Very sad now!

[ChgdnoM]

I made the decision to stay with my husband and try to get our marriage to work for the sake of our children. Having been honest about all the issues ie. DH's treatment of me, and the fact that, despite being careful I developed feelings for someone else. I am no longer in any kind of contact with OM, but have been so weepy, down etc. I am very unhappy and have gone right back to the way I felt before I met OM. A few years ago we lost a baby, and I feel almost as bad now, as if there is no point going on except for the children. How can I sustain this?

[theDreadPirateRoberts]

Thinking, and hoping, that talking to WA tomorrow will do you the world of good. You haven't had much being believed and taken seriously recently have you?

Sorry for short posts - brain slightly exploding today

[ChgdnoM]

Thanks. I hope your brain is ok. We live in the small bit of a largeish town.
H has switched from talking about "the marriage" and has started saying he loves me, he wants me, he wants us to work. He wants me to talk to him and pull him up if his behaviour is unacceptable.
I would love to get the books, but guess what, we can't afford it atm!!! Are skint until payday. I hate this. H has said he is going to CAB to try to get debt counselling to help with his money problem and that he wants us to get a book and write down everything that we spend in it (have tried this before). Must say i do feel better having discussed OM and H says that the ignoring / shaking his head at me and burning rubber is because he is in a funk because I turned him down. H also says that if he ever sees him he will have to hold himself back he says OM was trying to steal me and that he's a predator. I think he just likes screwing with heads actually.
I have a gig (my first one) in a couple of days.....

[ChgdnoM]

Went to WA today. H at home and said he knew where I was going and he'd looked it all up and did he need to go for a solicitor. I suspect he's still looking at this thread. The meeting was positive and have suggested to H that if he's serious about change that if goes for counselling. Got a tight lipped response.

[theDreadPirateRoberts]

How about this - change your posting name, mail me with the new one on thedreadpirateofmn at googlemail dot com, then I'll change my name and follow you to a new thread where you can post in peace?