Horrendous night tonight

[louisejanep]

Hi ladies I’ve posted on here lots about coming out of a really emotionally and psychologically abusive relationship of 10yrs. Moved back t parents 3 weeks ago with my 3 yr old DD. He come to pick little girl up tonight and got out of the car and nearly collapsed then lost control it was horrendous to see I thought he was Havng stroke it was awful. My sister ran to rig ambulance and he was in there for about an hour with an oxygen mask on hyperventilating. He couldn’t get his breath, they said it was panic. He has hit rock bottom and gone home tonight think he’s had a breakdown over relationship . In my previous post and through earlier posts I have spoke about my guilt. I feel responsible for him. He’s gone back home and I’ve just managed to get DD off to sleep. Worried about his welfare :(

Well done op! You are doing so well!
Your daughter is so lucky to have such a strong mama xxxxx

Well done @louisejanep You've got through the hardest part - making the break - you can do anything now! 👏👏

I'm so pleased you aren't regretting it. Sometimes people believe "better the devil you know' and are too scared to leave. You have been so courageous.

I’m just hoping that it’s not a false sense of security. I feel like because I’ve done so much better than I thought I would have, and I’ve blocked all happy memories, I hope I don’t have a big reality check and all my emotions come out. I think having a lot of family around has helped. Moving into my own place on my own with DD feels really daunting hope I’m still feeling strong then and not lonely.