Fist bump, peanuthedz! Depending on where you live, it might be easier to get a diagnosis than you think- it was for me. Funnily enough, I feel more sorted and comfortable in my skin than I ever have in my life previously- it's just that this encounter has thrown me into crisis. I feel like my protective carapace has been temporarily been ripped away. My intentions re: OLD this time around were to just find someone to casually see on a regular basis- you know, sex, conversation and the odd country walk every couple of weeks- that kind of thing. I wasn't setting out to feel this blown away by someone, at all.
But you know what I did? We have a special stone circle near where I live, with a big stone in the middle that looks just like an erect willy 
. Whenever I want something, romantically, I go and ask the stone. Previously, I asked to get laid, and lo, it happened. The next time a friend and I went together, had a chat, and decided we wanted nothing at that point. LO, that happened too . But this last time....? I asked it to send me the right one for me. Now I need to hot foot it back to the stone circle ASAP and just go ...."and can I add, I want him to want me too, please!" .