Hi October and everyone else - just caught up after the weekend and so very sorry you've had such a wretched week over 'G' - he's not worth it, but I can see how he can occupy your thoughts when things ended without proper answers (though I think the answer is probably that his ego was bruised when you said no, and is nothing to do with you being unattractive). I agree with IOHW - you do need to concentrate on what will make YOU feel good about yourself. It's a cliche - but a true one, I've found, that people like us when we like ourselves. G made you feel good, but you can do that for yourself. Start aiming for that size 8 (I'd be happy to be just a 12, me, but can't give up the cheese! ). Actually, I managed to lose a bit of weight - about a stone - a few years ago when my marriage was getting me down and I needed a boost, by cutting down on the carbs (not as extreme as the Atkins diet, broadly along those lines but healthier). I've heard that just cutting out carbs after 6pm can help, and you don't have to give up a glass of wine with dinner . Anyway, even if you lose just a dress size, it will be such a boost to your ego - and a great chance to go shop!
I'm glad to hear that dh is being so responsive (never mind the loss of an early night due to playing with the new toy - think of me - I've been a cricket widow ever since this never-ending world cup started, and I'm dreading the snooker ... ). He obviously does love you, and you obviously want to give it a go - just need to get 'g' out of your head. Good luck, and lots of positive low carb thoughts coming your way ...