Need a hand hold tonight.

[FromLittleAcornsGrow]

Just that really. My partner of 8 years has just broken up with me. He doesn’t want to see me anymore. I know deep in my heart it’s for the best but tonight I’m sad. For the lost 8 years, for the loss of him and the good times.
For thinking at 58 this is it for me. I will
Most likely be on my own now forever with no one to hold me or love me or be there just for me.
I can’t imagine starting all over again with someone new.
I thought we’d grow old together and share our retirement.
it wasn’t meant to be for us. I couldn’t give him what he needed and he couldn’t provide what I needed but I will so miss his friendship and the good times.
Tell me it gets better. That I won’t always feel this lost and lonely.

I hope you have a better day tomorrow.

Thank you. I have plans for tomorrow so that should help distract me. I've also been busy trying to book tickets for future things with friends and family so that I have things to do that are concrete.

Your opening post put a lump in my throat. I am in the same boat but the difference is it is completely my fault. But I have been through it before when I didn't think I could move on. But, I did move on and found there is definitely life to be enjoyed after a breakup. Your strength will grow everyday until eventually you cross the bridge to acceptance and the loneliness won't consume you. You will move on. I can promise you that. But, just like you, I will have to go through the process once again And dont think because of your age you won't find happiness again. you will and. I know I will. And I am 72.

Harrison it is so hard isn’t it? So sorry you’re going through it too. Age isn’t a barrier to heartbreak but the older we get the harder it is to face starting over again and again. Yet contemplating life without a special person is also hard. I’m not someone who needs a man in my life to complete me. I am independent and can manage alone but I enjoy having a partner to love me and do things with. I am struggling to get over this. A month in and I miss him so much. We can all get through this together with the support of each other.

@Bone11 Have a lovely day.
@FromLittleAcornsGrow great last post.

I've have experienced a lot of trauma and heartbreak in my life. But the difference is I have CAUSED more heartbreak than I have experienced. And, the people who have been hurt the most are the ones that I have loved the most. But, you may not feel it now, but you are still young and half a lifetime left to find yourself again. You will, as I willl. It is true what Liddy said: That does not kill us makes us stronger. Unfortunately, as in my case, it does not make us smarter. That one is on us. We also have to learn from the hurt or it will bite in the ass again in the future. I hope each new day is better for you than the last.

How are you all today?
i just finished work. Trying to find the energy to cook/eat.
I hate cooking for just me…
as for eating alone. What’s the point in that? Everything just tastes like cardboard and stewed knitting

You've just described most of my cooking there. I could burn a salad.

peterlemonjello normally I am a reasonable cook but I’ve still got no appetite. I make myself eat once a day ! But it’s such an effort!

Eating once a day is better than not eating. Morning and evening can be the worst. Sometimes little and often is better too.

Did you eat/cook? @FromLittleAcornsGrow

peterlemonjello I found some bolognaise sauce in the freezer and cooked some spaghetti. Ate and then threw up straight after! But that’s not happened before. Think I’m just tired after a long day at work! Early night for me I think.

Well that's rubbish. I hope you feel better soon.

Hope you feel better soon Acorns. I'm sure your cooking is lovely! Get some rest x

Hi Bone. I hope you have had a good day.

Morning

just checking in…. It’s been a rough hard week post Amsterdam. The come down of being away has hit me and juggling half term and a simulation placement for uni has got me. Boys at their dads now and again the quietness is too much.

teying to make an effort and sit in the sun and go in the hot tub and do self care.

x

Hi Grenola .What is a simulation placement?

It’s a placement (nursing degree) but online community group work devising a con unit resource public health initiative.

so hard to manage it with three kids at home and one disabled one. These types of weeks I question if and why I’m doing it… but it’s for me…. So I feel fulfilled outside of motherhood and a route financial security

the sunshine is helping though this weekend x

My ex is a nurse so I know how much work is involved to qualify and with children to juggle. It's tough, but you'll get there.

Thanks x

Glad you’re ok grenola it’s tough juggling a course like that with children but it will all be worth it in the end.
I struggle with the sunshine as I want to be out doing stuff but can’t be bothered either.

Hi how are you all? Not such a good day for me today. Every time I think I’m coping another day rocks up and punches me where it hurts. How long does this aching heart last?

Hello Acorns. Its just a bump in the road.

Hi peterlemonjello
feels like a blooming long road today!

Hope today is better Acorns.