Left an abusive relationship..I think I'm about to go back

[Happyandsimple]

I cannot believe I'm writing this here. I am sad to right this here. Because you all supported me when I thought there was no way out. You helped me through all my objections as to why I can't leave. I'm embarrassed to even be considering being miserable. I can't read my old post as it makes me shake thinking about the place I was in..But I split with him in Feb thanks to u all. And i never once regretted it..til now.kidney removable in 2 weeks and I been told no lifting kids for 6 weeks. How can u not.lift 2n 3 yr old..I lift them all time. I have no help. He's started creeping up on me Again. Showing how helpful he is.. And now I am worried about how I will cope after surgery when I won't even be able to stand straight. Be on strong meds for 2 weeks. He said he's ok to havs the kids a few days..my only optiom is to ask him to.move in for 2 weeks I'm devastated to move back to the start. But I see no option. And i feel trapped again. Maybe it's not so bad. Two weeks then tell him to leave. I don't know I can't see a way I can cope. I haven't contacted adult.services to see if there's any help available after surgery I have to ring after surgery.. It's sad to think I'm even considering it after all this but it's okay temporarily isn't it? Kids arnt effected he hasn't said anything That bad in awhile

I haven't read all the responses unto your post but I just want to say good luck getting your kidney out, I had my right native kidney out 6 years ago following rcc stage 2 (previously having a kidney transplant 6 years before that,it's in my groin) I was actually far fitter after the op than I expected to be. I was a single parent at the time and eventually got a home help ect for a few weeks, and a child minder paid for for my youngest child.
Good luck x

Lip gloss hi can we talk ? How is your health now? Thank you for your post . What home help did you get and was it through adult services?so great for you to comment as things are really tough very positive to hear that actually you felt better than you thought . Realistically can u talk me through first two weeks pain levels and activity? Would you have put your kids in care for temperary,?