Heartbroken and alone

[Numptynoggin]

haven't posted on here for ages, but badly need someone to talk to.

I am a single mum and met a wonderful man 3 months ago. We were suited on every level and he made love to me like I have never ever been loved before. now he has ended it to get back together with an ex, and I am utterly devastated. We still talk every day as friends, and he has continued to suport me emotionally through some difficult times, and I cannot do without his contact. But I cry myself to sleep at night at the thought she is in his bed, that he is making love to her, cooking with her, laughing with her.

I miss him so so much, and just don't know how to handle this. Trying to keep it together for the kids, but so hard. Hurting so badly.

... my flipping subconscious is not playing the game... dreamt about him all night.... how annoying...

Well I dreamt my two year old committed suicide, they're bad dreams, shake it off, you're doing great!

As a general observation, it's easy to be really nice and fun and supportive and stuff for three months. It's long enough to think you know somebody, but not long enough for any play-acting to wear off. Much longer than that and the excitement, and therefore the attention and energy that a selfish person is prepared to put in to a relationship, begins to wane and then you may well have seen a different side of Mr Perfect. Fortunately, he's doing you a favour by behaving like - to borrow Monty's excellent expression - a cad.

I know..... oh.... RASPBERRIES!!!!!!

Numpty, you are a total honey

Lol at Numpty.

Anyway, I can see your sense of humour emerging too!

Annie - ooh, thanks.

now now ladies, you'll make me

today's little episode of numptyenders.... out on my fb today i had a 'towel related injury' (tripped over a towel and bashed my butt)... which resulted in about 30 comments and quite a lot of banter. bearing in mind I have blocked him, btw, but we have mutual friends and got a flurry of texts from him checking, asking to come round, so he's obviously still keeping an eye on me....

not helping with the whole being strong thing... head strong, emotions still pliable. think I will have to try and block his number on my phone, if i can work out how to

you guys bored yet? starting to bore myself now

Numpty, pretend I'm you, you're me.

What would you tell me?

Or better still, (cos you don't know me lol), your dd is you.

What would you tell her?

And what would you say to cadbollocks?.....

Exactly.

NN, sleep tight. Take care of yourself.

wouldn't say anything... just be there with tissues and wine, to misquote lady gaga....

been quiet today.... no texts.... so can get on with mourning the past now, not wishing it to continue....

sensing I am boring you all now, so this will be the last post on it.... unless of course I have a huge wobble....

thank you all so much (specially monty and mutha) for hanging in there with me... hopefully see you on some other threads and looking forward to getting to know you better.

hugest hugs and heartfelt thanks for your time and your advice... has gone some considerable way to restoring my faith in MN

btw... love cadbollocks as a name

Lol at cadbollocks.

See you around. You take care, and come back here if you need to.

anyone still here? know this has been off for a while, but monty, mutha?

Just read this thread, Numpty you've done so well.. hope you're still ok girlie xx

how's it going, numpty??

So sad for you.

True and genuine and faithful and happy love is so magic when you have it and its so miserable when you lose it.

You are young - I never believed that a second marriage could be so outstandingly happier than my first.

Now I have lost her too - to 7/24 care. Life is suddenly so lonely. I have just bought a lovely golden labrador puppy called Grigor to look after me. He is a magic lad.

Prayers and blessings for your future.

Michael and Grigor (tail wag)