Should I sent the paragraph to him?

[serenabar]

I wrote a message on my notes for my ex. I wanna send it but at the same time im scared too.. this is the message:
im scared he will leave me on delivered, or that he will tell me he is with someone else now.. but at the same time i wanted him to know this..

You probably won’t open this, just like you didn’t open the yesterday one. But I am gonna say it anyway.. I never expected that we would disappear from each other’s worlds. I never expected you would be okay with that. I never expected you would not care what I have to say to you, I never expected you would ignore me like that.
But they say men are quite simple.. “the way a man treats you is exactly how he feels about you. If he wants to talk to you, he will reach out. If he wants to see you, he will make plans with you. And if he acts like he doesn't care, then he doesn't care.”
Yes, looks like you stopped caring. I was there when you needed me, I answered all your questions and when I mentioned I was hurt too - you disappeared. Yes, you showed me once again my feelings are not valid. I am just someone from now another universe for you. You seem like you are doing just fine, like you are forgetting all about me. I wish it was that easy for me too. But then again.. this new you is not the man I fall inlove with. He would never do anything like that, he wouldn’t just delete me from his life. And that man is gone. He no longer exists and I gotta acept that. Its a new you that I don’t recognize, I just don’t know him. It hurts now but the sun will rise again.
No one can take away the person who you were when we were in love.
Not even you. That person can stay in my heart for as long as I decide.
I think he loved me.
Even when you hurt me multiple times, I still didn’t leave. I won the I love you more.
You put me in enough breakups for a lifetime. And I still wouldn’t walk away from you. Cause not for once I looked at another guy, not for once I accepted any follow request. Cause for me that will be offensive thing for my man. I’m pure and I’m loyal. When I love - I love hard. And i know cause when you want something badly you just don’t give up. Everything can be sorted. Absolutely everything. Of course if it’s wanted.
I guess I got my closure too.
No one is going to want something and let it slip away. That's not how the human heart works.

This might sound a little bit harsh and yet I am risking saying it anyway because I think you are strong enough to hear it, understand it, and it might help in the long run 🤞🏼

what he is doing or feeling or looking like is none of your concern

not looking well or seeming happy nor tears tripping him in sackcloth and ashes

how you are doing, how you are feeling and how you are looking are your concern

yes we might all have that nosiness that social media has exacerbated to dip into someone else’s life - but is it really real life?

we won’t know how many artful angles and different filters it took, how many photos or clips were flipped through to find one they wanted to post to best illustrate whatever image they wanted to project

what we can know is how we are feeling, what life tasks we are getting completed and how much of a sparkle our eyes have when we look in the mirror of a morning

hopefully the tears have washed some of the anguish of not knowing away, leaving clearer eyes and heart fresh for being curious about your well-being and happiness

therapy, done well, can refocus us on making the most of our own lives without sacrificing ourselves, or others, to that end

keep caring for yourself, keep curious about yourself in therapy and keep on keeping on (your own path)

💐