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I had a nucal/intergrated test today

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Thomcat · 14/06/2005 23:33

Can't **ing believe it.

Did it for DP, he needs to be sure, or more sure of what was happening, so as it's his baby too I thought, okay fine, i'll do the intergrated test for you, then at least you'll relax and we can crack on and enjoy this.

Hmmm, not so **in' fast aye.

Oh, why, why, why.

So pissed off.

Had the 1st of the bloods taken and week of 1st July will have the 2nd lot taken and then 10 days later get full results.

Today they did the scan part too.

It measured 2.4. Was 3 at one point but baby was in a bad position so 2.4 was the measurement she took.
That on it's own, with past history, gives me a 1 in 89 chance.

Why oh why couldn't it just have been a 1.whatever measurement and shut everyone up.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Someone pass me the remote so I can hit fast forward, to December.

Maybe I should run away and when i come back it'll be too late for anyone to give me any tests and they'll all just have to leave me alone.

Wish D was cooler about it all, I do understand but..... wish I didn't have to be understanding.

It's all bollocks.

Stupid bloody testing.

What have I always said about this, and now look

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marthamoo · 15/06/2005 00:00

You haven't done anything. It's the same baby - your baby - in there as before you had the tests. It will be OK. Whatever happens. Oh I wish I could magic this worry away for you. Think maybe you and D need a big cuddle.

soapbox · 15/06/2005 00:01

TC - the tests don't change anything - what will be will be.

All the tests do is tell you a bit more about what that might be.

Whatever happens this baby will be blessed to have you as its mummy. And you will find the strength to cope with whatever the outcome might be. Which of course is 90 times more likely to be good news than not

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Thomcat · 15/06/2005 00:01

yeah, I'll go up in a minute, just don't want him to see me like this.

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hunkermunker · 15/06/2005 00:02

(A question for the morning because you're in bed now, aren't you, hun? )

TC, how conclusive will the bloods be? I had blood tests when pg with DS and they gave me a "1 in" number - but coupled with the nuchal scan are they lots more accurate? What I'm trying to say is would they ever be able to give you a 1 in 1 chance?

Because if not, then it's all just statistics and you know what they say about statistics. If you'd not had the tests, the "numbers" would still be the same and you might've worried more because you didn't know them? Maybe?

Still not helping, am I? Bloody gremlins again...

soapbox · 15/06/2005 00:02

MM - how do you manage to say what I want to say in about a quarter of the words

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Thomcat · 15/06/2005 00:03

okay thanks soapbox, yeah, and on that note I'm going to rest these puffy eyes.

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Jayzmummy · 15/06/2005 00:03

Lottie fills your hearts and lives with so much love. everyone "feels" the love you have for her from your posts. The feelings you will have for this baby will be the same no matter what happens because you are a wonderful caring mother.

marthamoo · 15/06/2005 00:03

I have to go to bed, TC (ds2 up at 5.30 this morning) but I will be thinking of you. I hope things seem brighter in the morning.

hunkermunker · 15/06/2005 00:03

Dammit - I took ages to write that post obviously!

Stay up as long as you need to TC - don't fret yourself, hun xxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Thomcat · 15/06/2005 00:07

I will be in a min HM, honest.

With the intergrated it's ... I think - 85per cent, so they miss 15 per cent of women, yeah that's right.

Only the dreaded amnio and CVS can tell you 100per cent.

I thought I'd go for the 89per cent but it was supposed to come back with a better result.

Still we've got the bloods to go yet.

Just wish it was more positive at this stage, but life just isn't like that aye.

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Thomcat · 15/06/2005 00:08

must go to bed myself. Night girls.

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hunkermunker · 15/06/2005 00:09

If the measurement had been 1. something, would that have been conclusive?

unicorn · 15/06/2005 00:13

tc.. don't really know what to say, and I hope this won't upset you (as it is in no way my intention).. but these are just odds/statistics aren't they?
In many ways having a baby is a game of chance anyway isn't it?

I'm so sorry you are going through all this,I know what you mean about all these tests, please get some rest and take care.

xxxx

eidsvold · 15/06/2005 05:44

Had written a long rambling post but decided to email it. Will CAT you for your email so I can send it.

Suffice to say - sorry things are worrying But I know you are strong and as you have faced so much and triumphed you will again. BUT it is okay to feel crappy!!

I would go out into your garden and just let out a scream - rage at the world. Might make you feel better.

Merlot · 15/06/2005 08:19

Thomcat - I dont really know what to say, but I am thinking of you and hope you are feeling a little better this morning? xxx

batters · 15/06/2005 08:44

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Enid · 15/06/2005 08:46

thinking of you TC x E

happymerryberries · 15/06/2005 08:47

Batters, I was the same as you, I had to know. I couldn't live with the uncertainty.

Tc i hope that you slept well and that you are feeling a bit better today.

Please don't beat yourself up over this, you are an amazing woman. take care, hugs.

potty1 · 15/06/2005 08:51

TC - hope you slept and feel more positive today. Sorry that you have to put yourself through this. X

Flossam · 15/06/2005 09:03

oh, Thomcat, when I saw this title I really hoped it wouldn't be you. The odds are still in your favour at the moment, hold on to that thought until more information becomes available. Hugs to you, look after yourself. xxx

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Thomcat · 15/06/2005 09:06

The fact is girls, it's not that I've had the test itself but it's what I might have started.

D needs to cross each bridge at a time - understandable. But I need to know what might happen at the next bridge. He's just gently saying, but the message is there, he doesn't want another child with DS. So where does that leave me,. Somewhere I never expected to be.
I can't bear the thought that we won't be united in our decision to keep this baby no matter what and I am totally, utterly, terrified.

I can't tell you how gutted I am. If the results all come back together as low risk then I'll breathe again but I can't relax till they do. I'm full of what if's.

I slept terribly last night. I'm not joking - when I slept I dreamt of testing. They were testing it's hair in my womb to see if the baby was DS, and so on and so on.

Had a bath not a shower this morning to chill out but bad move as I just lay in it and cried.

Perhaps I'll feel more positive later? But right now no matter what stern words I have with myself, all my ususal tricks, that black cloud over my head won't go away, not right now anyway.

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hoxtonchick · 15/06/2005 09:07

oh tc, don't know what to say. xxx

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Thomcat · 15/06/2005 09:10

Perhaps if it does come back high risk D will have changed his mind about taking it any further and ...... ???????????
It's possible aye.

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potty1 · 15/06/2005 09:13

I don't know what to say either TC. Please be kind to yourself.

MandM · 15/06/2005 09:16

TC - How are you feeling this morning? I know how hard it must have been for you to decide to do the test, but you did it for all the right reasons, to try and reassure one of the people you love most in the world.
Tests are shit, right? I think we agreed that yesterday on the other thread, but what it all comes down to is that this baby is already growing into the wonderful, gorgeous little human being that he or she is destined to be and no scans, numbers, statistics or tests can change that. And just as you love Lottie for simply being Lottie, you already love this baby for being whoever they are, and nobody can take that away from you.
I don't mean to sound patronising, because of course you're going to be worried until the bloods come back, who wouldn't?, just try and be positive and concentrate on looking after yourself and babes
Thinking of you all. x