I've done a horrible horrible thing

[Crisscrossthestreet]

And the guilt is eating me from the inside out.

I've been divorced for 6 years from my ex, we have 2 children together. He's been with his wife for 3 years. We divorced because of his infidelity (not with his wife, random other women)

I split from my partner four months ago. We have 1 child together.

I was feeling so low. A second marriage down the drain. 3 children to raise on largely on my own. Ex DH came round to deliver DDs hockey stuff a few nights ago, we ended up having sex.

I feel sick with myself. Shakes and cold. I never ever ever would have though I would sleep with somebody else's husband. His wife is so lovely, such a good stepmother and it's fucking eating me up that I've done this. I know how it feels to be on the end of it and now I've done it too.

I have no excuse, I'd had half a bottle of wine but I wasn't drunk, slightly tipsy.

I have to collect the children from her tomorrow morning and I don't think I can.

I don't want to tell her. The children love her so much and would be devestated. Ex and I would never get back together again. It doesn't work between us although we have always stayed quite close friends (up until now really). I've just not answered since it happened and he's getting increasingly frantic that I'm not ok (and probably worried I'm going to tell her)

What do I do?

I was thinking just stop all contact other than DC, drop and pick up at the door etc. But how do i explain that to the kids? And his wife would know something was up to.

I fully expect to have my arse handed to me by you guys. I've done it enough times on this board myself.

[VivienneWestwoodsKnickers]

Frankly, I'd say nothing and distance myself from the ex and his wife. You are a single woman, you made a mistake, do you need to take everyone else down with you? I don't think you do. If he wants to come clean to his wife, he can. However she finds out will cause fall out for everyone involved, and you'll have to take some of the blame of course.

Don't be too hard on yourself OP. Life is rarely simple.

[trollspoopglitter]

"Best case scenario is that he cheats with someone else and she finds out and leaves him. She doesn't deserve what I and he have done to her."

So best case scenario for you is your kids' 2nd family gets ripped apart but only he gets the blame instead of you and him?

That's your best case scenario, OP?

Fucking hell, OP. Aren't you a charming one.

[differentnameforthis]

Maybe DD was going to school in between the contacts and didn't want to carry the kit? Maybe...but with the information that the step mum drops them off home after contact, why could she have just done it at the same time.

I think this was very carefully engineered by both of them.

[stopfuckingshoutingatme]

Your poor poor children. Sounds like the step mother is the only decent person in their lives and you may have ruined that

Oh for fucks sake!

OP fucked up, she knows she fucked up, she is human being

who are these people only on MN who are so fucking faultless? really have you never ever done anything bad, stupid, selfish?