I cheated

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I cheated last night. I was away for a work conference. I really don't know how I feel about it. I can't tell dh it would break him.
We have been married nearly 7 years and I have never done anything like this. Never had a ONS in my life.
Part of me is flattered that this guy found me attractive when I feel fat and frumpy. We have 2 DC under 3. Things haven't been great between me and DH but I never thought of cheating or leaving him etc. I know that's not an excuse, but we hardly see each other and very little quality time together.
I keep going from thinking WTF have I done to thinking why don't I care more and why am I not more upset. I don't really know why I'm posting tbh. I know I've done wrong, please be gentle with me. I would be absolutely devastated if it was the other way round so feel like such a heartless cow

Of course the husband deserves to know 100%and any other excuse peddled is just one to get out of doing this. Irrespective of where the relationship is your actions have broken the trust in that relationship and he deserves to choose what he does with it, the op should not get to decide how she gets out of it.

Amazing how riled up some people get on someone else's behalf, someone they don't even know.

I don't need to wake up. My morals are pretty fine as well really.

the op should not get to decide how she gets out of it.

She does get to decide though, unless she is found out of course.

There is no should or shouldn't about it. She has to live with the consequences, she has to weigh up everything and live with the results. No doubt it will eat the OP up for a long time to come.

I hate cheats! Lowest of the low!

I hate drama queens who put cheaters on the lowest of the low list. I reserve the lowest of the low for rapists, murderers, child sex offenders etc. Not someone who had one ONS in the course of their marriage. Shitty? Most certainly, but hardly lowest of the low material.

Talk about hysterical.

Agree with U2. My 'lowest of the low barometer' seems fine as well; rapists, murderers, child sex offenders - check, check!