to clean over the last year and I felt so guilty but if anything it probably distressed them more us pocking and prodding them x The wee teddy I kept stinks to high heavens but I keep sniffing it. X