Hi all!
I'd taken a break from this thread over the summer and then continued on as I tried to wrestle with my thoughts on being "influenced"
Not by you guys, here I've found an incredibly welcoming community with lots of great information and helpful friendly advice.
But in the wider, Internet circle, Instagram, YouTube. And all wrapped together nicely with 18 months of isolation (we were shielding our CEV child, thoughts on that are another thread)
I went into lockdown feeling unsettled after losing weight and the changes it had made to my face.
I kept structure in lockdown by following the same skincare routine I had followed for years, but the facial changes made me think I could do better.
It was like "if I focus on this I will stay sane and not think about other things", which worked well and was helpful so I am glad about it and don't think anything was lost.
But I think I was becoming very hard on myself, pores seemed huge, wrinkles were an issue instead of part of growing older. I was comparing myself to airbrushed, filler pumped, botoxed "influencers" who don't care about anything other than getting my money.
I felt watching these videos gave me peace in my day, time for myself, but it was making me feel increasingly unhappy with what I had. Which to be honest, isnt that bad and can stay that way with the products I choose not what are being shilled as vital
I saved and went for a consultation about botox and fillers, to fix my flaws, that the Internet told me I had...
I went to a very reputable clinic with a Dr. They recommended.
Forehead botox
Cheek filler
Lip filler .75ml
Botox on the outer corners of the lips to fix my downturned mouth I was born with (so me)
Botox around the eyes
A course of peels as I have expression lines on my forehead (because I talk with my face)
Total: £2,300
Which would last between 6-9 months as I'm on the thinner side.
My car isn't worth £2,300 (I don't care about cars, I could afford a better car, so it's not about spending money I can't afford on treatments)
I'm 40, I dont in anyway disagree with botox or filler - but I had talked myself into wanting this.
Taking a step back I think I dont need this yet
Loneliness and isolation had turned me into an introspective nightmare, focusing on how I look and not how I LIVE.
So that was a sharp shock, then summer came and it was fantastic for us, we switched off from social media and the Internet and spent a lot of time by the sea as a family.
When I came back to "real life" I started to be horrified at how introspective and vain (in a bad way, I will always remain a little bit vain) I had been.
So rather a ramble sorry....
Anyway
Still loving the bear
that was a good buy, I find like some of you I can't use it too much mid face or it "collapses" my cheeks. My eyes are so improved and I think/hope my jawline is a little firmer
I've stopped using dermatica for the moment. I am using a313 on my face, and it has completely got rid of a very stubborn blackhead that had been there for years and no bha would touch...so delighted with that.
I've reordered and enjoying still the medik8 CEPURE as my vit c.
I was going to try beauty and the geek this time round, but I got a good offer for the medik8 and it was almost the same price so I stayed with what I knew.
Q/ I love cream cleansers and the more fragranced/smellier the better. I usually buy Clarins cleansing milk, but I know they have changed this recently. Has anyone tried it? Or have any recommendations for a luxury smelling milky cleanser for 2nd cleanse?