This is going to hurt

[WelshBoris]

I shouldn't be posting because it's too raw but I've got no-one else to talk to.

Boyfriend, been with him for nearly a year, I adore him so does my DD.

He was out drinking all day yesterday, I met him in our local before going to town with the girls. He was kissing me, telling me he loved me.

I was going home to his house, got in about 1.30. My key wouldn't work. His was in the other side.

I shouted, he came to the window and let me in.

I walked in the living room and there was a white thong on the floor. I walked out of the house, round the back to see some old slapper clambering over the wall.

He was drunk, he's sorry etc etc

The pain is physical, I feel like someone is kicking me in the stomach over and over again,

I close my eyes and see him in the bathroom with his head in his hands, then I see me, him and my DD in bed together yesterday morning trying to give the biggest hugs.

Please please someone tell me this isn't my fault and the pain will go

Boris, I know things must be really difficult now but your in my thoughts. x

Without sounding like one of those ticker sites, Im really really sorry yor goimng through such shit.

i think you know what you need to do and i am glad your taking some time to sort it all out in your own mind. knowing what to do and actually having the strength to do it are sometimes poles apart...i for one know that all too well.

You know this is no reflection on you and you are certainly not to blame. this man has violated the trust you and your DD have placed in him and for that he is totally to blame.
Please dont feel you need to stay away for fear of being lectured or having to listen to the "dump him" brigade if its not want YOU want to do. there are many many of us here that know that its not always as simple as that.

I hope to see you about soon, and i know you have lots of fantastic friends here who you will be able to call upon for a shoulder to cry on....but if your ever in need you know where to find me.

Thanks girls, I'm still alive!

I'll keep you updated if and when I make a decision. I'm just enjoying spending time with my daughter at the moment and trying not to dwell on things too much.

Thank you for the texts and emails, you're all great friends and this thread has been a massive massive help to me.

Hi Boris, hope you're ok, take your time making any decisions and hope you get lots of strength from your lovely little girl x

Was just coming to check on you.
Glad you're feelignOk at the moment, keep strong.
TC x

Boris, this sucks. You are a strong, fantastic lady and you deserve better. I hope you're okay, and you know where I am if you need me my little welsh chumette x

only just seen this WB. Bloody hell. I know it is stating the obvious but you and dd deserve so, so much better. And there are much better men out there,who won't cheat on you and will love you properly. Just remember that. You are only 25. I didn't mean my dh till i was 30, and i had a terrible heartbreak before that. I know you love this man but he is not the be all and end all in your life, and if you settle for him you may be preventing yourself from meeting the man you truly deserve. Thinking of you.

Just to say 'still here' and thinking of you.

me too

Just thought I'd let folk know that Boris' DD has been admitted to hospital again which is largely why she hasnt been back since Thursday.

Asthma again She's doing okay, but they have kept her in 2 nights so far.

omg, poor WB just what she did not need right now.
Hope her DD is soon well.

WB, I only just now read this thread. I have no advice on the 'g-string' business. But my dd has very severe asthma and if you want to chat about that ever please do? We spent all of New Year in hospital with dd's asthma, it's very scary and troubling. I hope you and your dd are doing ok.

She'll be out tomorrow, hopefully.

This is not what I had in mind when I suggested you do something different this weekend. Wishing your DD a speedy recovery xx

i remember weeks in hospital due to asthma as a child. Not very nice. Hope she's feeling better soon.

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WB. I am so so sorry to hear of this.

From what I know of you, I like you an awful lot and belive all of the lovely things that have been said of you by people who have met you.

I don't feel as angry as a lot of others have expressed. Just a horrible sadness. It's tough sometimes to see your own sadness objectively, but Donnylass has it right, IMO. There IS a grieving process to be recognised, whether you reconcile or no.

And for M, she is young, flexible, adaptable and children should never be under-estimated in their strength either. One of the great things I pick up from you is your 'loveableness'. An ability to love and be loved. Don't panic. It will show through again at some time in the future.

The waste of a happy life must hurt.(I know this. I empathise). You'd be an idiot if it didn't, and you are certainly not an idiot. We all know who the idiot here is.

You have all of these buddies on MN, and another one up here in the Peaks.

Cry, and cry again. Get rid of it all. You have to, to get your composure back.

XX

HEllo Mr M! Long time no see! Thought you werent coming back???

Hello MsAnnoying!! See things haven't changed...

I did leave off for a while (never say never) as I didn't see many positive things happening....I do have things to ask re dd and SATS, and other things to offer. Have dropped my excessive politeness though.....

and..I have no idea who you are.....

I'm sure you do P.

Your Royal Highness??? Gosh. You still here??!!

DTM waves to Annoying...

Bet you didn't get as much sleep this weekend.