Afternoon all, just emerged from my pit
I've just read back all your posts on this thread, what gorgeous amazing women you are to be so loving and accommodating to people who have treated you badly. Fairfly you sound like a completely different person to the one I first got to know on this site, when I saw you last week there was a new positivity about you that wasn't there when I visited you. You are moving on so fast now and a few short months ago you thought you'd never get out of that despondant mood.
And you, spook, you have so much love to give. I'm not surprised he can't let you go, he must know deep down that he will never find such love again - to have love like that once in a lifetime is rare enough. He is confused - but that is very much his problem, you have to get on with your life and don't even think about being with him unless he works through all his s**t and comes back with 100% commitment and no doubt in his mind. Nothing less is good enough especially after all the grief he has caused. Until such time you are a free agent. Take your dss out somewhere nice today and forget him, just have fun being your lovely self.
I'm not going to Harpenden, I'm going to the playing field to pick sloes to make a gallon of sloe gin like I do every autumn. And I will pick some more blackberries and feed my ds's face with them until he is blue round the mouth with happy berry juice. What could be better? You could do the same!! That's much more fun than watching some cheap tart in a catsuit wailing an insincere song about emotions she is too young to understand.