Why *(content warning: concerns domestic abuse)

[mcdreamymcsteamy]

I'm shaking writing this but I don't have anybody to talk to in real life. I have no family and I'm too ashamed to tell my friends. I have no where to go.

But I need to tell somebody.

Yesterday whilst holding my 12 week old baby he slapped me across the face. Then when I swore at him he put his hands around my neck and choked me until I sat down on the sofa.

Today he was holding the baby and I was sat in the comer of the sofa, he'd made a comment that I am insecure that's why I always wear black underwear?! I said he is a sick fuck for hitting me with a baby in my arms, he put the baby in the Moses basket and said I'll show hits then bang there was 3/4 hits across my head and a chunk of my hair on the floor! I tried to kick him then more fighting but it's a blur but somewhere in there he shouted at me that I'm fat as fuck and made nasty comments about my stretch marks and my arms.

What the actual fuck.

He is not here right now and im sitting plucking up the courage to ring the police.

I must have replied before your comment loaded. Good luck 🍀

Good luck 💐

Good luck. I did this 9 years ago I had a 4 year and a 6 week old and I was strong enough to stand by the threat that I would leave if he hit me again. He did whilst I was driving and the kids were in the back he began punching me over & over again in the head and I drove into the police station and never looked back. I had the guilt of not leaving for my eldest but I was very young when I had her and I was still learning. I'm thinking of you today OP and your beautiful little baby.

Keep this thread saved as proof if ever needed

Good luck OP. Good idea to report from the hospital. Take care of yourself and your baby and well done for getting out. Don't worry about the negative comments - even though people can express themselves harshly, it is usually coming from a good place, of being impatient for you and your baby to be safe.

@Geanna2

Your sister didn't turn up then? Or call the police for you?

I'm pretty sure I posted at the time that my sister was drunk, he ended up arriving back here earlier than expected and before she got here so I text her not to come. Again she was drunk so wouldn't have been much help which is why I explained I meant to say I don't have any family I can rely on, and also I didn't want her also in a potentially volatile situation, he hates her so her presence would have easily made everything worse.

Thank you everyone else for your kind words I'm heading to hospital now. Even inside my ear is bruised and
My throats so sore when I swallow from where he squeezed it but there's no marks so it's a good idea also to keep this threat as proof.

@mcdreamymcsteamy im proud of you, this is such a hard thing to go through, but it needs to be done now, before he kills you or your precious baby ...he's a dangerous man & you need him out of BOTH your life's. This is where you start that process & this is where your happiness in life begins. It won't be easy for the next month or so, you'll have your week moment's where you'll feel sorry for him (believe me that is normal, you have been conditioned by him to feel that way), a you need to.do is look back at this thread & remind yourself of how terrifying he is, how much he didn't care about you or your sweet innocent baby & how he was happy to put you both in danger, something that you could never do to him or anyone else. ...because you are a good person, which he doesn't deserve.

You got this, do this for your baby, keep strong xx

I just want to say that I believe you. This will get better. You will find the strength you need for your baby, even when you feel empty. You will be OK. Promise.
I hope you're OK. You've made the big step, you'll get lots of support xx

Good luck OP so happy you took that first step which must be so hard, and terrifying. Please do not accept him back in your life in any shape or form. He does not deserve you or to be a father.

Please be careful op. This is the most volatile time after leaving an abuser. And just so you're aware, mumsnet posts are inadmissible in court proceedings and won't carry any weight. You need multiple agencies backing you. When you leave the hospital, immediately self refer to your local domestic abuse agency and ask them to refer you to Marac, you'll get a number of agencies involved from there.

Sending you love and strength. Hope you and the baby get the help and safety you deserve 💐

Just to add to the support, well done for taking these steps. Hug your precious baby extra today. You're doing it for yourself and them.

Good luck OP, sending lots of love xx

Good luck op! Keep taking steps forward and don't look back xx

I hope you and your DC are safe now xx

I hope you get the support you need

Good luck and I can only congratulate you for being so bloody brave. It's not that easy to 'just' call the police or 'just' leave.

You sound incredible strong OP. I hope the hospital and police could help and that you're safe tonight x

I felt sick reading this!
OP I really hope you're ok and he's hopefully now been arrested.
If so you've done the hardest part, you WILL get through this.
Please keep us updated

You did the right thing for you and your baby you brave mama!

I hope you're okay if not better love. You've done the right thing.

Sending love