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The love of my life has just left me and I am heartbroken.

412 replies

Ifuckeditallup · 26/08/2023 14:43

After a series of arguments, mainly caused by my about the same thing over and over again my dp has left me. He took his bags today and went. My heart shattered into a million pieces watching him walk out that door. He has blocked me on fb which is the only platform either of us use and pretty much is cold as ice now although we have had to message about the kids today.

Help me get over this? I loved him with all of my being and fucked it up with one last argument last night that he is not going to get over. Not ever. Aside from the recent arguments we have only had about others in our relationship. I have lost my best friend, my team mate, my lover all in the space of a day. What can I do to heal? It hurts so very much. I am dying inside right now as I type this because I dont want to tell family or friends. Im shattered. Please help me cope.

OP posts:
billy1966 · 27/08/2023 12:57

I am taking the OP's posts as the truth.

I would be very interested to know what exactly he said to the police.

If you were pissed off with him, but coherent with your children, the police were surprised by what they found, versus what thfy were told, even more reason to know.

I absolutely think you are not in full possession of the facts.

Do not contact him again.
Tell your friend what is going on.
Find out what he told the police.

Start accepting that this relationship is over and he absolutely wants that.

I think knowing what he told the police will enlighten you.

He is not in your corner.

I am so sorry.

RandomForest · 27/08/2023 12:58

You appear to be absolutely terrified of losing this man, to the point that you have surpressed you own feelings and worth to keep the peace, the alcohol made you voice probably years of pandering to him.

You could count the amount of arguments (4) on one hand like a badge of honour, you are keeping score for him and yourself as though you are on parole.
No misdemeanors, no reason for him to end the union no reason for you to lose the benefits of having this man.

This doesn't just feel like an unequal balance of power emerging over the years, it looks like you knew fully from the beggining it was unequal and were willing to put up with that.

I've seen relationships like this and they usually involve being with someone famous and wealthy, a disregard for their own needs and to make the relationship perfect.

Whiskerson · 27/08/2023 13:34

It sounds like the fact he's never proposed has left you wanting to prove your worth to him, and the fact that he didn't propose on your birthday left you feeling humiliated - not just because it didn't happen, but shame for wanting it and not being "cool" about it, shame that perhaps he doesn't love you enough and you feel foolish for hoping.

I am just reading between the lines here - you started just by talking about spa vouchers, and only later mentioned about your friends and family expecting a proposal. That seems a pretty significant piece of the picture to wave aside, and I wonder if you are often feeling the need to wave it aside, wave aside your needs and hopes.

It is OK to want to be married, and it's not OK if he is in any way holding it over you and setting up a dynamic where you have have to be a good girl and wait nicely for your prize if it ever comes. If any of this rings true for you, this is something you need to discuss with him but also be prepared to let go of, for your own peace of mind.

AllOfThemWitches · 27/08/2023 14:16

Listen, he didn't have to reply to your message if he really didn't want you to speak to him. He's fucking with you.

MissHarrietBede · 27/08/2023 14:21

The leave me alone message could be him setting you up for another scenario, where he accuses you of harrasment if you DO message again.

Ifuckeditallup · 27/08/2023 14:27

I think he is fucking with me, he has sent me a picture of him and the kids out.

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Ifuckeditallup · 27/08/2023 14:28

He has never shown manipulativeness (is that a word?) before. This is weird of him. How can you be with someone so long and think you know them inside and out and they can just become almost a stranger overnight?

OP posts:
Ifuckeditallup · 27/08/2023 14:30

I have not responded to the picture. I am starting to worry to be honest. Kids are all fine though so that is the main thing.

I went for coffee with my friend but she has had bad news about her health so we did not discuss my issues at all as she needed a good cry herself. I am afraid for her but I admit my tears were there anyway for myself so I cried along with her.

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MissHarrietBede · 27/08/2023 14:44

Good you didn't respond.

How can you be with someone so long and think you know them inside and out and they can just become almost a stranger overnight?

From many many many threads on here, this happens when there is an OW or at least contemplating one.

Ifuckeditallup · 27/08/2023 14:47

@MissHarrietBede but if there was would he take three educated logical kids who would notice another human with them? He has just been with them nobody else. He is out and about with them having fun and no sign of anyone else around.

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Prelapsarianhag · 27/08/2023 14:49

What a cunt of a man to call the police on you for a drunken rant. He is not your friend, he is setting you up to be the bad guy. Do not dance to his tune by feeling guilty - he should feel fucking guilty for calling the police on the mother of his children, just so he can try to take control of the narrative. Horrible fucking wanker - you deserve better.

MissHarrietBede · 27/08/2023 15:02

Ifuckeditallup · 27/08/2023 14:47

@MissHarrietBede but if there was would he take three educated logical kids who would notice another human with them? He has just been with them nobody else. He is out and about with them having fun and no sign of anyone else around.

I doubt he's that stupid! of course OW if there is one, won't appear yet.

Whatever the case, he's up to something that involves you being the bad guy.

Flakey99 · 27/08/2023 15:02

Reading the OP and updates, there’s clearly far more to this situation than a couple of shouty arguments will cause.

You’ve admitted that you were drunk when you kicked off so I’m guessing that you’ve got a poor relationship with alcohol generally. Are you a binge drinker in denial, and your DH has finally had enough?

Alcoholics are usually quite selfish individuals and never accept responsibility for the suffering that they cause their families. Maybe this is the wake up call you need?

MissHarrietBede · 27/08/2023 15:05

See how many posters are saying you have an alcohol problem. See how easy it is for him to concoct stories around this with people you know.

RadishAndTwiglet · 27/08/2023 15:16

Well this thread has turned slightly odd, given your first ten or so posts, where you were quite explicit that this was all your own fault, you'd were picking arguments two or three nights on the trot after too much to drink, banging on about the same issue over and over, because (having told him a few days earlier that is his planned birthday gift was 'creepy') he didn't manage to conjure up something better out of thin air in what time he had left, because his credit card was lost.

Your drunken insistence on 'going ballistic' in another argument at the end of a night out had finally driven away this patient, perfect man, your best friend, who had been pushed too far and he'd told you he was done. You were ashamed and bereft that the police had to be called to 'calm you down.' He packed his bags and left you, blocked you on FB, broken your heart, never coming back.

It only took a few people to insist that actually he's the manipulative narc in this scenario, calling the police unnecessarily just to make a fool of you in front of the children and the neighbours. He was never scared, all you did was an tiny bit of harmless lady-shouting. I mean what grown man would be scared of that?

And the police only came out because they were bored and had nothing else to do, so there's nothing for you to be ashamed of after all. A storm in a teacup. Nothing to see here. He phoned them while he was in the bathroom, presumed to be doing a pee. That's evidence, apparently, that this was all a nasty bit of manipulation on his part.

If it were a woman it would be assumed she was locked in the bathroom for her own safety, or just so she could make the call without having the phone ripped from her hand by the shouty drunkard, but in this case it's assumed he's casually calling the police while doing a pee, to make you look stupid and to exert some sort of power over you. This amazing 'best friend' who is 'too good' a man, this normally 'loving and tactile' husband of yours, who you have a 'healthy' and 'happy' relationship with. He just called the police while doing a pee, to punish you for shouting about the lack of a birthday present.

And he hasn't actually 'left you' or 'blocked you' as such, he's just stuck the kids in the car and gone to the holiday home for a couple of days, leaving you to stew in it, to make you doubt yourself and think you behaved worse than you did. Because apparently it was his plan to engineer this whole thing so he could leave you, all along.

You've been convinced by all these posters that you are the victim here, you seem happy that your children have brushed off the whole experience without a backward glance, no trauma, nothing, (although perhaps quietly wondering to themselves why on earth Dad called the police on Mum for no good reason) and they are not actually thinking their family life as they know it is imploding and worrying if divorce is imminent. No. None of that. Just a couple of days at the holiday home with Dad but not with Mum. A few happy, normal texts back a forth.

Suddenly it's all very a different vibe going on in your posts from the immediate aftermath. Now he's fucking with you, telling you to leave him alone, then reeling you in with photos of the kids, discussing what they've had for tea etc.

There is some complete bullshit going on here somewhere, I'm just not sure where, or from whom.

BustyLaRoux · 27/08/2023 15:20

Oh FGS sake Flakey99 just read the updates!

BlueMoe · 27/08/2023 15:21

Prelapsarianhag · 27/08/2023 14:49

What a cunt of a man to call the police on you for a drunken rant. He is not your friend, he is setting you up to be the bad guy. Do not dance to his tune by feeling guilty - he should feel fucking guilty for calling the police on the mother of his children, just so he can try to take control of the narrative. Horrible fucking wanker - you deserve better.

So what should he have done? Let her carry on or leave, and leave the kids with her?

billy1966 · 27/08/2023 15:22

MissHarrietBede · 27/08/2023 15:05

See how many posters are saying you have an alcohol problem. See how easy it is for him to concoct stories around this with people you know.

Edited

Exactly.

So many posters tell the OP she has a serious alcohol problem when she has said she drinks moderately.

So many posters are unable to accept what an OP writes.

OP, of course he hasn't brought another woman out with your children....don't be silly.

The point is that he may well be planning on looking for another relationship and the easiest out, particularly if you live rurally, is to paint you as a drunken unstable woman that he had to get away from.
Some men cannot be the bad guy.

How do you think his upping and leaving be viewed by family and friends?

Would he be sensitive to how his leaving you and his children will be viewed?

Does it benefit him to paint you badly?

Tiddlywinks63 · 27/08/2023 15:28

@RadishAndTwiglet i agree.
Now apparently the OP is almost completely innocent, he’s being unreasonable and abusive etc.
perhaps this latest episode is the final straw? I honestly can’t believe that the children were completely unaffected either.

978q · 27/08/2023 15:29

Is there a reason the children are with their father, when do they return to you?

butterpuffed · 27/08/2023 15:33

The majority of the posts at the beginning are sticking up for the DP , and then it changed to OP being a victim and PPs sticking up for her .

We will never know what's true and what's not , because , as per usual , we obviously only hear one side of the story .

MisschiefMaker · 27/08/2023 15:40

All this "if you were a man you'd be vilified!" stuff is complete nonsense.

Men yell all the time. They yell at their kids. They yell at work. They yell in general when they're stressed. They yell at their girlfriends and sisters and even their mothers and fathers.

If we called the police on men every time they shouted we'd have no men outside the prison system and the police force would completely collapse.

The OP says she didn't smash things, there was no weapon, she didn't hurt or threaten to hurt either DP or herself, she didn't even call him names, she just shouted loudly and ranted and raved about him not buying her a present and said it was selfish of him and that she felt under appreciated.

I know everyone has different tolerances for arguments. But, assuming the OP is correct in her recollection of events, then I think the DH in this scenario was awful to call the police.If anything is going to traumatise the kids it will have been his actions not hers.

I stand by my post and think he did it to punish you and send you a message that you can't shout at him like that, not because the police were actually needed. It was a power play. I would be very hesitant to go begging him to get back together in this scenario.

978q · 27/08/2023 17:11

What did the Garda do, anything, nothing?

Stravaig · 27/08/2023 17:28

@RadishAndTwiglet Yep.

OP, first you were hyped up by friends and family to expect a proposal, and now by MN to see yourself as the victim rather than the abuser. You're either very practiced at manipulating the desired responses, or very easily led in the face of actual reality. Or perhaps a combination of both, first planting seeds, then harvesting the comforting illusion. Whatever the truth of it, a therapist can help you untangle things, and support you through whatever happens next.

tolerable · 27/08/2023 17:42

hi- @Ifuckeditallup . i did intend to apologise yday at my response-i realised sober up/screw your head on was unhelpful (and id of been pissed off)
Ive read through your updates, Still a bit confused.
Suspecting potential proposal all way to police,leave,final curtain surely sounds like extremes .
Given you repeatedly indicate the police were called \attended -do you think that was ott (of him?)
Leaving,cos hes angry and you both need a cool down-isnt too horrific. Why are you certain this is the END?
hes off to hols home,active with the kids and youre 2 days in break down crying.Why?
When are they returning?

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