Thsnkd for your latest update. I’ve been thinking of you over the wkend.
To a greater of lesser degree there’s others out here going through what you’re going through right now. We are staring into a void of life without the one person we thought, in all the world, was our dearest love and best friend.
Sadly there’s no magic bullet to fix it and, if he came back tomorrow you will always resent the pain he’s inflicted on you. The pot’s been cracked, it’ll always leak resentment and bad memories.
Just keep on keeping on. What else is there to do? One foot in front of the other, one breath at a time.
Try to think of something small you can do to feel a little bit more in control. It was a good thing to cancel the estate agent, it was a good thing you held it together in Tesco. I know exactly how that feels. Been there!
Fresh air, getting out of the house everyday is essential. You must go for a walk, every single day. It helps. It really does.
Im retired so my day is not filled with the panacea and distraction of work. Why not dry your tears and try burying yourself in your professional life. Work harder and longer. Get some control back in that quarter.
Could you think about booking a little holiday for some winter sun? Would a retreat or activity break suit you? It will be a “control” tactic.
I’m away next month and will probably book again for January or February. I don’t want to travel alone, I’d like him with me, but hey ho why should I put my life on hold?
Finally, you’re not alone. We have to believe “this too shall pass.” That’s the hope, the mantra, lots of us are hanging onto at present.