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Seeking gentle support after recognising abuse and coercive control

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Becksta1 · 27/04/2026 18:44

Hello. I posted on here last July and the previous post can be seen following this link.
It was kindly suggested to me to consider doing another post to maybe get further support. I’m not sure where I’m at emotionally and truly what I want. It’s a process I guess and I think it will be a long tough one 😞
I can’t really say what I need but I’ve spoken to Women’s Aid who have said there’s sexual abuse, financial abuse and coercive control in my relationship of 24 years. Any support, gentle advice, or a virtual shoulder to lean on is much appreciated.

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goodThingGonewrong · 11/07/2026 11:55

@Becksta1 my experience with social services was just to see if kids were ok and safe ( I called police after an incident with my ex husband as he was throwing things around). Social services called me to check in and that was their involvement.

goodThingGonewrong · 11/07/2026 11:58

Your are situation may need a bit more involvement from them, you may not realise it but from the outside looking in, your husband is a dangerous man. It’s ok not to feel ready yet and take time to process x

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Beckaboop21345 · 11/07/2026 13:04

Thank you. I think I just need to retreat for a bit and give myself some space. I really miss my friend.

Beckaboop21345 · 11/07/2026 14:34

I’d like to elaborate about my worries with SS if I can, now I have some headspace. If anyone has experience I’m happy for input. I know when I spoke to WA on chat she said the concern could be if they witness SA. Anything that happens with us both sexually is in the day when they’re at school or in the middle of the night. Normally im in a deep sleep or when there’s been consensual stuff, nothing happens unless we know our eldest is asleep so as far as I’m concerned there’s no risk. I know if my kids were spoken to, nothing like this would come up because there’s no exposure to anything. My DS has additional needs so he regularly speaks to MH and his teachers and me and hubby have always consented to all the assessments. As part of his transition into high school, we’ve been offered additional 121 support for him over the holidays. The support worker said we can do this with her as a family or she can work with him alone. Hubby and I both agreed that it was best he work with her without us so he can be completely honest about any worries. He’s also very comfortable with other people so we work with that. I’m sharing this because we’ve had options for him to talk to people with us and we’ve always said we’d rather him be honest and I recognise that that’s sometimes easier without your parents. I don’t worry about what my kids might share because there’s nothing to share. If anything it’ll be mums sometimes tired, she sometimes has to nap.

I know this could bring up the question why would I worry? There’s lots of layers to this. I live in a small town where teachers live in the community. My children socialise and attend clubs with teachers children. I don’t want a stain on them or me, these are highly sensitive and embarrassing things for me to deal with and I don’t want people to know and know that about me, or no longer include my children in social events. I don’t want the judgement. One of my friends that I sometimes go out for drinks with is the safeguarding and attendance officer as the high school my DS is attending. He is also best friends with her daughter. In some respect I’d rather nobody believe me and for hubby to crank up the manipulation and put it all on me than have this stigma on me and my children. But by then it’s too late. These things would probably seem less huge if I was in a city and bit living in a town where everyone knows everything and rumours spread. I don’t deserve that and neither do my kids. I don’t want to isolation, I can’t afford the isolation.

The disgusting thing is when you’ve been abused, you have no control. You carry shame. You fear judgement. All this opens up so much of this and the hard thing is, no one can ever be sure what will happen. I have no safety net in my family. I rely on my friends, some are better than others but they have their own lives, their grief and day to day stresses. I will have to lean on them a lot and they can’t provide that. I’ll need to have the support from those that care, and that won’t be there. I don’t want the schools and people I see to know my story.

I also don’t want my last trauma, and MH brought up ever. I don’t deserve that. I’m honestly regretting the counselling I’ve had and MH support because I fear it being used against me. I just don’t want to talk about that or my parents. I mean as part of an assessment they could speak to my parents and that opens up another can of worms. I don’t want to do this.

Theres probably more, but that’s what’s at the front of my mind. I hope I make sense.

TheOldChestnutTree · 12/07/2026 17:46

Becka, I don’t really have any experience or advice, but I just wanted to let you know you’re in my thoughts, and I hope you’re OK xx

Beckaboop21345 · 12/07/2026 20:34

TheOldChestnutTree · 12/07/2026 17:46

Becka, I don’t really have any experience or advice, but I just wanted to let you know you’re in my thoughts, and I hope you’re OK xx

Thank you so much xx

lumierka · 13/07/2026 23:03

Hi Becka,

One step that will cost you nothing is to stop calling this man your “hubby.” He doesn’t deserve that name. In your thoughts and words, label his behaviour for what it is: controlling, deceitful, and abusive. He is an abhorrent abuser, a cheater, manipulative liar and dangerous sexual predator.
The abuser would be a good way to call him from now on.

I’d also start looking for work as soon as you can. A job gives you a reason to leave the house, distance from his constant surveillance and inappropriate actions, and—most importantly—access to money for an escape fund and a network of people you can talk to. If there’s nothing suitable in your town, widen your search to nearby cities.
It’s unlikely you’ll stay in this small town long term if you separate. While I understand your desire to protect the children, you’ll probably need to move to find work and stability. I suspect the move to a small town may have been deliberate on his part to isolate you and limit your options.

Social Services are unlikely to intervene unless there are safeguarding concerns for the children, as a previous poster wrote. Realistically, you have two main options:

  1. Report the coercive control and press charges, then seek a non-molestation order. This is often the preferred route because it allows you to remain in the home while the situation is legally documented. Having documented abuse strengthens your position for child arrangements. Look into organisations that help with non-molestation and occupation orders, for example: https://www.dvassist.org.uk/ and check whether you qualify for Legal Aid: https://www.gov.uk/legal-aid/check-legal-aid.
  2. Find alternative accommodation and move out with the children. This can be very difficult without work or savings, but it may be necessary for your safety. If you go this route, report his behaviour to the police and work with a domestic abuse organisation to document the years of abuse in detail. Thorough documentation will be crucial in court—abusers often fight for equal custody or withhold child maintenance to control finances, and you’ll need evidence to protect yourself and your children.

He will likely try to bring damaging claims in family court, so documenting his abuse is in your children’s best interests. Don’t let the small-town mentality, gossip, or fear of reputation keep you trapped—those things are temporary; your safety and your children’s future are not.

Remember: the shame belongs to him, not you. You carry none of it. It is ALL HIS.

Coercive control is sadly common, and sexual abuse adds an even more serious layer, but police and support services follow standard procedures for these crimes.

From the WA site: Domestic abuse isn’t always physical. Coercive control creates invisible chains and a sense of fear that pervades all elements of a survivor’s life.
It isolates, exploits, and deprives a person of independence, regulating everyday behaviour. Coercive control became a criminal offence in 2015 and is defined as “an intentional pattern of behaviour which takes place over time, in order for one individual to exert power, control or coercion over another” (Home Office, 2023).
How to recognise coercive behaviour:

  • Isolating you from friends and family
  • Depriving you of basic needs
  • Monitoring your time or using spyware
  • Controlling where you go, who you see, what you wear, when you sleep
  • Blocking access to support services
  • Repeatedly putting you down or humiliating you
  • Controlling your finances
  • Making threats or intimidating you
Statistics on coercive control (England and Wales):
  • 49,557 offences recorded in the year ending March 2025 (up from 45,310 the previous year).
  • 1,299 defendant proceedings and 853 convictions for controlling or coercive behaviour in the year ending December 2024.
  • Almost all those convicted were male—832 out of 853.

Stay strong. If you need practical help or someone to talk to privately, PM me.

Hugs,
Lumierka

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Ogham · 14/07/2026 22:46

Really hope you’re doing ok and thinking of you x

UnZenXennial · 16/07/2026 00:05

Just checking in @Beckaboop21345. I thought of you today and just wanted to say that I hope you're doing ok.

ToYouFromMe · 16/07/2026 08:52

Hi @Beckaboop21345
Your in my thoughts.
I hope your doing ok meantime and enjoying the lovely weather.
Sending hugs X

Beckaboop21345 · 16/07/2026 12:27

Thank you all. Tbh I’m feeling very low. I saw my friend on Monday and we were talking about safety planning and she said I can ring her for help if needed but not in the night as she likes her sleep. I’m probably being too sensitive but I felt a bit hurt. I would only ever do it in a “i need to leave now situation” and she knows this as I’ve set my own boundaries. I don’t know how to feel. It’s highly unlikely I’d be able to leave in the middle of the night anyway so I guess it doesn’t really matter. I am particularly sensitive at the minute. I just feel like any barrier that could be thrown at me, is. I hate that I need my friend.

DS has his year 6 leavers assembly today so emotional about that but so proud. I’ll be packing lots of tissues.

hope you’re all okay xxx

alexdgr8 · 16/07/2026 13:57

I agree with you Becka.
O too would be a bit taken aback by a friend saying g that in the circumstances.
But I think maybe it points to just how bad your situation is.
In that most people leading ordinary lives literally cannot imagine just what you are living with.
That's why professional help and support is so valuable.
If you could confide in a woman GP i think that would be a step forward.

Anyway you are heroic to still be functioning as a loving and considerate parent under such conditions.
It's akin to being in a war zone.
Hats off to you.
Remember
You can and you will.

Beckaboop21345 · 16/07/2026 16:55

alexdgr8 · 16/07/2026 13:57

I agree with you Becka.
O too would be a bit taken aback by a friend saying g that in the circumstances.
But I think maybe it points to just how bad your situation is.
In that most people leading ordinary lives literally cannot imagine just what you are living with.
That's why professional help and support is so valuable.
If you could confide in a woman GP i think that would be a step forward.

Anyway you are heroic to still be functioning as a loving and considerate parent under such conditions.
It's akin to being in a war zone.
Hats off to you.
Remember
You can and you will.

I know. I think lots of people have families that love them and care about them and they’re typically the ones that will go out of their way for you. I think it’s hard for people that have that to put themselves in the shoes of someone that doesn’t. I find it really hard to not blame myself, but I can’t blame myself that they chose to have me and then hurt me and not love me.

I’m doing my best. I just know how much tougher everything will be without reliable friends, emotionally I’m not in a position to cope yet and I know it’ll be horrendous when I leave.

goodThingGonewrong · 16/07/2026 23:12

@Beckaboop21345 i think your thoughts on your friend are right, you are right to feel hurt. If you were ever to call her in the night, it would be an emergency and a one off. I can understand why you would feel hurt. And it hurts more as you don’t have a loving family support :( I get why you feel so alone and low. This comment from your friend about “liking her sleep”. It’s odd as she knows your situation is so painful, it might be kinder to yourself to her the benefit of the doubt.

With regards to Leaving and being able go cope, I think you will cope. You are coping right now in a situation of daily abuse in some form or another. You will not have the pressure of your husband being there watching you go to the toilet and touching you in your sleep. You will feel safer. It will be like having a rucksack full of bricks and dropping them in the river. Can you visualise the bricks as all the abuse your husband has imposed on you, and see that rucksack sink to the bottom of the river. You will feel lighter and safe, you are carrying such a heavy load right now x

goodThingGonewrong · 16/07/2026 23:13

Remember you can and you will. In your own time.

Beckaboop21345 · 17/07/2026 06:22

I will give her the benefit of the doubt. It’s a running joke that she likes her sleep so she could’ve just been joking.

Thank you @goodThingGonewrong xx

Eddielizzard · 23/07/2026 16:28

How are you @Beckaboop21345? I hope you're managing ok Flowers

pikkumyy77 · 23/07/2026 16:33

Becksta1 · 27/04/2026 22:12

That’s okay, I could see why that might be a thought. I don’t think he’s drugging me. He has sometimes done it when he knows I’ve took a sleeping tablet and I’ve come round very drowsy to him touching me. I think when I said I don’t remember, I meant that it’s happened that many times I can’t recall each one clearly 😞

He’s not “drugging you” because he doesn’t have to. He takes advantage of your sleepy/disassociated state and your childhood experience of trauma in order to touch you sexually without your active and enthusiastic consent. His actions are just as bad as if he definitely drugged you himself.

He is just as guilty as someone who robs or assaults a n unconscious woman in the park. It doesn’t matter that he didn’t render her unconscious its still assault.

UnZenXennial · 26/07/2026 17:16

@Beckaboop21345 How are you doing? I hope you and the kids are managing to have some fun together?

Beckaboop21345 · 26/07/2026 19:52

I know @pikkumyy77 luckily the last time was only him squeezing my bottom in the night.

Thanks for checking in. I am doing okay. Have had some nice days out with the kids and days at home too. It’s been lovely. Things aren’t perfect with him but I know at the minute I have to suck it up really. I don’t really have a right to complain right now. I’ve convinced myself that one day I can and I will. I’m not giving up I promise. I’m just very exhausted. I’ll keep checking in with Women’s Aid when I can, although that’s harder in the holidays.

i hope you’re all well and enjoying the slightly cooler weather. I’m hoping for a bit of rain to save me a job watering the plants!

Beckaboop21345 · 26/07/2026 20:24

Just reflecting. It’s strange really. I have more freedom when the kids are home over my body I mean. He doesn’t follow me around the same or watch me on the toilet because of the kids. It’s sad really that I see this as a relief when I know it should just be the norm.

He did say a couple of weeks ago that he’d been watching me in the garden sunbathing through the garden camera and it turns him on. I stopped sunbathing from that day. I’d caught him watching me too out of the kitchen door. I know it sounds flattering but I don’t like it.

goodThingGonewrong · 26/07/2026 20:54

I found my bracket the other day that says “I can and I will “ and I thought of you x

I am glad it’s better with the kids at home. The comment about admiring you would be ok if he wasn’t sexually abusing you and controlling you in many other ways. I can understand why you would feel uncomfortable!

sharing your sentiment about the rain. There is a hose pipe ban here so it’s very tiring watering the garden! I hope you continue to enjoy the holiday with the children. Much love 💕

Seeking gentle support after recognising abuse and coercive control
Beckaboop21345 · 26/07/2026 21:13

goodThingGonewrong · 26/07/2026 20:54

I found my bracket the other day that says “I can and I will “ and I thought of you x

I am glad it’s better with the kids at home. The comment about admiring you would be ok if he wasn’t sexually abusing you and controlling you in many other ways. I can understand why you would feel uncomfortable!

sharing your sentiment about the rain. There is a hose pipe ban here so it’s very tiring watering the garden! I hope you continue to enjoy the holiday with the children. Much love 💕

That’s beautiful. Thank you for sharing that with me xx

UnZenXennial · 28/07/2026 00:14

I'm glad you're managing to have some days out with the kids @Beckaboop21345, and that he's giving you a bit of space while the children are home.

I'm hoping for some rain too; no huge garden to water for me, just a few pots on a balcony, but I'm a terrible sleeper at the best of times and this heat makes it near impossible.

Anyway, I just wanted to check in and let you know we're still here and that you can and you will.

Beckaboop21345 · 29/07/2026 17:52

Thank you. To be honest I’m very down. Weirdly not because of anything at home. My friend has basically said I should speak to a therapist now and not her about stuff. We don’t talk much because it’s not safe to talk openly on my phone so it’s normally when I pay her for a treatment and we talk. I completely understand why, it’s hard to speak to someone who’s constantly processing and trying to move forward very slowly and starting to slowly find their voice. But it has triggered lots of feelings especially from childhood. I know this is complicated and people on here probably feel like that towards me too. I am working towards my goal and nobody is more frustrated with me than me.