Feckers - I'm already on HRT - it's not done a lot for me other than I'm not boiling hot all the time and can sleep through the night!
lovemenot - what's sent me into a slight misery spiral this weekend has been a text from XH. The usual abusive disguised as collaborative, framed as a question but actually it's a bullying demand. I hate his manipulative nastiness. But my issues go beyond this incident.
loveka my garden also looks shit! I've got £1,200 saved to do wallpapering, have some lights put in but I'd also sorely like to get the garden done, it's the biggest mess, literally looks like an old abandoned industrial site (bit like myself really). For what it's worth loveka you need to do weights - you won't turn into The Rock overnight but that's the bit that's missing (see, I know this stuff I really do!!). We may need to set up home together because at 51 I've still got £70k to pay off my mortgage and naff all pension to look forward to, not even a full state pension.
Pasde - yep. The downhill from here bit I really really get, I really do. Some may find it pathetic and self absorbed maybe, but when I was 40 I looked absolutely fucking gorgeous. I was a size 6, there wasn't one spare bit of flesh on me. My face hadn't dropped, I didn't have a sagging neck, wrinkles, I was as perfect as someone who doesn't live in a gym could get. I look absolutely bloody awful now. I cannot bear people to take pictures of me, I never take selfies, I cannot bear it if I catch sight of myself in the mirror when I'm standing up out of the bath. And the problem is, it's not really going to get better, is it? Yes, I could exercise and that is on the list, but that's not going to pull up my whattle or remove the bulging flesh from my belly from two full term pregnancies!
Ginis yes, I hear you. I too do not feel I'll have a relationship again, ever. Not least because I don't even fancy myself any more - I don't feel I'm anywhere near 'date-ready' and sadly my tolerance for accepting crap from a man is set so low, the person would have to be completely exemplary from the get go to have a hope of progressing with me!
Oh Flickety, I do this falling asleep thing. Every Sat/Sun afternoon I can be found on my sofa, surrounded by unvacuumed floors and many other domestic tasks that haven't been done, gob open, fast asleep. I get SO exhausted.
I have had my thyroid levels checked Brown, all normal (kinda wish it was that then at least something could be done about it!!). I've been told 'get onto HRT that'll sort you out'. It hasn't. Get onto a multi vitamin you're probably deficient in D/B12'. That hasn't worked either. Still got terrible brain fog as well.
IrianofW - I do think that exercise and getting in shape will be the key thing for me (ha ha, if only I could motivate myself to do it!). I looked at local running clubs but they didn't do their runs at times I could go on them - so once again, was running alone and slogging away getting no endorphin hit - I got it when I was in my 40s and used to think 'yay, I could run forever' when it came on. Just never get that any more and makes the whole experience absolutely totally unpleasant. I take my hat off to you training for a marathon I really do. You're amazing.
What's the answer for us all GreyandGrumpy because it seems almost impossible to hook up with people who are in the same boat as you. I've tried jogging buddies type things and that didn't work as people are at different levels to you or can't run on the nights you can and so on.
No idea if we can work out the answer of how we regain our mojo.