Opening up for happiness

[hareinthemoon]

We are continuing on with our 30 days (or more) NC with the past (see previous thread here ) and we are looking into the future with hope and positivity.

A little bit of trepidation is allowed also. Contact with exes is discouraged, but support is the constant.

My last link with my ex was Facebook and he blocked me, no chance of bumping into him..
It may seem hard but him leaving is for the best.
I'm having a low moment..

Ohhh waving you are doing so well overall. Give yourself some credit. I know I'm a stranger but we've been in this thread throughout the summer. You're right. I've had nc for 1 week now, no texts. I've made positive moves.. Enrolled in a course today. Could you do similar? It will force you to think of something else, deadlines to work through. In watching a movie with ds. My ads aren't working so I need to go back to go. You can get beta blockers for palpitations. I'm here if you want to on me! Where is everyone?

Phone and autocorrect - although I think you get what I'm saying!

Quick hello. I'm really feeling like I had a lucky escape. I'm a bit stressed about going away tomorrow as so far all my hols have been organised by someone else (a man) but I think it's been a good distraction.
I realised even if I go out with this guy again I must still keep on focused on my self esteem. He said I was intriguing. I think that's possibly also because I'm fairly neutral with him. My trust in men has really gone at the moment though, not sure how to get that back.

I wake up at the same time in the night !
Good for you Jenny going away. Is this a work trip?
I'm so wary of men men and even hearing you say he said that to you makes me want to run! He's probably a lovely guy but my trust is shattered. (My ex said that to me)
Need to restore my faith first before I can even consider trusting anyone else

Utterly ashamed and angry with myself. I had wine last night and ended up being sick just remembered I texted him and I said I still love and believe in him. Why did I do that? I've been doing so well.. I'm not expecting anything back but I've just broken nc.. and I feel a fool

I've deleted his number from my phone (progress) I've written it down and put in in a drawer so I can't text as easily now.. (Can't bring myself to throw it away completely)

waving thought you'd gone quiet. Was guessing all wasn't well. I hope everything is ok

Apple, don't be ashamed of yourself at all, just take it as part of the learning curve. You won't want to go through it again. Take good care of yourself today. Reset and move on, you can do this.
Oh no Waving, hope you're okay.

I really needed to hear that Jenny- thank you. I feel an idiot. I've deleted his number from my phone so I can't easily do it again. I've felt bad all day, as well as hungover..
I have a feeling he will have quickly moved on and my message may have spurred him on more ..