i don't know if i can talk about it here?

[panele01]

hello everyone,
i am new here and i don't know,i am not sure if i can talk about it here? i am 20 weeks and 4 days pregnant
,but i am having problems in my life right now,difficulties,complications

No not at all sounds like you're doing everything just fine.

Sorry, mentioned all the stuff to the GP.

Ok,well my GP know everything about the sexual assault,trauma,my health ect,they have recorded/saved everything on the systems,my records,thats what GP do these days,isn't that right? i am at my mother's still,because i don't have a place where to go and i don't know how much longer,i am gonna stay at her place Just to remind you dears that was the place where i have been raped by my ex-boyfriend,but my mother doesn't think that was the rape

I think you are doing just fine too.

What's happened with your mother? Do you want to tell us?

Yeah, they do record things. It's good they know all the stuff. Well done, that is a difficult thing to talk about!

Have you thought about visiting the council to see about housing? Or Citizen's advice bureau for advice on housing, money etc? Or both?

GarlicCake,i had my first scan but since then i am 20 weeks and 4 days now,there was a misunderstanding here

It is REALLY tough when the most significant adult in your life doesn't "agree" you were raped. Even worse, obviously, when you rely on that person for a home. This does, tragically, happen to a lot of women and

Therapy can be massively helpful in helping you deal with the people around you. We can try supporting you to care less about what mum thinks - we can be pretty good at that! - and if you have therapy as well, it will make you a lot stronger. You are already strong - you know that, right?

Did your doctor suggest therapy for the sexual assault trauma? If not, try asking him!

Oh, OK, you need to go back to your GP. Better book a double appoitment, there's quite a bit to discuss :)

Do you mind if I ask how old you are?

Remember it's ok not to say anything you don't want to.

Offred,yes i did think a lot,when you are pregnant,god its so difficult to get out of the bed these days

GarlicCake,i know,i understand,i am 28 years old

I'm tired, too, but that's because I'm old Good night - I'm off to bed. I'll come & see how you are tomorrow

RJ dear,is it ok if i call you for like that for short?

Yeah, it's tough enough being pregnant without all the other things that are going on for you.

Do you think you'd feel better if you were away from your mother? If you had your own place?

Ok GarlicCake,it is ok,thank you very much,Goodnight dear,sweet dreams,good luck,bye

Offred,hmmmmmm........i think i would

Yes of course it's fine to call me that.

You are doing really well. You have so much to deal with.

And one thing we can all say about your assault- we believe you.

RJ dear,thank you,yes i am telling you the truth,i don't have no intentions to lie,seriously

I think that's probably the starting point then maybe? Sorting somewhere to live?

It is tough being pregnant and living alone but it is much tougher living with someone who is actively bringing you down all the time when you are struggling anyway.

Do one thing at a time, bit by bit, and it's surprising how things come together.

RJ dear,hmmmmmm........the relationship with my mother is not good anymore thats why i ran away from home few times it wasn't just my mum,why i left home,after the rape i was thinking of reporting my family to the government,but i still had a hearth and i still do,i didn't do it

Offred,you are completely right

i have to excuse you all for a time being,i will leave you for a short time now

Happy new year panele. I'll check back tomorrow, hope you sleep well.