I'm 35 today I've realised my marriage is over

[mammymammyIRL]

Dh emotionally abuses me.
He shouted at me & shoved me in front of our four year old ds for the last time on Sunday morning.
I don't want my 7 year old dd growing up seeing her parents not getting along
I don't want them to think Daddy's getting cross with Mammy is normal or ok

I can't do the rest of my life living like this.

My innocent little girl

Oh Happier, hugs xx

So today I told the dc about selling the house & dd was quite upset. Today I wave goodbye to them for 5 nights, longest time I've been without them ever.

Hi Happier, hope dd is as upset any more.
I hope you were able to do something nice for you whilst the DCs were away. I think that must be the hardest part x

*isn't as upset

Curvy she is when she thinks about it but I'm just not entertaining it much as there's no alternative. I listen to her & her sadness but firmly state that this will happen but that their school & friends & how often they see their dad won't change

Happier, I think that is the right approach, but it must still be hard x

Deffo

So I couldn't find my thread for ages

So a few things have happened - for sale sign's gone up and there were 4 viewings very quickly and nothing at all since, h continues to comply with the dates we agreed for him to have dc but nothing has changed regarding money.

He text on day of dd that he must given me money towards it soon, six weeks ago, another text today that he must give me balance of his half of the cost of her dress. There were many many more expenses involved in the day other than her dress I haven't replied yet as I don't want a stream of angry texts while I'm at work.

I'm feeling like I'm at the end of my tether and shouted at dc yesterday. I felt terrible afterwards and apologised and cried but it's not on, they were bold but didn't deserve the outburst.

I've been feeling a bit for a couple of weeks, but had headcold and was unable to exercise and put it down to that but I can see a theme, very flat Sundays, moody & tired on Monday.
So I booked in to doctor later in the week. It's been probably over 10 years since I've taken anti depressants so perhaps the brand has changed but it's a necessity.