So sick of being so angry all the time because I'm so fucking tired

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2yo DD is a shit sleeper. I never know what the night will bring but guarantee at some point to at least be mutterin under my breath all kinds Of obscenities and every single fucking morning I spend the first 2hours trying to get my sleep deprivation induced rage under control.

I am turning into a horrible mother seriously regretting having Children at all because I'm so fucking tired. She's bloody awesome during the day, cute and funny and clever and hilarious and wonderful to have around, she doesn't even tantrum that much even though she's got a strong will - but I m actively starting to hate her at night

DSsleot through from 8months and at 5 is still a good sleeper - why the fuck won't DD be the same?!

I never used to be angry. I am so tired these days, and unwell and angry.
But I'm not depressed and had a totally loving childhood, so how come so angry all of a sudden?

I used to fantasise about filthy sex with Tom Hardy.
Now my daydreams revolve around the Premier Inn down the road. It's new, and the beds, why they'd be like clouds. I'd check in for the weekend, have a bath, put on a new pair of pyjamas and SLEEP. No snoring DH, no wriggly co-sleeping DD who likes to wake approximately 7 times a night. No early bird DS. Just me, a king sized divan and a 'do not disturb' sign. Absolute paradise.

I am sure the anger comes from the unjustness of it all, certainly for those of us who have partners who get 7+ hours of sleep a night,every night, and then complain about how tired they are.

Hello a friend with people who understand! Quiet how we all keep juggling is amazing. I'm a final year degree student on full time placement. So tired all the time.

anyone else want another child but too scared too cos of sleep issues?

MistressofPemberley (great name btw) I'm doing whatever the sleep equivalent of salivating is at that description. Can I come too? I'll get the room next door, you won't even know I'm there. There might be one blissful orgasmic sigh as I slip into bed but that's all you'll hear from me all night. ::wistful sigh::

Mistressofpemberley...oh yes. Yes, yes, yes.

DS is now 9, as a baby he had silent reflux and hardly slept at all. He still fiends it really hard to relax and go to sleep, but usually stays asleep.

DD1 was a joy, the best baby in the world (sorry all) I really felt she was my reward for DS. From 3 months she slept 7-7 ebf, would have a feed at 7 then go back in her cot to play/sleep some more. I also used to check she was still live as I couldn't fathom a child going to bed at 7pm, fed at 7am but was still in bed at 1pm.

DD2 was somewhere between the two, until she came out of her cot about a year ago. I think she has spent 2 nights in her bed since then. Occasionally she will go down awake in my bed (never her own) but more often she will refuse to go to bed at all, or I'll spend 2 or 3 hours sending her back to bed. She is so tired she is miserable. Last week she fell asleep in her tea at nursery!

To make things worse I gave a blood disorder which means I don't carry oxygen well in my blood, getting really tired, snappy, confused etc as a result. I was only diagnosed as my tongue was doer for 4 months and wouldn't get better. I just assumed that falling asleep as soon as you sit on the sofa was normal for a working mum of 3.

Every 2 months I have an injection to correct the blood problem. 2 days ago I was trying to work out why I felt so rough, yes, injection needed a week ago!

I'm lucky as I function well on 4 hours sleep. The problem is I am such a light sleeper that I wake up at every noise. Even when the kids sleep in I don't.

I had 5 days away from the kids in October, I still woke early every day, but it was my body being ready to wake up.

I'm in the depths of sleep regressing 4 month old. DD is resisting sleep at night. Takes up to two hours to rock or jiggle to sleep. Yes, own rod etc. I cried when she woke for the god knows what time last night knowing how long it would take for her to settle. Is it too early for any sort of sleep training?

I have fantasies of putting her in the crèche at my gym for an hour or two and just sleeping in a changing cubicle. Another one is taking the day off work when she eventually goes to nursery. Drop her off, then go home for a kip. I'm sleep obsessed. Going to visit Dsis in London next weekend. I'm so excited at the prospect of uninterrupted sleep. Sod's law I won't manage it anyway.

Doesn't help when NCT ladies post about their amazing 10 hour sleep. Asked the hv who said they must have been cluster feeding on the boob for hours. I'm just bitter and jealous. DD is ff and not out of choice. Rant over. Ahh...

Blue beanie, have you tried a swing? We would not have survived DS's first year without one. We had a take song swing. On a few desperate nights he slept there.

Ahhh this is where I belong! Just bumped my thread about my 19month old who never gives me more than two to three hours, she is also up hourly at least from 2am and often won't settle. It has been a major factor in me getting PND and I am not sure how I am alive some days! My appearance and nerves are wrecked.

That felt good to rant anyway, its hideous my sympathy to all.

I know how you feel. Dd1 started sleeping well at 3. We then got over our exhaustion and managed to have dd2 who is nearly 4 and she still is a crap sleeper. 8 years if broken sleep has made me so stroppy. And has aged me too.

Mikkii - was it easy to wean them off the swing?

Can I rant? 5 times dd2 woke up last night. 5 fucking times. She is nearly 4 and should have grown out if this by now. 8 years if this and I am heartily sick of it. It is the reason we didn't have another child. Am so fucking tired.

God I worry this is not doing DD any good at all. She's been sleeping only fitfully since 2.30 this morning. Surely it can't be good for her brain development? :( :( She's growing fine, always been a big baby, but I worry about damage I can't see :(

Needless to say I've been out of bed since 2.30 myself and only had 2 1-hr sleeps before that, but hey, my sanity's already long gone!! ::self-pity::

DS1 was bad, DS2 was really bad, DS3 wins the prize for worst sleeper ever in this family. 14 months and he's still waking us up to six or seven times a night. The little 'angel' slept through 8-6 three times in a week last month apparently just to lull me into a false sense of security before going back to his normal waking throughout the night. God those three nights of more than four hours sleep were amazing. Now I'm back to slightly insane ragey ranty mum. I seriously think if DS3 suddenly started sleeping through the night ha, as if it would still take me a couple of years to catch up on my sleep and it's quite possible that my brain damage is permanent.

No, Giraffes its the bright ones that don't sleep. The ones that know sleeping is boring and there are much more exciting things to learn when playing convinces self that she has at least one mini Einstein in the house who is going to fund my later life

Out of bed about fifteen times last night, dh and I take turns but it was ridiculous, every half hour approx from two am. And I have four hours worth of driving to do today, feel sick . What on earth are we to do with these children?!

Giraffes I worry about that too but (I think) my dd is older than yours so it may reassure you that there have been no developmental issues at all, language is on track and she walked very early. I don't know how she does it, she should be exhausted. She is grumpy though and that must be the tiredness. Older dd has learning difficulties and autism so I have been particularly aware of developmental stuff having seen my older child not meet milestones etc. older child slept 7 till 7 very early on btw and napped well too. This sleep thing has been a total shock as I assumed dd 2 would be fine by around 8weeks! 19months and worse than the first ever was even as a newborn!

On my second bad sleeper here, and she's currently improved to a point most people would think was awful. Also have the rage, I've shouted so much at DC1 in the past year , always when I'm fucking exhausted. Actually can't talk to people who's children sleep for fear I might scream uncontrollably or stab them....

Oh and DC1 (who was crap until he was 2, and then didn't really reliably sleep through until he was 3 and I had pregnancy insomnia), is now at school and teachers have commented that he's very bright. Obviously its all bollocks, know plenty of bright children who slept well, but I prefer to ignore that and take the only comfort I can.

DD doesn't get anywhere near as much sleep as the 'books' say and there's nothing wrong with her development at all.

I am with you. 2.8 year old still doesn't sleep through. We have tried EVERYTHING. I have a 4 month old too. That means over 3 years of no proper sleep including when pregnant....I am beyond tired. The crying, toddler whinging and whining sends me over the edge. I do love them really. Sometimes. But some days I do wonder if having kids was the greatest idea in the world. I cry from sheer exhaustion. When I have the energy I get annoyed and angry. Small snippets of child loveliness keeps me going. But it is hard. Raising kids is HARD. What pisses me off are parents who do not admit this fact.

I'm trying desperately to snatch an hour now. My DD1 (3.5) who my DH was supposed to be entertaining is now in bedwith me and 16 week old DD2 has been chomping on my boob for the last hour and still not sleeping wen I pull away!
Keep getting angry at the thought of my Dsis with her 2 DS's who sleep thru and know the smug biatch will ring for a little chat anytime so may aswell get the fuck up.

Giving up and taking DD2 downstairs so pfb can sleep peacefully in my bed

Aghh

hv said to cut out dds sleep during the day. she only had about 45 mins at most, and i did this since thursday. of course, there is no solution for kids like this, but i think its helped a bit. sure, she is still waking up, but she is more tired so is able to get back to sleep easier in the night rather than ready to start the day at 2am. of course, its harder in the day especially at teatime when she is so exhausted and melting down and im trying to make the dinner.... but im hoping she'll adjust and it might help her break the pattern. it is SO hard this sleep thing. other people do not understand. when they say they are tired, yes they ARE tired. there is a difference between being 'tired' and being flipping sleep deprived and it affecting everything in your life and feeling ill because you are so exhausted and not being able to function etc etc etc. BIG difference! and a big difference when its CHRONIC. no let up. no catching up on your sleep at the weekends! no sleeping in. my ex just does not get it. planning time to study till 3am in the morning and then complaining cos you are tired as you have to get up for work is just not the same thing, sorry.