Why *(content warning: concerns domestic abuse)

[mcdreamymcsteamy]

I'm shaking writing this but I don't have anybody to talk to in real life. I have no family and I'm too ashamed to tell my friends. I have no where to go.

But I need to tell somebody.

Yesterday whilst holding my 12 week old baby he slapped me across the face. Then when I swore at him he put his hands around my neck and choked me until I sat down on the sofa.

Today he was holding the baby and I was sat in the comer of the sofa, he'd made a comment that I am insecure that's why I always wear black underwear?! I said he is a sick fuck for hitting me with a baby in my arms, he put the baby in the Moses basket and said I'll show hits then bang there was 3/4 hits across my head and a chunk of my hair on the floor! I tried to kick him then more fighting but it's a blur but somewhere in there he shouted at me that I'm fat as fuck and made nasty comments about my stretch marks and my arms.

What the actual fuck.

He is not here right now and im sitting plucking up the courage to ring the police.

Wishing you strength and safety.

Call the police.

With any luck he'll resist arrest and get the fuck kicked out of him.

Sending love and strength,although you sound like you've got this now. Well done. Each step is one step closer to a safe future for you and your little one. I wish you peace.

Good luck 💐

Thank you so so much everyone. I was kept in hospital as I had head and neck pain and required an X-ray on my arm. Anyway We are home and we are safe. The police visited me with a domestic violence worker, I have a social worker visiting me tomorrow and a mash assessment being carried out and my house will be fitted with panic alarms.

I'm in shock. I'm sad. Sore but most importantly we're safe. Thank you again, to anybody who reads this I know how terrifying taking the step is, but if I can do it anyone can

So glad for you and thank you for the update x

So pleased for you. I know it's not easy.

so glad to hear your update. You are safe. Just keep saying that - it is amazing and somewhat of a miracle, given the danger you were in. Now to healing and moving forward. You've got this!

What a fantastic update. Well done you, this must have been so hard. Keep strong, keep safe, make sure that dear little babe has their Mum. They've only got one good parent, so you've got to keep that one safe!

I’m so pleased you are your baby are safe.

Thank you so much you lovely people, your support has made me emotional but it's a boost to read such kind messages.

Sometimes I feel like a weight has lifted but then I think he won't take this lying down and something will happen. I am just trying to watch tv and then keep crying but keeping myself busy with the baby. I suppose it's normal to feel like this and I'll talk about it with the support workers but I feel too scared to even go for a walk

It's understandable that you're feeling so frightened and threatened, and it's not unreasonable that you do.

@mcdreamymcsteamy I am sending you strength. Please do not be afraid to get as much support as you can, as he is truly evil.

OP, Did you go to the hospital and as the abuse been reported to the police? Please let us know how you are doing as there are some of us here who are worried and concerned about you your baby welfare.
Best wishes xx

It’s understandable you feel uneasy about how he will react but any contact you need to be telling the police so they have track of it.

@TomHardysjockstrap

OP, Did you go to the hospital and as the abuse been reported to the police? Please let us know how you are doing as there are some of us here who are worried and concerned about you your baby welfare. Best wishes xx

Yes I did, back home now and expecting a visit from a social worker tomorrow. Love the username that made me laugh 😆

Every noise I hear outside I'm shaking but I think I'm just processing the shock.

He knows every detail of my life, where I work friends live etc how the hell do you begin to move on from this?!

@S111n20

It’s understandable you feel uneasy about how he will react but any contact you need to be telling the police so they have track of it.

He hasn't tried to contact me so far, I'm just worried that he would ignore what he's been told and try and come for me. I need to discuss with the police removing his belongings

Well done on taking a massive step. You've got this, you are strong and brave.

I'm so glad you're safe

I’m keeping everything crossed he leaves you alone xx

You have proof of what he did. Hopefully he'll lie low and stay away - you rock ! You did the hardest bit

Really, really well done op! Don't ever let this monster back into your life.

Well done op! I hope he stays away xxx

So sorry OP. Have you thought about having a security camera outside and some cameras inside, in case he does turn up ?

Hi op, I kept coming back here to check if there were any messages from you. So relieved you are safe and police are involved. Did the police call him then to get his things and move out? How's this going to be arranged? I hope there'll be someone with you when he comes to pick up his things? If you feel safer home, please just stay home for a bit until you gain confidence and feel better, call the supermarket and let your neighbours know what's happening too (even if it's embarrassing, who cares when you are in danger) did he contact you, send you any text messages?
You took the very difficult first step, now it's a slow but steady path back to recovery. You can do it! My thoughts are with you.