Onwards and Upwards!

[Hushabyemountain98]

Good morning. Welcome to my new thread. I hope that all my MN friends will join me and maybe a few new ones!xx

Thank you Louisa,
I think I may tell him not to call me. If he has to contact me it is to be by email only. That is how it was and I didn't hear from him for nearly two months.
I keep getting this awful feeling of inadequacy. Here are the tears again.
I am glad that you can see I have made some progress.
It is good that I have my counsellor tomorrow, especially after the feelings this weekend.
Did you get in the garden today? We had quite a lot of heavy showers here.
I see that Wallander starts tonight and I like that.
I hope you have a nice evening xx

Thank you WTAFF for your understanding.
I just felt that I was a burden and did not want to depress you all.
I will just keep going and the support on here has been amazing.
Have you put your paint or papering brush down for the day?
xx

Thank you ThankGod.
I am glad I am not dragging you down.
That is something I would hate to do as it is hard enough as it is!
Hopefully it is Onwards and Upwards!
Have a nice evening xx

Hush, No gardening today but.... tomorrow I'm heading for the garden centre and then I'll get it sorted (it's only small).
Good idea to restrict contact - and perhaps to rehearse that 'I'm very busy at the moment, please email' response? It took me over a year before I finally 'lost it' after yet another unannounced phone call. I would passively listen and take part in all sorts of discussions until one day he started complaining about something I'd done - and that was it! I exploded and let him have it - all my pent up frustrations and fury! And the result was radio silence ... to this day.
Hopefully Wallander will be a good distraction?
xx

I've just finished. I've had to stop
For the evening because the paint is too smelly! I'm starting to feel giddy with it.

I'm glad that you're going to stick around. I find comfort in this thread. On that note - you'll need to start a new one shortly!

Have a good evening. Xx

Hi Louisa,
I hope you get what you need at the garden centre tomorrow so you can sort your garden.
I am glad that you finally 'lost it' with your ex and that it did the trick!
I am hoping that Wallander will be a good distraction later!
I better sort out something to eat!
xx

Hi WTAFF.
I am glad you are taking a break from the smelly paint. Those fumes do not do you any good!
I am glad you find comfort in this thread.
Why do you think we need to start a new thread shortly?

Have a nice paint free evening xx

Hi Hush,

I think the thread will automatically close once it reaches 1000 posts.

Xx

Hi WTAFF.
Okay will have to think of another title for the thread!xx

Hello girls , found my password back with you after my 50th trips , ex took ow away for 5 days last week , prior to that texting me he is broke !!! Thank goodness I divorced him quickyb, to protect me and my son from his child like ways and going through money !!!!

Just reading through the threads , my son and I said last night we both hate Sunday's ! Let's have a Sunday club ❤️

Good morning and big booby hug to everyone who's feeling upset and not that great.

I'm here in a nice hotel prior to flying home tonight. I've had a lovely holiday but I have my usual jittery feeling that I always get before going home. Its a throwback to when going home was awful and I'm going to talk to my therapist about it because I shouldn't be feeling like this 3 years on and especially with my baby granddaughter due to be born on Wednesday morning.

And that's another thing - just how is my husband going to play it on Wednesday? He'll be in town as usual on wednesday or will he do it differently this week because he's not man enough to be amongst us at a time like this. I couldn't care less what it does, I'll handlecwhatvhas to be handled , but it's awful to see my children thinking - will he come or not? And of course if he comes they think well how can you have joy in this dad because at 65 you have two children the same agents two of your grandchildren and just two years older than this new baby will be.

It's bloody sick

And so is our family joke -

Question - did you tell your dad the baby gas arrived?

Answer - no cos he doesn't tell us when his have arrived.😜

Hello Kirk and Noton! Great to hear from you. I think we definitely need a Sunday night club.

How are you today Hush. How did it go with your counsellor?

Welcome back Kirk.
I hope you enjoyed all your 50th Birthday trips and celebrations?
Why does your ex feel the need to text you about being broke?
We all seem to hate Sunday's!
xxx

Good Evening notonyur,
I am glad you have had a lovely holiday.
Where are you flying home from?
Have a safe flight.

I hope all goes well with the birth of your granddaughter.
I am sorry that such a happy event will have negative feelings for you all. Because of a selfish person. I am sure you will all be there for one another whatever he does!

I have been to see my counsellor today and she thinks I am being far too hard on myself. I had a good cry while I was there and all sorts spilled out!

I am suffering from toothache on both sides of my mouth again tonight. Swilling hot tea and Irish Mist around my mouth but it has not helped so far!

Have a safe trip xxx

Hello WTAFF.
I am feeling a little better tonight thanks apart from toothache.
The counsellor went well this morning. I got a lot of things off my chest.
Shed quite a few tears. Better out than in!
I hope you have had a good day?
How are the paint fumes?
xx

What about calling the thread Our Sunday Feeling?xx

Yes Sunday feeling fab name , he wants to tell me he is broke so I will say I will help fix him , as if I have been on a 14 month journey of hell to take him back now !!! No I have outgrown him my counsellor said and then she said don't come anymore , you are stronger now , for all the other mums I never thought I would start to see the light ( it's not bright but at least its on dimmer ) ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hush you are grinding again lol xxxxxx

Hi Kirk,
I am glad that you have seen the light now. I hope you can soon turn the dimmer switch up!
He doesn't deserve you and doesn't get to have you back!
You are far too good for him and you deserve far more.

I do not know what is going on I'm my mouth but it hurts!

I hope you have a good day and that the sun is shing!☀️xx

Good Morning All.
I have started a new thread called That Sunday Feeling as this thread will finish very soon as we have almost reached a 1000 posts.
I hope you will all join me?xx