@buttercup1001
Yes the nurse will do the coil at my Gps.i feel trapped because I love him I really wish there was a way I could makes ends meet with the social my and my partner getting help .
Well you need to make a decision.
Do you want to be with this man so much you're willing to risk your life (potentially) and a lifetime of abuse (definitely) to be with him?
Do you want to be with this man so much he was worth losing your son for?
Do you want to be with this man so much you're willing to bring another innocent child into the world knowing they would either grow up in an abusive home or put in care?
Do you want to be with this man so much you're willing to never have more contact with your son than you do now and realistically have less as time goes on?
Do you want to be with this man so much that you allow him to repeatedly strangle you, control your contraception, dictate what happens to your body and think you're shagging men if you even look at them?
Answer each of those honestly and you'll know what to do.
Maybe you are willing to do those things. Base your decisions on if he doesn't change, because statistically he's more likely not to than he is to do so.
You've given him zero reason to do so.
You gave up your own son for him. Unless you leave now, he must think there's nothing you won't do for him.
He doesn't love you. He doesn't even like you. He thinks women are always looking for another man to shag if they so much as make eye contact. He thinks children are replaceable and disposable. He thinks you are worthless.
Can you answer those questions I've asked above to try and examine your own position on all this?