Professor White and the line dancing surfers eat cold turkey

[serialtester]

Welcome to the surfboard!

I agree, snowball getting out for a walk does clear your head. Keep strong, you're going to be ok.

Oh that's fab snowball! You doing so well, how you feeling?

Rainbow road makes me feel sick

Nice one snowball

Well done snowball on getting out. That's good stuff.

You were living lost's "feeling like shit this morning" fantasy!

Oh yes I wished I was a dog walker this morning didn't I? It seemed profound at the time.

Well I feel I done a bit. Ok not loads but bath, walk dogs and admitted things to yous!!!

Hey all,

Thank you for the welcome :-)

I fell off wagon last night and currently operating on a few hours sleep - it's definitely not one of the worst comedown days I've had, but I'm still ashamed at my inability to resist the siren call of whatever's in easy reach, and the manifest BS of promising myself it's just three lines then bed...

It's just sad when I think about it objectively, but when offered the chance to get high it's so hard to resist...

Today has been the worst. Very tired, achy and totally paranoid. Don't know why it's been so bad compared to other times. I just need to remember this feeling next weekend when temptation strikes again.

Even the cat is looking at me accusingly!

Ah you found us, jerry

We all seemed to be cut from the same cloth . I read your thread and smiled wryly about everything you wrote!
Hopefully joining us will help you keep strong and we can surf the urges together.

witty just be really kind to yourself today. You will feel a lot better tomorrow.

Cats always look at me in a scornful way. They don't know how good they've got it do they? Well looked after, coming and going as they please and lying about in sunny spots watching the world go by.

Last night's message:

I've been watching this thread with fascination - you ladies are so funny! I've been a bit, pah, this isn't me, but I've recognised myself a bit. I calmed things down a lot after I felt things were getting out of control last year. Only big occasions, only with mates, no numbers, etc. But now I'm sat here, everyone asleep upstairs and I am high on something I was suppose to keep for a couple weeks from now. I am having fun now, writing, confessing, joining you, but I know tomorrow will be hell... the shit you are all working so hard to get away from. I'm sorry. It feels like poor form to join when on it, but i needed the courage, I guess? The thing is, sometimes I feel so illuminated and free, like I suddenly realised exactly what I need ot do to solve that screwed up, intractable situation... and then I wake up, and the horror of doing any such thing and the oppressive anxiety are just too too much. But I wonder now, if the insights are true, or just some bollocks?

Thank you for the warm welcome, Lost 😊

Cats are judgy bastards. Am in the pub, enjoying my bonus Saturday night!

Nice to see you here Jerry!

Snowball - you've done really well today.

Jerry that was me a few months back. But I've actually been to couple of parties since autumn where I've not done anything and there have been people (including my dh) snorting right in front of me... bearing in mind I used to get high 5 nights a week! We used to do a gram or two at a time.

Dh and I cut down to a gram once a week or so and lately it's been it's been a gram between us and a friend or 2. We've weaned ourself of it and last night we shared a generous g with a mate and that's it. I couldn't have gone totally cold turkey but it is possible to rewire your mindset and this group of lovely nutters helps loads

I can't believe it's nearly bedtime and I haven't had a cig

Back to work tomorrow and the wheels might fall off but I hope not!

With regards to cigs and coke!!

I hope your wheels don't fall off, Cleaning You're doing good.

I feel like we're all making progress in the grand scale of things.

Absolutely shattered so bath, Casualty and bed for me x

The programme Casualty I mean!

I don't think I'm ready to quit completely - would have to literally cut off all my social circle if I did - but o wanna keep it under control...

The thing is I really, really like it, just hate how it makes me feel after...

(Oh yeah and the ghastly fight to stop my brain whirring and the wait for sleep to come after a night on the bad shit)

Serial. Thanks.

I feel happy I've been able to get things off my chest. But I know this is only a tiny step to getting things right. But I've started xxxx

Tucking into some homemade cake, I'm turning into Mary Berry over here NOT Nigella

Thanks lost.

Night all