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“Weekends of unspoken annoyance and resentment”

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HebburnPokemon · 20/03/2024 09:43

I read this phrase on an old 2011 thread here, and goodness it resonated.

Living with other people’s children and their demands and chaos but unable to act on the discontentment or even mention it. I feel like a NPC (non playable character) in a video game. The person no one pays any particular attention to; just sitting in the background and reacting to the dynamics of a situation I have little agency in creating.

Does anyone feel like me? Discontent, agentless (aside from the one and only choice we have: leave) and voiceless. Raising concerns with OH is pointless. It always ends in argument/defensiveness and there’s little they can do about the setup anyway.

I know this sounds like a self indulgent winge, and I guess it is. Being a stepparent is lonely, so reaching out to others for solidarity is a source of comfort for me. I made my bed.

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StormingNorman · 15/05/2024 19:52

HebburnPokemon · 15/05/2024 18:29

What do you mean by “resolve any issues”? We are not in control over what happens in the “other” home.

Resolve any issues in the relationship between the new partner and the kids. They both have to at least like each other for a blended family to work.

It’s the bio parent’s responsibility to make sure everybody wants to become a family.

HebburnPokemon · 15/05/2024 20:13

Resolve any issues in the relationship between the new partner and the kids.

Tips?

I feel passive as a stepparent - like things are done TO me. I also felt passive as a step kid, so I can’t identify with the tussle for power that’s currently going on in my home. I just want everyone to live in harmony. I just want a peaceful life.

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socks1107 · 15/05/2024 21:28

HebburnPokemon · 15/05/2024 18:33

I don't miss those days building up to a weekend nor the ones immediately after.

The anxiety, the dreading being in your own home; the eggshells wondering when the next drama is? Followed by the utter seething resentment that you’ve even had to go through that; the rumination wondering why the whole vibe changed so dramatically as usual; the analysis; the hopelessness; being able to finally unclench and feeling so utterly exhausted and downtrodden, knowing you’ll have to do it all over again in a matter of days - that?

Yes all of that.
Get yourself your favourite treat and hide away enjoying some quiet time even if it's just 20 minutes x

EG94 · 21/05/2024 19:09

So update for anyone who’s interested. He gets his keys this Friday. I had agreed for him to stay until 28th as moving when he has the kids I appreciate will be difficult. He then decided to change contact without consulting me for them to be in my home so I told him I was sorry but after this blatant lack of consideration for me, my offer is withdraw I want him and all his stuff to leave on 25th and he will have to re arrange his contact to suit his moving. Needless to say it didn’t go well but needless to say, I didn’t care!

HebburnPokemon · 21/05/2024 20:56

Well done @EG94

I hope you’re okay?

Has he moved all his stuff out?

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EG94 · 21/05/2024 21:15

HebburnPokemon · 21/05/2024 20:56

Well done @EG94

I hope you’re okay?

Has he moved all his stuff out?

I’m so angry but I’m ok.

he gets his keys Saturday so he will be gone on Saturday. He seems to be really struggling almost in disbelief, despite finding a flat that I am done.

he attempts to talk to me like I’m still his partner or should I say victim. He asked if I would try with the relationship whilst we live separately. I said it wouldn’t work. He said he thinks it will and whilst he is still living with me he will try his best as I’m worth fighting for. Well yes I am but the trying I’ve seen is honestly below the minimum so it’s just made it easier for me.

we had a row at the weekend because I said his mum can shove her opinion up her fucking arse. He told me I had to apologise I refused. This came as he told me a few weeks back he wanted to and would sleep with other people. In retaliation I packed his stuff and his kids stuff immediately. His mum said “he shouldn’t have said that” that was literally all she said but went on a rampage about how I shouldn’t have packed the kids stuff, how dare I? It’s so wrong etc etc his kids weren’t even here. I decided in that moment his mum could fuck off. How dare she launch into me and drop a one liner about her son’s behaviour.

I’ll just be pleased when I shut that door behind him.

Dippydoraa · 22/05/2024 16:28

HebburnPokemon · 20/03/2024 09:43

I read this phrase on an old 2011 thread here, and goodness it resonated.

Living with other people’s children and their demands and chaos but unable to act on the discontentment or even mention it. I feel like a NPC (non playable character) in a video game. The person no one pays any particular attention to; just sitting in the background and reacting to the dynamics of a situation I have little agency in creating.

Does anyone feel like me? Discontent, agentless (aside from the one and only choice we have: leave) and voiceless. Raising concerns with OH is pointless. It always ends in argument/defensiveness and there’s little they can do about the setup anyway.

I know this sounds like a self indulgent winge, and I guess it is. Being a stepparent is lonely, so reaching out to others for solidarity is a source of comfort for me. I made my bed.

You have just described my life. I feel you.

EyeOfTheCat · 22/05/2024 18:18

EG94 · 21/05/2024 19:09

So update for anyone who’s interested. He gets his keys this Friday. I had agreed for him to stay until 28th as moving when he has the kids I appreciate will be difficult. He then decided to change contact without consulting me for them to be in my home so I told him I was sorry but after this blatant lack of consideration for me, my offer is withdraw I want him and all his stuff to leave on 25th and he will have to re arrange his contact to suit his moving. Needless to say it didn’t go well but needless to say, I didn’t care!

Well done for sticking up for yourself. It’s the height of cheeky really to be permitted to stay and then assume your kids can come and go as YOU please.

EG94 · 22/05/2024 18:23

EyeOfTheCat · 22/05/2024 18:18

Well done for sticking up for yourself. It’s the height of cheeky really to be permitted to stay and then assume your kids can come and go as YOU please.

yep the same kids he repeatedly tells me are not mine, don’t affect me (I fucking wish they didn’t) and he gets to make all and any decisions regarding them without so much as a conversation with me. Why should I have them in my house when they are so clearly nothing to do with me. Can’t have your cake and eat it!

EyeOfTheCat · 22/05/2024 18:36

Quite.

Newestname002 · 24/05/2024 12:55

EG94 · 21/05/2024 19:09

So update for anyone who’s interested. He gets his keys this Friday. I had agreed for him to stay until 28th as moving when he has the kids I appreciate will be difficult. He then decided to change contact without consulting me for them to be in my home so I told him I was sorry but after this blatant lack of consideration for me, my offer is withdraw I want him and all his stuff to leave on 25th and he will have to re arrange his contact to suit his moving. Needless to say it didn’t go well but needless to say, I didn’t care!

Hope you've got the locksmith booked for Saturday so you can, literally, lock him out of your life with immediate effect.

Also reminders (although you may be way ahead):

  • change all your passwords to things he might be able to access, eg: laptop, email, Amazon account, social media, Netflix/all streaming services, internet router, bank accounts, etc
  • Unfollow/unfriend him on your social media and tighten up your security to limit what he can see.
  • if your tech equipment is synchronised, unsync them now
  • ensure - if appropriate - you remove him from your council tax records and claim your 25% single adult occupancy discount. You can do this online on your council's website
  • remove him as a beneficiary on anything (life insurance, death in benefit, Will, pension, etc)
  • if his name is in any of your utilities, remove him. Again you can do this via their website or, if you have their App, you can update there.

Hopefully he's arranging to have his mail redirected so there's little need for him to come around your house.

Good luck- hope it goes well and you can stretch and relax in your own home again. 🌹

EyeOfTheCat · 24/05/2024 14:01

Great advice @Newestname002
Hope to hear an update @EG94 good luck to you.

EG94 · 24/05/2024 15:43

@Newestname002 that’s all done I was just waiting for a date for certain things. We have multi cover car insurance. Pay day and I asked him to transfer he said I don’t have money. I said no problem I’ll cancel your insurance now. It was swiftly transferred. Don’t fuck with a woman who no longer cares!

Newestname002 · 24/05/2024 16:14

EG94 · 24/05/2024 15:43

@Newestname002 that’s all done I was just waiting for a date for certain things. We have multi cover car insurance. Pay day and I asked him to transfer he said I don’t have money. I said no problem I’ll cancel your insurance now. It was swiftly transferred. Don’t fuck with a woman who no longer cares!

Excellent! He's learning not to mess with you! The chancer! 🌹

EyeOfTheCat · 24/05/2024 18:11

EG94 · 24/05/2024 15:43

@Newestname002 that’s all done I was just waiting for a date for certain things. We have multi cover car insurance. Pay day and I asked him to transfer he said I don’t have money. I said no problem I’ll cancel your insurance now. It was swiftly transferred. Don’t fuck with a woman who no longer cares!

Brilliant..!

how are you feeling about it all?

EG94 · 24/05/2024 18:33

EyeOfTheCat · 24/05/2024 18:11

Brilliant..!

how are you feeling about it all?

Excited! Relieved, all the good stuff. My new bed coming tomorrow too so I’m just buzzing

EyeOfTheCat · 24/05/2024 18:37

@EG94 fantastic!

Butterfly212 · 24/05/2024 21:32

EG94 · 24/05/2024 18:33

Excited! Relieved, all the good stuff. My new bed coming tomorrow too so I’m just buzzing

Well done for putting yourself first. May i ask what the breaking point was for you? Sometines i feel like i want to leave as the drama is too much. I didn’t get a hello today when he went and picked them up so i didn’t say hello either i know i should be the bigger person etc

EG94 · 24/05/2024 21:44

Butterfly212 · 24/05/2024 21:32

Well done for putting yourself first. May i ask what the breaking point was for you? Sometines i feel like i want to leave as the drama is too much. I didn’t get a hello today when he went and picked them up so i didn’t say hello either i know i should be the bigger person etc

@Butterfly212 Erm many things. Him as a person was a biggie he is abusive. I felt unseen and unheard for a long long time. He did step up with the kids a bit but was a bit too little too late. He would run away from any discussion, refuse to speak nothing would ever get solved because he never saw he was ever wrong. It also got physical. He’d leave mess was lazy. I felt alone and not part of a team. I guess it was a combination of a lot of things. I guess what made me stay was when he was good he was amazing and I hung onto that hope. Someone on here suggested to read why does he do that and honestly my I don’t give a fuck switch flicked and I saw what I was living in. I saw so clearly for the first time and each time he tried an abusive tactic I was like I know what this is. I just suddenly saw him, the real him who he was and who he will always be. He still says how he wants to try but he hasn’t done anything to change just given me more reasons it’s over. He still says he loves me and my response each time is.. you don’t love me how I want or need to be loved and that’s ok, but it’s time for me to go.

I hope this helped x

bananasaredelicious · 25/05/2024 05:50

@EG94 onwards and upwards! Enjoy your new bed!

Peanutbutterjelly33 · 07/06/2024 20:48

Thank you SO much for posting this. I was starting to feel so alone and depressed thinking I was the worst woman in the world for feeling the same.

Partner has 4 kids. All generally okay behaved but the eldest is extremely spoiled and greedy, a product of being favoured by his dad for his whole life, more so than the others and noticeably so.

The favouritism is at the point where the youngest 3 kids, we have for half a day a week. The eldest one we have all weekend. It just seems really unfair. The eldest gets bought any toy, gadget, trip he wants (Disneyland, Legoland, VR headset, mountain bike, £30 cash pocket money a month, brand new iPhone) and the younger kids are just not treated the same. For context, eldest is 8 and youngest of the bunch is 3.

The favouritism winds me up for obvious reasons, namely being that the other kids are getting older and will start to see how he is favoured.

The main thing though, is the spoiled brat behaviour. His dad can’t say no to him and my god, doesn’t he know it. When he comes to visit he basically rules the roost. Eats whatever he wants, goes into the cupboard and helps himself to my food, stays up until whatever time he wants (no bed time), tells my OH that he wants to go buy toys at the shop, to the cinema, bowling etc and if my OH doesn’t comply turns on the waterworks, guilts him and says shit like “remember when you used to live with my mummy”. He cried once because I said no to giving him £25 and then his dad gave it to him anyway. We are completely ruled by him.

of course I’ve discussed this with my partner, who acknowledges the favouritism and bratty behaviour but says it’s because they have a stronger bond, he was the only planned child and being the eldest of course he needs more time, presents and money. I don’t agree unfortunately.

if I even mention it now, it turns into days and days of arguments. Last time he told me if I don’t like it to leave. The more I put up a fight for better parenting the more he spoils his kid as he feels bad for him that “I don’t like him”.

I dread every Friday when I know he’s due to come over. I make plans for the entire weekend so I don’t have to spend time with them both. If my plans fall through or I can’t make any I feel a sense of dread and panic. The household is on eggshells all weekend, there’s tension and it’s awkward.

instead of addressing the problem my partner has started buying me little presents each Friday before the child arrives. To try and soften me up so I’ll say, “awww, you’ve bought me a gift! Don’t worry about your parenting and spoiled child, all is forgiven!” But that of course never happens. I won’t sit in my own home feeling uncomfortable being forced to watch Roblox on the tv because we aren’t allowed to watch tv when he’s over as he has full use of it. Or being made to share my personal treats I’ve bought myself and hidden in the cupboard because he’s found them. Or not freaking out because my partner allowed him to use a sentimental engraved glass I was bought by a late family member, even though I said it could easily smash and I can’t replace it.

of course it’s not the child’s fault and I don’t blame him. It’s the parenting style of being constantly spoilt and having no boundaries. The kid totally calls the shots, eats continuously without being told no, stays up late, often asks for money or gifts, gets up at 7am and starts running around the bedroom waking me up on my only days off work, moaning/nagging that he’s bored and wants to go to the cinema AGAIN (we go every single week. Sometimes watching the same film twice as nothing is out. He insists he will only watch films in 4DX and we aren’t allowed to book 2D).

its all too much! I feel SO resentful of being controlled by an 8 year old, who by the way, in the last year has convinced his dad into buying him:

trip to Disneyland
2 trips to Legoland
2 week trip to Italy
VR headset (£600)
mountain bike (£400)
PS5
iPhone 14 Pro Max
iPad
Nintendo switch
£30 per month pocket money (he doesn’t even go anywhere to spend it??? His dad buys him everything. He has more savings than I do due to not needing to spend his pocket money)
new toy every week
V bucks every week

that's just a brief summary of the extent of it. Seriously. It’s TOO MUCH! I feel so sorry for the other kids who don’t get a look in. They get hardly any quality time with their dad and he justifies it by saying they’re too young to stay overnight and that the eldest needs special 121 time with his dad regularly. The reality is, it’s his favourite kid because it was the only kid he wanted and planned for.

I know people will say leave. Trust me; easier than it sounds! Financially I’m tied up in living with him. I also work with him so could kiss goodbye to my job. It’s so hard. I feel frustrated to say the least!

EG94 · 13/06/2024 21:14

Ladies, could do with a bit of something I don’t know what! Been a few weeks now and today’s been a bit of a down day. Think I might of just realised it’s all really done. Been really strong and he’s been trying to make contact which I have blanked. Just having a wobble today. The ignorance I have given has resulted in a barrage of messages today about how I’m never happy, I’ll never be happy. I’m abusive and impossible to live with no one will put up with me. He doesn’t want me etc etc and I know this is because I haven’t responded to him. Haven’t replied but I guess self doubt has knocked at the door and I’m just empty and sad. I feel like I can’t talk to family or friends because they’ll be annoyed or unable to understand why I’m upset about him given how he has treated me. Could really do with a hug but a pick me up from you fab ladies would be ace.

Floofydawg · 14/06/2024 06:20

@EG94 classic abuser tactic - turning the blame into you. Don't engage - block him if possible (I don't remember if you have kids with him). He's just trying to goad you into a response.

EyeOfTheCat · 14/06/2024 06:44

@EG94 what a treat he sounds. He’s trying to corrode at your self esteem so you will feel like he’s the only man in the world who wants you. If you’re so awful why is he trying so hard? Anyone that makes you feel back to try and stay with them isn’t someone who cares about you. Block him, don’t allow
someone to talk to you like that.

InterIgnis · 14/06/2024 08:52

EG94 · 13/06/2024 21:14

Ladies, could do with a bit of something I don’t know what! Been a few weeks now and today’s been a bit of a down day. Think I might of just realised it’s all really done. Been really strong and he’s been trying to make contact which I have blanked. Just having a wobble today. The ignorance I have given has resulted in a barrage of messages today about how I’m never happy, I’ll never be happy. I’m abusive and impossible to live with no one will put up with me. He doesn’t want me etc etc and I know this is because I haven’t responded to him. Haven’t replied but I guess self doubt has knocked at the door and I’m just empty and sad. I feel like I can’t talk to family or friends because they’ll be annoyed or unable to understand why I’m upset about him given how he has treated me. Could really do with a hug but a pick me up from you fab ladies would be ace.

Before he left you were focusing on getting to this point, and that means you’re likely to emotionally crash now you’re here. It’s the first time really you’ve been able to be in your own reclaimed space, and you need to allow yourself time to process and adjust. Find yourself again, as twee as it sounds. Focus on the things you want to do, and look for support in those around you who truly want the best for you. Relationships are complex, and relationship endings are too. You don’t feel in binary. I imagine a lot of the friends and family you think will judge you will have gone through this themselves, and may be more understanding than you think.

Him contacting you is making the transition difficult, and he absolutely will throw whatever he can at you to see if he can make anything stick. He’s lost a good thing and he knows it. Remember he also knows you, and he’s knows what is likely to hurt you, and he WILL push those buttons because he’s angry his attempts to win you over have failed. Don’t rise to it, don’t feed it, and don’t believe it either. He’s painting you as a terrible human being, yet if you invited him back he’d be there in a second. It’s an angry man lashing out, that’s all. It’s no reflection on you.

All in all, be kind to yourself. Don’t rush yourself, and allow yourself the time and space you need to process this.

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