The Brave Babes Battle Bus - In Search Of Sobriety, Sunshine & Survival!

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Hello, I'm Mouse :)

Welcome to the thread, or our mythical Bus called Gerald!

There is room for everyone. Always

There is help for everyone who wants it. Always

There is unconditional support and kindness. Always

We have two sentences that we believe in here -

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

No matter what it is that you drink, how much, how often, we've ALL been in your position at one point or another...... so most of us WILL know exactly what it's like to be YOU

If you'd like to read the last thread, it's below -

THIS IS THE PREVIOUS THREAD

And if you want to read a pretty sobering thread and the history behind these many, the reason why we are all here, fighting to stay/get sober is here -

FIRST EVER BRAVE BABES THREAD

Hope to see you soon :)

Mouse x

agh 4pm: my own personal witching hour.

I'm not drinking. But it's now until 7 that I always spend thinking I'm missing out.

May need to go out and buy crisps

phase me too, exactly the same times, from getting in to DH arriving home, once tea is done I seem to be ok but boy does this time of day HURT! work is shit right now, my DS2 is getting excited about leaving for Uni in a couple of weeks, DH is off on his annual birdwatching hols at the end of the month and right now my elderly mum is not so well and she is 350 miles away from me and I have no leave to visit feeling sorry for myself and know that the ww is telling me quietly that she can make it all seem better. day 12 so really really can't listen to her.

sorry phrase

Must be the mid-week miseries eccles I'm also feeling sorry for myself

Really angry about my work, why aren't people just nice ?

agh step, that sounds so tough!

You are doing phenomenally well to be going through all of that AND on AF day 12 AND slimming down!

How long's DH off birdwatching? Does that mean you'll be in the house alone? I can understand why you wouldn't be keen on accompanying him, even speaking as someone who likes birds . . .

I'll accept phase or phrase from now on, they're officially interchangeable

alias maybe that's it... the wednesday blues people are quite often just awful sadly as I am finding out about some colleagues phrase thanks, he's away for two weeks on Shetland Isles, much as I enjoy a bit of birding that would be too much for me and I have no leave as... wait for it .... we are off to NZ next year for 6 weeks so I needed to save it all for that this is exactly the sort of moment I would be sneaking open a bottle if it were not for you lovely people, best thing I ever did flagging down this bus, I'd be neck deep in a glass by now certainly not AF day 12. funnily enough I am not worried about drinking while he is away, I will miss him though. think it's just the blues over Ds leaving and worry over mum work can stuff itself tbh they ask too much of me already so I think I will just opt for a go slow for a day or two.
margaret have a peaceful pampering evening and an early night. That used to be my answer to everything when my boys were little... ah... early night

This is my bad time. Dinner has been eaten and the dishes washed...then it is wine time. Except tonight i have Earl Grey tea.

Here are the highs and lows of my day. I don't know if you recall but a few weeks ago i was feeling very low so i went to the doctor and she took bloods. The outcome of these is: Cholesterol levels excellent, liver function tests/kidneys all normal (phew) but hormone levels very high so likely menopausal (eek). This will be tested again in three months.

My low mood: due to having massive issues in work i am a bit of a mess so i have a prescription for diazepam (short term, to use as and when, to relieve anxiety and the internal monologue which will not go away) and Citilopram as a longer term AD. I have also been signed off for 4 weeks (oh the blessed relief) The plus side of all this medication is that alcohol is a no-no which is fine as I think i was using alcohol to damp down my anxiety (didn't really work).

The doctor has suggested finding things to do to fill my time and keep me occupied so i don't dwell on all the shitty stuff. Anyone got any suggestions? I think i would like to join eccles DH on his birdwatching trip. I am very .

Anyway, enough about me. I am sitting her enjoying the wistful sound of Eccles harmonica playing the "Wednesday Blues". How is everyone else?

Evening, tis me, Mouse

Can I please have a non drink related brag please?

We went to MCH today with Nemo today to a multidisciplinary clinic. We saw his Audio team, Dental team, SALT team and his Cleft team which included his surgeon, who re-built the inside of his mouth.

They we ALL absolutely amazed by how much he has moved forward and how well he has done since his last team visit around 12/18 months ago.

His speech, hearing was 'acceptable' today but he has to have 3 monthly appts anyway, his dental team said he needs to see his community dental team just to 'touch base' - (I hate that saying!!!) but his surgeon was the best news ever, because the last time he wasn't sure if we'd need to have another operation due to a leak of air that was causing a speech impediment.

But after all of the tests etc today, and overall review, his surgeon was over the moon and has said he's doing fab, hence the not wanting to see him until he is 8 years old!!! 8!!! How great is that?

Anyway, I'm off to do a shiny new thread for us :) x

little feel free to join him, he moans I don't go out enough with him like I used to, (hangovers put me off) I should really make an effort now while I am sober on a sat and sun morning as once I am out I do enjoy it, we have some fab coasts where I live and tbh I could do with the exercise... might shift a few more pounds too but I am a lazy Cahhh. good news from the doctor on the liver tests, that would have been my panic, can't believe mine would come back ok 4 weeks off (bliss) hopefully the tablets will kick in and let you relax enough to enjoy them, do work on coping strategies for your return though so you don't go back to the same old shit.
I have green tea with mint tis surprisingly inoffensive which was a shock the harmonica was getting a bit depressing so will seek out the tambourine in a mo

I'm a bit unreasonably ratty right now.

A workman was supposed to come between 5 and 6 for a quote, hadn't turned up by 6; then DH, who I had asked to try and get a lift home from work, texted to say he needed me to come and get him: had to tear-arse over to next town and pick him up, risking missing workman, then got back and workman arrived straight after. Now DH has decided to go out for a run so we won't get dinner until 8 because he takes a bloody age to cool down. Turns out the reason he needed me to come and get him was that his meeting overran and everyone who was driving back 'had left' when he came out - I really wanted to say 'Well, why didn't you arrange it with them and say you had to be out of the meeting by half five!?' but didn't want to be an arse.

I know this is all really minor (esp compared to things others on here are going through ) but I do find this part of the evening so wearing, and the temptation to drink is so pervasive that I just want it to be bloody over, and I get really irritable at all this fart-arsing about.

But it's perfectly reasonable fart-arsing for most people, most people who aren't carrying the WW around on their back, so I can't get cross.

Still feel it though.

Ahem. Apologies for the outburst.

little, what kind of things do you like doing? Cooking? Sports? Anything you've always wanted to do? I was on Citalopram for a bit, but very low dosage. For anxiety rather than depression, though I get that too.

mouse I don't know your history but that sounds great news, I am guessing nemo is DC not your goldfish? how nice to free from appointments for the near future you both must be very chuffed.

BTW - LIttleWhite - I'm 40 in January, on the same day as a fellow traveller, and have 3/4 periods per years and am starting the menopause. It's awful! Sweating, hot flashes, mood swings from Shiny Perfect Stepford Wife to Cathy Bates out of Misery..... I HATE IT!!!

Back in a mo! x

Mouse, that sounds wonderful. I take it Nemo is DS?

little, eccles, when I had it tested my liver function was normal too. Amazing

Yep - he's called Nemo because as in the film, he's a survivor. Against all the dangers he has faced time and time again, he's still here. :)

I will update my profile pic at some point and make it public for a while so you can see him :) x

mouse that's wonderful news about Nemo

HERE IS THE NEW THREAD! YOU KNOW THE RULES!!

Please fill this one first so that we don't lose anyone

Thank you, see you soon, off to put the boy to bed now that Gma and Gpa will be leaving shortly. x

Thanks for doing the new thread mouse

I'm on day 3. Today feeling a lot of anger and resentment about stuff. Usually I do CBT for anxiety, but it isn't really helping, so I'm trying to find some other techniques. Have found a couple of websites on anger management, but if anyone can recommend something (to read or do NOW, I want to get help before bed!) please let me know.

I am having major laptop problems. I am so sorry for not checking in before now

Woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!

Mouse fab news about wee Nemo!

Beaches lovely, your boys will be fine tomorrow, it's all exciting and new, a new beginning DC are much more resilient than we give them credit I hope you all had a good last summer holiday day x Get the camera out tomorrow morning, do they wear a uniform? You'll be full of flutterbys and they will probably not even give you a backward glance because you're doing such a good job and you're a brilliant Mum

Work for the past few days has been tough and busy many of the residents are on 'end of life care' and I know that I will find it upsetting once I've got to know them and they die Hey ho!

There is a full moon approaching on Tuesday (I think) so maybe that could be having an effect

straight from the school run (4pm to 6pm )and then after DC are in bed were all triggers for me and just passing out hopefully in bed

I'm I often think of you and wonder how you and your DC are Echoing Beaches it would be really good to hear from you (just in case you're lurking) x

Mouse great news about Nemo he is such a strong swimmer thank you for setting up the new thread

The WW is whispering or shouting at many of you (actually it's a bit late now) distract yourself with anything you can, watch the film until the end - that is really working for me at the moment.

Sorry not to NC, knackered and need to sleep, work again tomorrow. Night All xxx

I can't recommend anything ma quine, I wish I could. Sorry you're feeling so shitey xx

I am making hay while the sun shines, if I disappear, I'm sorry xx

joey just thought of summat which helps me, although it's a bit unorthodox. I epilate everything, including me undercarriage. I think it may have something to do with the deep breathing to cope with the pain? Poss a combination of concentrating on the pain and breathing.

That sounds all kinds of wrong. I can't articulate what I want to say, it's a different pain from the lupus pain, I'm in control of it or something. Does that make sense? Focusing on that control gives me an outlet for my raaaargh moments. I'm blethering...sorry lovey, hope you feel better soon, xx

Wry sweet thing good to see you through the stripes and an ENORMOUS well done for kicking that saggy titted twunty WW away yonder somewhere where you can't hear her Keep it up Wry

Thanks wry for making me laugh so much I got hiccups - that has really helped with my negative emotions.

Now every time I feel angry, I will just imagine you shaving (waxing?!) your privates as a tool to cope with anger issues. I bet nobody else has ever thought of that technique...