So sick of being so angry all the time because I'm so fucking tired

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2yo DD is a shit sleeper. I never know what the night will bring but guarantee at some point to at least be mutterin under my breath all kinds Of obscenities and every single fucking morning I spend the first 2hours trying to get my sleep deprivation induced rage under control.

I am turning into a horrible mother seriously regretting having Children at all because I'm so fucking tired. She's bloody awesome during the day, cute and funny and clever and hilarious and wonderful to have around, she doesn't even tantrum that much even though she's got a strong will - but I m actively starting to hate her at night

DSsleot through from 8months and at 5 is still a good sleeper - why the fuck won't DD be the same?!

I love this thread. DS is almost 18 months, never slept through. The exhaustion and anger is indescribable, I agree. Only yesterday DP and I were discussing the fantasy of being sectioned due to exhausted hysteria to escape. When will it end? Today he refused to nap so put him to bed early (for him, asleep by 720). Woke up screaming after 20 mins, spent 30 mins trying to appease then left the room. Silence after 15 mins but the screaming again 10 mins later. I just want to eat a bowl of fecking Frosties in peace.

just been reading this post (through the night) and it's hit a strong point with me. I'm that angry aggressive shout person because of a lack of sleep with DS, 1.5 who isn't a sleep through the night sort and the last few months won't even sleep through the evenings. Only time he'll fall into a deep slumber for a long period is when he's in our bed.
I say our bed, but my are of a 'd' h has permanently delete camped to the spare room for the past year to get away from all of this leaving me utterly exhausted and feeling saddled with all of it. I'm ashamed to say that I got the rage with his total lack of support, help or sympathy that after one cruel comment or jibe too far I punched him on the arm, hard. I need help, and truly believe it would come in the former of 8 hours straight zzzz's.

I was vile to dd last night. Shouted at her when she wouldn't stop crying as I refused to feed her again for the third time in an hour.
I promised I would never do cc but after we get back from a week away over Xmas and before ds starts school again she is getting the ass sleep trained out of her because I. Cannot. Fucking. Cope. Anymore.
I feel evil and I hate it but I'm so tired I want to die.

Same boat here. So exhausted ds fell out of my bed last night. I don't even remember taking him in with me. This is bad. I was much better (properly) co-sleeping, but have bowed to husband/family/friend pressure. He's awake every 2 hours. He'll settle for his dad, but just screams at me if I try PUPD/CC/anything but cuddle and boob.

Got dh to do some settling last night. He's still in bed. I've had to take a fucking day off work because ds has had loose nappies (fortunately when sleep is so shot, at least it can't actually get much worse with illness, right?). Dh is off anyway, but is sooooo tired after doing 2 settles that he can't look after his son. Awesome.

I was up last.night for 2hours with my 16month old she has slept through about 4times this year and when I say through I mean 11-5!! It's been awful I'm ill my husband's ill the baby looks knackered our marriage is on the floor. we are having Xmas day just the three of us cos to.he honest we are in no mood to be with tons of folk rage is a constant feeling. I have a childless.friend who's.a.teacher has tons of.money and out at parties.etc all the time and likes.to.tell me that she's so tried.and I'm anti-social for.not going out. She's trying for a baby next.year I wish a bad sleeper on her and that's horrible!!! My mum comes away with it.could be worse she could be ill in hospital etc I want to scream in her face as its.not.a.fair thing to Say. I have a childless cousin who the twice she's actually bothered to.meet me has introduced.me to people saying this is xxx her baby is ...months and doesn't sleep and actually looked disappointed when I said she's a bit better. And other family who ask me if she's sleeping better then roll their.eyes and tell.me stuff.to try as if I've spent the year ignoring it!!! Thanks for making me feel normal

I was telling my husband about this thread and people.dreaming of going I to hospital.to get sleep so.he.said ill punch you you go to hospital ill go to jail and well both get to sleep I just have to put up with doing some gardening and getting bummed in the shower! I no that is not funny but it was just so funny at the time how mad we both have become

Hi ninja - I remember you from pregnancy and new baby threads.
I have a 16 mths crap sleeper too. Last night she was awake 11.30-4.30, horrendous. She won't stay asleep longer than ten mins unless I am in bed with her. I weaned her at 13 mths from the boob and she slept thru for 3 weeks, with DH doing all the bedtime/settling to get to that point. Then as soon as I started doing bedtime vas settling again it went downhill, then illness and molars hit and it's as bad as it was before.

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Hello cake!! how are you? Any cakebaby second helpings to report?
Been up to dd 4 times since 8pm so given up now and she's snoozing in my bed next to me.

I have a 5yr old and a 7yr old that don't sleep. DP has fallen asleep on our bed with them. Started the bedtime routine at about 7pm then it's just 4hrs of screaming and misery for everyone. I fucking hate it. I'm in the bunk bed for the third night in a row. Im seriously thinking about getting a nice memory foam mattress for the bunk bed seeing as I spend more time in it than the kids do.

Hi cake, I remember you too! I like how you recognised me in my Christmas disguise! We had a "good" night with dd last night. She didn't actually wake for the first time until 1am which is unheard of could I fucking sleep? Could I hell! and then she woke another 2 times then up for the day at just before 6. Which is good for her but I think she's probably lulling me in to a false sense of security and she's going to be demon baby from hell tonight so I can be all wretched and haggard for Xmas.

Hi cake , hell no, a virgin named Mary has more chance of getting knocked up than me NO WAY am I going through all that again!

DD still doesn't rate this sleep nonsense then?

Sleep deprivation is hideous. We struggle and sometims resent our gorgeous boys, because we are so tired.

Speaking if which it's way past my bedtime.

I absolutely feel your pain, I have a daughter who is 3 (sleeps really well) but my son who is almost 2 has been a terrible sleeper from day 1.
I thought we where getting somewhere a few weeks ago then my fiancé and I had a night away for his birthday and we are back to the sleepless night. Also im 8months pregnant with our 3rd so could do with this sleep misery getting sorted before bub gets here.
I'm also taking it out on my fiancé and it's really not fair on him.

I cannot fucking take it any more every fucking time my head hits the fucking pillow JUST as i am drifting off..."aaaaegh waaaa" AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH

My 5 yo dd is a great sleeper but my 2.75 yo ds is a nightmare...feel your pain!

I have 2 bad sleepers. 7 years of sleep deprivation and counting!

They call it 'short tempered' I call it murderous.

Absolutelty. Worst thing is I love my kids SO much feel guilty as hell I'm just an unprecedentedly shit mum cos thru the day lately been so tired can't move! It literally feels like torture at the time you get woken too . I don't think I can honestly take it any more

Can I join?

Dd2 is a little gem but at 8 mths has never slept through. Or slept for more than 3-4 hours, it's more like 2 hours really.

DH is in the spare room lapping up a bed to himself, with all that unbroken sleep to himself.

Tonight DD2 woke at 9pm, midnight and is only just going back off now at 2:15.

She's ebf.

I hate controlled crying and she's a very fiery little thing but something's got to change.

We might try moving her into her own room next week but I'm dreading being up all night in her room. Our house is cold and I sleep in a vest and pants only.

Fed the fuck up.

This thread is great . . . Just getting DD (6 months) down for her nap as she was up for day at 5am (and woke a lot in the night, my 3 year old did too). Was quite moany to DH when he got up this morning and he told me off for being negative, says I need to greet the day with more positivity. How when I'm so tired I could punch someone!!! I went to bed at 9 last night to try and get some fucking sleep but am more tired than ever. Am back to work in 2 weeks and dunno how I'm going to do it. As well as dreaming about a private sleep sanctuary I also wish I could just recharge easily and quickly - had an opportunity for a nap yesterday as DD asleep and DS with DH but I couldnt fucking sleep. I wish I was a robot who could just turn herself off for a few mins whenever possible rather than have to lie down & 'get to sleep'. Wonder if I can have a micro nap now after she drops off? I bet not. fucks sake.

thank you. I just typed into google, im so fucking tired cos my baby wont sleep and saw all these posts which makes me feel so much better for swearing and feeling like a fraud and a failure. glad im not on my own with this x

I never get any sleep.

I have fibromyalgia which causes severe sleep disturbance, a snoring DH who also sounds like a flaming express train all night and a 9 yr DD and 6yr DS.

6yr old DS has ALWAYS slept poorly and at night our bedroom resembles Piccadilly bloody Circus.

I actually want to cry at that second when I hear the floorboard creak and I know that he is getting out of bed...

When I actually feel like as though I might drop off to sleep at 5.45am... Hey presto DS and DD get up and are like minions on speed.

I constantly look like I have just been exhumed and my head is a sieve which is not useful at work.

You know what's really shit? When I have the opportunity to go back to bed and I sleep, I wake up feeling so happy and invincible. It's a reminder of how I used to feel.

Ace thread. It's the complaining from boyfriend about how tired he is (spare room since the day she was born, ear plugs in, has never dealt with her between the hours of 11pm and 6am) that makes me properly fucking murderous. He complains about lack of sex too. Ooh, I'm feeling punchy just thinking about it.

YY to the reminder of what normal and happy used to feel like.

And another YY to getting stabby about lack of sex complaints.