Wave your snorkel in the air like you just don't care!

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Open.

Lost, say something wise!

Good luck! Maybe some ibuprofen for the sugar crash? What's it for, the interview?

Sugar free so no sugar crash, got propranolol for the heart rate crash though!

It's with the agency I used to work for before being signed off sick 1.5/2 years ago, I think I'm ready for part time work-I think the boredom is why I'm getting the urge for Coke more at the moment.

Good luck, I know that feeling, Coke is an old friend, wolf in sheep clothing though.
Well done you for surfing tonight!

Morning surfers.
Good luck with your interview today, Kinetic

Evening surfers how were your days? I've had the house to myself today all day, perfect timing for solo sniffing which I used to LOVE. I spent the whole time distracting myself while simultaneously not achieving anything.

How is that possible?! Didn't buy though... I'm taking that as a win!

Oh KINETIC!! How did your interview go?

solo sniffing God that sounds like heaven.
You deserve a day off being unproductive, Pickle Enjoy it and well done for not purchasing anything!

Mine are still at school this week.
As usual, I'd rip your hand off if you offered me cocaine but I'm riding it out as bloody normal. Sometimes this surfing lark is so Arduous..

Waving to all fellow surflings!

I'm afraid I've been neglecting my plans to go 5g to 5k this week.
I'm planning on a lunchtime power walk tomorrow. Still haven't broken into a jog yet. I'm bloody useless .

Lost you past the two week mark again?

I'll be 3 LONG weeks this weekend.

That's fantastic!! 2 weeks was your nemesis and you've passed it! I promise it will get easier, sometimes it's not the first thing on your mind, it's a complete novelty when that happens!

Really your brain will rewire and it's not as bad after about a month.

That's just what I need to hear.
Sometimes the longer I'm off it, the more attractive it becomes? Like a forbidden fruit. I've been messing about with it for almost all of my adult life so it feels like it's ingrained in me. I fucking miss it.

Me too. I thought I'd be trapped in it forever, but it is possible!
Do I get thoughts? Yep of course
Actual full blown cravings that would result in me hunting down the number? Not any more.

It really does get better.

The longer you go you become more aware that your tolerance is back to that of a non user, so that made starting again a little frightening which also helps!

Glad you felt the same, Pickle I was starting to think I was the only one that feels like this.

Sorry for going all drama queen on you there! My legs went wobbly on the surfboard. I just find I get weird swings of emotions without my old faithful straightener. You've given me a bit of confidence back, lovely counsellor Pickle x

Lost - well bloody done!!!

I know what you mean, addiction is a lonely place because no one else has exactly the same experience.
If you want a distraction I could give you some questions I had from my fucking years time in therapy that I found helped keep the focus on recovery not on addiction?

Is that what that song is about, Lost?
I was very naive re drugs in that era. Didn't even get White Lines

Didn't know that either dusty!

I think the Sinead O'Connor sing is about her ex. I just adapted it while on a poor me trip! Sorry to confuse everyone.
Hotel California is definitely about drugs; such a lonely place, you're very wise Pickle.

Focusing on recovery rather than addiction sounds like a good plan. Pickle I think I need 5 years of your counselling. Hope you're not going anywhere .
Off to pyjamarate x

Way ahead of you! I bathercise dandy pyjamarated at 9pm!
To be honest I spent so much fucking money on therapy never mind the £60k up my nose I feel I should try to get some money's worth out of it!
Lesson 1: how to let go of guilt and shame.
And you thought you were depressed before

Pickle you're such a kind soul. I think you're great. Thanks for your tentative efferts to steer me right. I'll be back tomorrow for more pearls of wisdom.
Night all

Night my lovely surfers, I'm shattered x

Well that was a very weird dream... So realistic and very very odd

I might be getting a job!!!!!!!!

Yay!!!

Congratulations Kinetic!