Total anti climax unfortunately.
Idiot here got excited and thought oh he must be thinking about me too. He just wanted to confirm I dealt with a condom splitting. Nice.
I obviously did btw. I got the MAP first thing.
I was like wow ok that was an anti climax.
He apologised. I said don't worry about it and reassured him all was dealt with.
He then said he didn't want me to think, that he thought, we just fucked and that was it.
I said well did we not? He said he felt it was slightly more than that.
I was then upfront about the fact I liked him and would like more than just a random shag.
Insert some flattery from him about how great it was, never had anything like that in his life yada yada.
....followed by confirmation he's getting back with the ex but wouldn't rule out a repeat at some point in the distant future.
He tried to soften the blow by saying "if there's anything I can ever do for you let me know"
Me, feeling pretty shit by this point, asked what exactly he was referring to. He said he was just being nice.
I've had that line in the past before when I was being chinned off by somebody else so rolled my eyes at that.
He wanted to ask me one last question, basically confirmation of something that massaged his ego and made him feel good about himself. Apparently I've changed the way he looks at himself in a positive light, which is nice.
I'm sitting in the bathroom having a bit of a cry now, whilst I scrape up what's left of my dignity and use it to compose a text making it clear that I'm out now and will not be making myself available for any further NSA sex.
Gutted. I feel so stupid and mad at myself.