lala I'm so sorry my lovely. Hope you are recovering ok and mr l is looking after you well. Please try not to blame yourself. Huge hugs xxxx
wry sorry that the terrosrist is still struggling. Must be so frustrating for you both after everything. Well done on your control at the conference- very impressive!
made good to hear that work is going well!
Not doing brilliantly drinking wise at the moment; trying not to let it creep up too much. No huge binges though which is good I guess. I think I will just have to attempt to stop completely again, but not until the new year. Can't contemplate a sober Christmas 
Still feeling guilty about the work thing- mainly as I have worked after too much the night before. Never at work or on call, but is there really a heiracy for these things?! I think, sadly, it is mainly a reflection of how bloody stressed and burnt out people are getting.
Found out today that my brothers girlfriend (they were together when he died) is engaged. She sent me a card to tell me before it was made public, which I appreciate. I'm pleased for her and of course it's good she's moved on. But it feels weird- they were together for ages, I always assumed they would get married. I'm trying to write a congratulations card but can't find the words. Missing him big time tonight.