So sick of being so angry all the time because I'm so fucking tired

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2yo DD is a shit sleeper. I never know what the night will bring but guarantee at some point to at least be mutterin under my breath all kinds Of obscenities and every single fucking morning I spend the first 2hours trying to get my sleep deprivation induced rage under control.

I am turning into a horrible mother seriously regretting having Children at all because I'm so fucking tired. She's bloody awesome during the day, cute and funny and clever and hilarious and wonderful to have around, she doesn't even tantrum that much even though she's got a strong will - but I m actively starting to hate her at night

DSsleot through from 8months and at 5 is still a good sleeper - why the fuck won't DD be the same?!

People lie that makes me angry! But why lie I don't get it, is there some shame in admitting you don't have a 7-7 sleeper????? DD now at 21months has just recently started sleeping well (ish) maybe one wake up a night. But then there's DS he's only 16weeks - need I say more? I found myself trying to put the milk in the dishwasher this morning, tired tired tired Anyway was talking to a friend who has 25week old who would 'sleep on a washing line, goes down at 9 that's him for the night'. Funny her husband told DH they are still up a few times through the night and she BF's him (the baby!!) in the wee small hours! Why lie?

sorry to see you are still in the sleep deprived camp too!

I'm just so fed up with the constant illness too, I am on antibiotics for I think the 8th time in 12 months, because I am so bloody run down with exhaustion. it's just been one thing after another, and no time to recover before the next one hits. DD was up 3 times last night, as well as one point when she crawled onto my back in her sleep, and suddenly became the heaviest child in the world, and also completely unmovable.

I wish I could just have a night or two of uninterrupted sleep some time.

Oh, and the thing that gets RIGHT ON MY TITS at the moment, is the bollocks I hear from mums of children who normally sleep well, but have a few rough nights occasionally. It's the 'oh, it's worse to have got used to good sleep then have a bad night, much worse than being used to not sleeping!'

Eh, bollocks is it worse. Fuckers.

I have a colleague (childless, has three holidays a year) who is soooooooo tired because her dogs wake her up at 6am - bless!

Keveta I'm no longer in contact with the person who said that to me. I just couldn't understand it - mind you, she's the one who also said, of her 16 week old baby, she couldn't cope, he was still waking for a feed in the night.....

addictedtosugar, batterylow, KittyOSullivan, thank you for the reassurance. DD is 11 months and not yet crawling which doesn't help my paranoia, so it helps a LOT to hear your experiences!

Kveta completely agree re the people who think an occasional bad night is worse. FUCKING TRY IT is a good response I feel.

Rage sharing! 15 month old DS up minimum 4 times a night, ends up in bed with us when I give up, we end up being kicked all night, everyone wakes up knackered. DD gets her head bitten off because mummy is a sleep deprived cow bag.

I have... Out of sheer desperation & worry that I will make some major fuck up at work started controlled crying...

So glad to have found this thread. Its good to know that I'm not alone. 5 month old DS rarely sleeps longer than 2 hours at a stretch and lately not at all in the day.

Everyone I meet says that their baby sleeps through or wakes just once. I had it in my head that by the time he reached 6 months he would be sleeping more. It's fast approaching and there are no signs of it happening. I can't leave him overnight because it's not fair to expect someone to get up with him so much in the night.

Reading this thread is making me realise he may not even be sleeping through by 1!!

Oh, I have found where I belong!

DC1 was a dreadful sleeper until starting school.

DC2 has followed in DC1's footsteps and now starting to sleep a bit better, but always (well, 19 nights out of 20) wakes once a night. Usually at 3am.

I am sooooo tired and such a shouty mum...except for the one or two nights here and there I get a full night of sleep and then I realise how tired I am otherwise.

I have stuff I need to do this evening and no idea how I'm going to stay awake to get it done.

Meathole is no longer with us...

we were up at 3 am the other morning/night? and i was awful - got into a big fight with OH cause i was so freaking angry!she is 20 months...when will she sleep???the worst is she slept through from 4 weeks to 6 months then started this up every hour crap....what the actual fuck? shes better now but better is still bloody awful...

My one year old resisted sleep until 4am last night, even in bed with us. I love him so much but wish I'd never had him sometimes. I'm back to work in Monday and feel desperate.

Can I join in? 16 week old who wakes every two hours and has since birth. Three random nights with SEVEN hour stretches showed me what life is with sleep and now its all I think of. Went to a baby group, where another woman told me cheerfully her baby was a perfect sleeper, even after I said quietly that I was exhausted and hadnt aslept for months. Wanted to kill her. DP makes it worse. His life is the same as pre baby practically, and he stays up til 1-2am every night for 'him' time as his work is so hard ( sob - not) and so makes it impossible to askfor help at 4am when I want to collapse and die. Then he is too tired to help I the evening but gets all stressy on me when I suggest a normal bedtime like all our friends with children. Never mind that I go to bed as soon as baby. Not to sleep mind - too stressed for that as worried about sleep. The bloody irony. Huge argume t this morning. World cup will not help this as he is determined to stay up and watch all games. Angry and tired beyond belief. Dog poo.

I see how I could feel at home here....

I'm on dc no.5 and not had 1 good sleeper out of them all. Ds now 3 never slept, waking every farts end . I was permanently both suicidal and homicidal. Dd is now 18 weeks. Slept 8 hrs from day 1 but hv said to waken her to feed her......HUGE MISTAKE. then started doing 3 hr stretches up to 5 hrs then last 6 weeks 2/3 hr stretches .

2 nights in a row woke only once but then last night back to old tricks again. Hoping it was a case of 2 steps forward...

Surely I deserve 1 sleeper out of 5?

Monstermonkeymum your DH sounds like a douchewad.

My DH is brilliant, we share everything and I still find the lack of sleep hideous. I cry, swear, fuck my job up, don't do anything with my life except work, eat and exist. I dread going out in the evening as I know it means less sleep. I want to murderise everyone especially family members who get sleep yet complain they're tired.

It's the cumulative effect of 18 months (so far) of not enough sleep that's the real bugger for me. To be fair it could be much worse, there have been quite a few good nights - just outweighed massively by the crap ones it seems...

Feeling your pain. I am so effing cross and tired. I hate my DH just because he isn't as tired as me. I mean, how DARE he.

I have a newborn and just turned two year old who woke every night for hours in the last few months of my pregnancy. Out of desperation I dropped his daytime nap which did work. He still wakes sometimes but it's not too often, however am now up with a newborn. Can't win.

I am so glad I found this thread. I am not alone! DS now 10 months old and has always been a crap sleeper but at the moment is getting worse. I am shattered and he was ill last night so had an even worse sleep. I too want to beat up anyone who says their children sleep through or childless people say they're tired. I think the worst thing for me is not being able to fall asleep myself as just waiting for DS to wake up. Then I sleep like the dead, he wakes up, I think I must have had a couple of hrs sleep but it reality it's 30 mins. I could cry at that point because the night looms before me and I know he'll wake up several times. And I hear every single sound he makes. DH doesn't. Argh!

Dolly, this is just how I feel. It's really tough isn't it?