Onwards and Upwards!

[Hushabyemountain98]

Good morning. Welcome to my new thread. I hope that all my MN friends will join me and maybe a few new ones!xx

Morning WTAFF.
I hope you get to do the things you want to around the house this weekend.
I am sorry that you are not feeling 100% at the moment.

It looks asthough the weather is pretty wet at the moment.
I need to do so much but someone contacted me yesterday and it has thrown me again and I have broken my golden rule. I did not get to sleep until just after 5am. So I feel dreadful now!

If you had ask me that question yesterday I would have said that my down periods are decreasing!
Well I better get a coffee and try and get on.
Take care xx

Good Morning all.
I heard from Kirk this morning . She is okay and busy. After 14 months she still has bad days. She doesn't like her ex anymore which helps!
Look forward to seeing more of you on here again soon Kirk. Take care xx
❤️

I'm glad Kirk is doing ok.

I'm sorry you heard from a certain someone Hush which upset you. You will get over this. Although it will take time.

Thanks WTAFF.
It was good to hear from Kirk again.
Hopefully she will be back on our thread soon.

I will have to get over it again.
Just a set back!
Have a good day xx

Hello all.
Just lost a post!
Well made a start on the loft. Still lots to sort but going to take our time.
When we went to take some stuff to the charity shop guess who we saw turning out of the car park. Yep. Hubbie. Don't know if he saw us!
Eating a lot better now but still wake up each morning with a sick panicky feeling. This seems to gradually fade during the day.
Hush I didn't sleep well either last night so it's a sleeping tablet for me tonight. I'm trying to take them every other night so I don't become to reliant on them.
Had a text reminding me about my telephone counselling appointment on Monday - hope I can get a face to face appointment booked in soonish.
Hope your day so far has been ok.

Hi ThankGod.
Sorry you lost a post. It seems to happen a lot.
Good to hear that you made a start on your loft.
Better take your time or it becomes overwhelming.
Sorry that you saw your husband. Still you were doing something constructive.
Glad you are eating a lot better. That is a good thing as you have to take good care of yourself and your daughter.
The sickness feeling is probably because you are anxious.
I hope the sleeping tablet let's you have a good nights sleep. I feel shattered after two hours sleep last night.
I have cried so much today as I had another call this morning. All made worse because I am tired.
I hope the telephone counselling leads to you having face to face

counselling soon.
It is pouring outside again. I hope the weather will be better tomorrow as today has been a wash out.
Have a nice evening and a good sleep xx

Hush. Are the telephone calls about anything essential? If not, given how upset they make you, I would be tempted to refuse to take the calls.

Remember - you don't owe this man anything.

Hi WTAFF.
I have been at my neighbours for a while for a cuppa etc.
These calls came out of the blue. Just about general living!
Hopefully that is it!

Have not heard anymore.
I hope you have had a good day?xx

Sorry, I hope I didn't come across as being harsh in my previous post. I'm just worried that these calls upset you.

I've had a 'meh' day if I'm honest. Hopefully tomorrow will be better for us!

No you didn't WTAFF. They did really upset me. I am so tired and my eyes are so sore. I am not a pretty sight!
Still the dogs don't mind!

Sorry you have had a 'meh' day. Let's hope tomorrow will be better for us!
Take care xx

Morning.
Hush I hope you managed to get some sleep last night?
You sounded quite down yesterday. I hope you are feeling a bit better today.
Got lovely blue skies here at the moment - hope it stays dry.
No major plans here today. I think Sundays are the worst day of the week now. But I don't feel as bad as I did last Sunday.
Can't say that I'm all that impressed with the sleeping tablets to be honest. Maybe I'm expecting too much. I did sleep better but I still wake up several times and very early. I thought that they would completely knock me out!

Good morning Hush and all.
Sorry not to have been around and so sorry that you're feeling thrown by the calls Hush - hope you slept a bit better last night?

Life has been busy here - at least the sun is shining here this morning. I am determined to get out into the garden this week - it's a mess out there. Hopefully the sun will shine (fair weather gardener here!)
Hush - do you have a call screener on your phone? Could you just not pick up when a certain person calls ? Sounds like he's just indulging himself in calling about 'general living'. He catches you off guard and it upsets you so ignore him. Or just don't engage. 'I'm just off out now - do email if it's anything important. Bye ...' And hang up.
"hashtag take the power back "as the young and on trend would say
xx

Morning ThankGod.
I managed some sleep last night thanks.
Sorry that the sleeping tablets did not give you a full nights sleep.
I was really down yesterday.
I have walked the dogs this morning crying in the woods again. How awful is that!
I hate Sunday's too. I am glad that you feel better than you did last Sunday. That is a positive.
I better get busy to stop my brain from wandering.
I hope you have a good day xx

Good morning Louisa,
I did sleep a bit better last night thanks. I was exhausted.
I hope the sun continues to shine so you can get out into the garden.
I do not have a call screener on my phone and he was the last person I expected to hear from.
So I am down in my boots again.
Going to try and keep busy today so my mind does not dwell on it too much.
I hope you are okay and that you have not been too busy!
Are you doing anything nice today?
Enjoy your day xx

Good morning hush and friends, just popping up to say hi, and see how you are. I see that idiot man has been upsetting you again with his communications. I would block all contact except email tbh, he is no longer someone you want to invade your privacy and emotional wellbeing.

He just wants to drop a bombshell and then walk away unscathed. Take the power back as louisa said. No looking on social media as well, my love, nothing good will come from that.

You seem to be missing a few of your number lately, I hope you are all well and just fighting the good fight. Hello to thankgod, I'm sorry that you have had to join us on here, but if you need help and support to get through this horrible process, MN is invaluable. Stay strong, hush my lovely, but if you can't, then that's ok too. There are no divorce police, just as their are no housework police, as the very wise, WWK says. If it's a day to rant and wail, then so be it, trust me, it won't last forever, and you will come through it. Lots of love, hobbit.

Good morning Hobbit.
Thank you for your post.
I am trying not to look at social media.
Certain Fb pages are blocked.
I am trying to pick myself up again and luckily I have my counsellor tomorrow.

I do seem to be missing a few of my number at the moment. I hope they are all well too. They are always welcome here.
I often think of the very wise WWK telling me that there were no housework police!
I hope she is well?

I hope you are right that these awful feelings will not last forever!
It still seems hard to believe.
Well I better get back to cleaning the showers!
Life is so exciting!
Enjoy your Sunday xx

Well just had a productive couple of hours in the garden. Weeding done and driveway all swept ready for photographer tomorrow.
It's definitely true that keeping busy helps.
Just want the house sold so I can move on. Everyone please cross your fingers for me for a quick sale.
Hush is he ringing you on your landline? If so just do what I've always done (no caller ID here either). I don't answer then just 1471 to see who called. Then I either ring back or not.

Glad you have got a lot done in the garden ThankGod.
Also that keeping busy helps you.
I gave cleaned both shower rooms thoroughly.
I have put the bread out to prove.
Now I am sitting here taping this message crying.

You are so good wanting to get your house sold.
All that does is feel me with dread!

Yes he rang me on the landline.
He does not have my new mobile number.
That is a good idea. I will do that in future.

I hope you are having something nice for dinner?
xx

Oh Hush, I'm sorry you're hurting.

Do you have anything which can keep you busy? I always think Sunday nights are the worst.

I'm still decorating.....

Hush do you need to sell your house?
If you don't and the thought of it upsets you then don't rush into anything.
I just want to move if possible before my daughter leaves for university which is why I'm doing it so quickly. That and the fact that now I know what a liar he is, I can't trust him to continue paying half towards the mortgage indefinitely. I just want our finances separated asap.
Once that's done then I should not need to see or speak to him ever again.
I'm sorry you are having a bad couple of days and are feeling so upset. You are seeing your counsellor tomorrow aren't you? Hopefully I'll be able to report back tomorrow that I have an appointment set up to see one also.

Thank you WTAFF.
I've still got housework to do.
Also have to try and make something for dinner.
How is the decorating going?
Hoping there is something good on TV tonight?
xx

Yes ThankGod I will need to sell the house.
I hope that everything works out for you and that you find a new home before your daughter goes off to university.
I have my counsellor tomorrow.
I hope you get an appointment set up really soon to see a counsellor.
I think I may have to think about taking a break from here as I do not want to drag everyone down with me.
Take care xx

Hush,
Sorry that you're feeling so down.
Of course take a break if it suits you - or use this as a place to work things through. How can you block him practically from suddenly 'appearing' (even if it's via phone / email) and upsetting you?
Despite this setback, I can see the progress that you have made. I know it may feel very fragile but it's going to be - embedding positive steps and developing confidence is a slow progress. It always feels as if you're back to square one when things go wrong - but you're really not.
Hope that your session tomorrow is useful and that the week is more positive. xx

Hush, of course you're not bringing people down. We are all here to support you (and each other).

Of course, as Louisa said, if you feel a break would be useful, then take a break. But so t take a break because you feel that you are a burden to us. You're not.

Hush only take a break if that's what you want.
You are not dragging me down. I've found it so helpful posting on this thread and hearing back from others on the same journey.
We all have our bad days. I'm sure I have many more yet to come.