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Could I maybe have a hand hold?

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Offred · 30/10/2016 18:06

I think I have reached my gone too far and I don't care anymore moment this week. BF has a habit of repeatedly texting until I respond this occurred on weds evening when I was putting the children to bed. It was their usual bedtime and we have been seeing each other for over 3 1/2 years.

When I got the messages (asking how I was) I replied... then nothing for 2 days....

The next set of messages were basically about him trying to set up a weekend of sex where I would be required to pay for the accommodation. He has been obsessing over this for around a week even though I have not reciprocated any interest at all (going through a tough time ATM) and he is unaware I can hear him on the phone trying to be covert speaking to ppl while he was in the bath.

Friday is my graduation. I didn't really feel enthused about going to the ceremony but he (and others) convinced me I should and would enjoy it and said he would come to help mitigate the effects of seeing my mum.

I am graduating in Manchester and have had to arrange xh having kids for an extra night so I can go. Turns out he was trying to arrange accommodation in Stafford for the whole weekend despite me discussing childcare difficulties etc and him knowing it is my weekend with the children.

He basically jibbed me off on Friday and Saturday this weekend so I haven't given him the opportunity to do it Sunday as well and then just swan in expecting sex on Friday.

I just feel done.

I have spent the last month achieving a much greater degree of detachment and have been fostering some great friendships.

I am quite scared that I am going to get the fear like every other time and fall back into this really crappy relationship so please hold my hand?

This is the previous thread chain btw;

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/2740624-It-has-all-got-worse

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Offred · 10/11/2016 14:12

Don't want the dog back no! Couldn't have him here anyway!

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theansweris42 · 10/11/2016 14:34

oh he sounds gorgeous!
great description.

OK good was just checking the dog wouldn't be a complication.

Offred · 10/11/2016 14:44

He is! Blonde curls and blue eyes, butter.would.not.melt!!!

Always get teased that my children are little cherubs! Ha ha!

He is a poor little Lord.

I would love to be able to really indulge in illness like he does. Grin

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theansweris42 · 10/11/2016 14:49

poor angel Smile

Memoires · 10/11/2016 18:41

Good luck tomorrow, Offred.

I have ms, and I remember well how scary it is, waiting for the results. When they took bloods - the first test they did - I asked what tests they were doing on it. Among the very long list was syphilis. It amused me enormously that I spent a few weeks seriously questioning whether I would prefer to have ms or syphilis Grin, especially as the obvious answer is syphilis as it's curable, but so so so embarrassing to have to tell people (especially my mum).

MS is not the end of the world, I promise. BUT there is nothing worse than receiving bad news like that with an abusive partner; it becomes about him, how it will affect him and how awful for him to have a partner with ms. It is another stick to guilt-trip you with.

theansweris42 · 10/11/2016 20:55

Good luck tomorrow 🍀

Offred · 11/11/2016 12:47

Thanks!

I'll post later this afternoon when I have the results.

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Fuckingitup · 11/11/2016 12:57

good luck

ViolettaValery · 11/11/2016 13:19

Good luck Offred

Offred · 11/11/2016 15:55

It is MS but fortunately not the progressive kind.

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Mix56 · 11/11/2016 16:38

Offred, I am so sorry for this diagnosis, but on the up note, they should now be able to treat your symptoms & you know why you feel as you do.
Also, to tell you that my Mum died last year at the age of 90, she was diagnosed with MS when I was 18, She lived a very full, pain free life.
All the more reason to say to say to CSM, you discovered how precious life is, you need to use your energy & love on those you need & deserve it. You will be taking care of yourself from now on, & that starts with kicking his sorry arse to touch.

Mix56 · 11/11/2016 16:38

to say too many !

Offred · 11/11/2016 16:53

Mix - that is very comforting. Thank you.

My only experience with it is my aunt who has the horrible progressive type.

I knew it was coming I think. Have been worried about it for years. Relieved to have an explanation and that it is not just that I am mad!

Will take a few days to sink in I think but at the moment my sisters are more upset than me.

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Memoires · 11/11/2016 19:12

I'm sorry Offred, but very pleased it's not the progressive type. Your aunt is not typical - most of us have occasional flare ups, from which we recover, symptoms well controlled by medication, and just get on with life. It is good to have validation that you're not making it up/being lazy/crazy etc.

Now, you have even more reason to get that bastard out of your life. Have you told him? Just a warning, keep an eye out that he's not seeing ms and thinking "yay! Blue badge! Park where I like!! Result" and so on. It's not unknown.

ViolettaValery · 11/11/2016 19:24

Oh that sucks Offred, I'm sorry. Post here if you are at all tempted to reach out to him. V glad you have a supportive weekend planned.

RandomMess · 11/11/2016 19:28

Flowers relieved that it isn't the progressive type.

Be kind to yourself x

Fuckingitup · 11/11/2016 19:30

Sorry to hear that Offred. Glad others here have been able to share encouraging experience.

Offred · 11/11/2016 19:59

No, memories I know. My aunt recently married a 'yay blue badge' type... he is horrendous... :(

Thanks for the commiserations/consolations. I'm having a nice meal and some wine (drowning my sorrows). I didn't go to the CLP.

I think telling other people and dealing with all their feelings about it is hardest really. I want to hide away.

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Offred · 11/11/2016 20:00

Ha! Memoires! Autocorrect doesn't like you!

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LyingWitchInTheWardrobe2726 · 11/11/2016 20:28

I'm sorry about your diagnonsis, Offred but very relieved for you that it's non-progressive. You're also now on the radar so will be having an eye kept on you.

I expect you know that stress greatly exacerbates things so getting rid of this man can only help. Presumably he knew all about your worries about this appointment as it must have been a while coming. I imagine it was water off a duck's back to him because it wasn't about him.

I hope he's gone very, very soon. Thanks for you.

Offred · 11/11/2016 20:51

No, I haven't really spoken to him about it. Haven't wanted him involved. Only dd knew I was going.

I don't like talking about these things really.

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Offred · 11/11/2016 20:51

But yeah, same thing really

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Offred · 11/11/2016 20:52

And yes I do know stress is a trigger for relapse. Have known and noticed stress makes me ill for a while

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Memoires · 11/11/2016 21:24

Oh, dear, your poor aunt Sad

My first reaction to dx was "I'm going to walk across Africa. I'm going to prove I'm still me." I was persuaded out of it, but actually I still wish I had at least tried.

Offred · 11/11/2016 21:32

My first reaction was 'great I get to sit in a wheelchair and be pushed around forever'.

Equally proportional IMO Grin

The reality is in between...

As always...

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