The Brave Babes Battle Bus - In Search Of Sobriety, Sunshine & Survival!

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Hello, I'm Mouse :)

Welcome to the thread, or our mythical Bus called Gerald!

There is room for everyone. Always

There is help for everyone who wants it. Always

There is unconditional support and kindness. Always

We have two sentences that we believe in here -

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

No matter what it is that you drink, how much, how often, we've ALL been in your position at one point or another...... so most of us WILL know exactly what it's like to be YOU

If you'd like to read the last thread, it's below -

THIS IS THE PREVIOUS THREAD

And if you want to read a pretty sobering thread and the history behind these many, the reason why we are all here, fighting to stay/get sober is here -

FIRST EVER BRAVE BABES THREAD

Hope to see you soon :)

Mouse x

Go Eccles Go Eccles you can do it babe - one hour at a time, you'll be on Day 20 before you know it. Have a good day x
Pizza welcome back stick with us and post whenever you want, about whatever you want. Be kind to yourself and get in lots of lovely treats to eat

Wry I think it's your first day back ? Put a ball of white light around you and don 't let the bastards get u down. Smile and wave boys, smile and wave (as those lovely penguins say) hugs to you lovely xxx

Good morning bus folks. I am feeling in a better place today and as it is the 1st of September i am starting with a clean sweep.

I am aiming for dry September, along with revamping my diet (the processed crap must go!). On top of that i am planning to do more exercise.

My October a new me will be gracing this thread. A svelte, toned and healthy me. Okay, i will still be old, ain't much i can do about that .

I pledge to post every single day to tell you of my highs and lows and i will be honest with you all.

I hope you all have a good Monday. to you all. ( Am rubbish at remembering everyone).

Welcome back fable sorry about your miscarriage I'll join you in not drinking tonight :)

little I'm also hoping/trying to get back into exercise and eating better now september is here. I had been going to the gym on my days off work when the dds were in school but obviously that went by the by during the holidays. I can feel myself slipping back into a cycle of low mood, drink too much, can't be bothered to do anything, etc. It's all a bit chicken and egg and I need to get a grip on it...

Thanks Guys. I'm already craving Vodka and the fact that I have half a bottle in my freezer is torture. I'm already cracking and thinking that I'll go dry once I've finished the bottle (I can't bare to pour it down the sink). At work at the mo (luckily) I think that if I was at home I'd be on it already. My DH mentioned the other day that he thinks I drink too much (apparently 3 bottles of vodka a week) which shocked me. Feeling lost and don't want to say that I'm the "A" word but I think I may be. If I went to the doctors would SS get involved?

pizza it is really hard and you may slip up along the way but several posters here have done it, many more of us are trying hard. there are loads of tips to help throughout the thread but it will be so much easier if you don't have the stuff in the freezer calling to you. I do have booze in the house, DH still drinks but he is a moderate drinker, I am an all or nothing gal so can cope with it in the house as long as it remains unopened. If DH opened a bottle at the weekend then did not drink it all I would struggle not to drink it then that would lead to opening another and so the cycle begins. fortunately he prefers beer so no leftovers to tempt me. I switched off my wine fridge so the bottles in there are not cold and tempting I have deleted all the alcohol from 'my favourites' on my online shopping and since my last fall from the bus I am trying to accept that I cannot do moderation and giving up would be the best option, though stupidly I still cling to the delusion that I will be able to have an occaisonal drink on special nights out. good luck, day one is a start.
Spanna thanks, I read that with the vision of you in a red stripey cheerleader skirt waving pom poms

Thanks Anne.

The first day is the worst, I find. If I can get over that hump, the next few are usually OK.

It's a vicious circle: the lack of sleep, anxiety and constant self-berating that go with drinking lead me to . . . really want a drink.

I know I'm drinking too much because I've started waking up in the small hours, overheating and panicky, then being unable to get to sleep. It's horrible. It used to happen to me nightly for months when I was at the height of my drinking (90 units a week or so), and I don't want it back.

On the good side, I've just been to the dentist and still have good teeth! Was dreading having work done

Thanks StepAwayFromTheEcclesCakes xx

Hi everyone I'm a long time lurker but I feel this would be a good place for me to get some advice/perspective. I have been unhappy in my marriage for a few years and have started turning to drink to ease/numb this. I know this is the worst thing to do as alcohol just makes it worse but that's how I've been "coping" (if you can call it that) I've never drunk in the mornings and have never drunk driven and don't even get that drunk that it's affecting my work or anything like that - just a few drinks each evening to "take the edge off". The worse thing is that I have been hiding it from my DH, to the point where I would buy a small bottle of vodka and pour it into an empty pop bottle and get rid of the vodka bottle so there was no evidence of the drinking in the house. We're not a "dry" house so it's not like DH doesn't have a drink but i think I hid I was drinking because I didn't want to explain why - I.e. that I was unhappy in our marriage (that's another story, been together 14 years, married 11, 3 DCs, just don't feel like I love him anymore) anyway it came to a head the other day because DH came home from work and I was a little tipsy (usually only have a couple so he doesn't notice) everything came out - about my hiding it and me being unhappy. He was great even though I was basically telling him I didn't think I loved him anymore, I expected him to hate me. I made an appointment with the doctor (which I have this afternoon and I am dreading) and we have talked about counselling and if that doesn't work he will move out. I am now on day 6 sober and while I am still thinking about how I'd like to have a drink I am feeling better because it is out in the open. I just feel so horrible and selfish and guilty because the DCs love their dad and he loves them and I feel I am putting myself before any of them and I think that has contributed to my issues.
I'd love your advice/help Xx

Hi all. Welcome new Babes and well done for being brave and making that first post!

Appraisal over, didn't get a warning although the boss did hint he would give me one next time unless I pull socks up! But he also said well done in other areas. Just this one area I am too slow on.

Anyway Day 1, and I now have to try and get my act together.

oh and thanks to everyone who gave me support!

Afternoon, tis me, Mouse

I'm not firing on all cylinders just now but wanted to say I'm so sorry to read your news Fable, it's ever so sad when life throws such cruelty your way. Stick with the Bus, we're good at listening if nothing else. x

If my posts seem a bit disjointed just now, it's because of the side effects of my new meds - morphine patches - which take a while to build up and now that they have I get of utter confusion and wibbles, and other days where I just have to sleep, days where I slur, days when I can't think or speak in sentences....... it's weird not knowing what I'm going to wake up to!

Anyway, I just wanted to say that I'll be around more once the DCs are back at school, and I look forward to meeting all of the new babes properly, whilst catching up with those who have been here a bit longer!

Bye for now, I'll be back to do the new thread,

Mouse xxx

mouse whatever it is that is going on we are all here for you.

Eccles oh yes visualize an adult High School Musical cheerleading outfit

Fable welcome back. I am really sorry to hear your news Keep posting we're all here to support you x

Pizza I was always under the impression that a Doctor has to keep 'patient/doctor' confidentiality - maybe another babe will be more certain about that. I would have to get rid of the vodka, it would be too tempting for me, could you hide it in the garden shed? Keep posting, you'll get heaps of support here x

Pheonix welcome Babe. I am a great believer that 'if you're not right' then everything else won't be right. You have to put yourself first so that you can be strong enough to support your family unit Be kind to yourself, Day 6 is amazing, why not spend your money you'd have spent on booze on a treat, just for you. Keep posting you'll get some really good advice on this bus x

Joey I'm so glad that your appraisal went better than you expected, that is good news at least you know where you're at and what you've got to do before the next one

Beaches is it Day 20 for you today babe? these are for you pumpkin

Mouse it's always good to hear from you

Isinde sounds like you're doing some good thinking about stuff that is dear to you, that can't be a bad thing to do. I hope you're having a good day babe x

Rural how are you?

Wry please check in when you can lovely one x

Baby have you done a tap or ballet lesson yet? Are the girls settling back into their routine of school and nursery? sending you a big squeeze x

Hope how are you lovely? come out, come out where ever you are

Welcome phoenix, I can relate to a lot of what you wrote. Unhappily married, drinking to numb it, not drinking so much that anyone would notice anything is amiss. I can't advise but keep posting it does help.

Well I've not done well on the healthy eating front, pigged out pn ice cream all day. Totally dreading going back to work. H suggested getting some wine to cheer me up - it's so ingrained that this is how we deal with any upset...I said not to and did level one of shred instead. A minor attempt to try and salvage something of the day.

Annie - well I'd say you're pretty remarkable - a worrisome day, an offer of wine and you manage to say "no". And not only that but you do something a damn sight better instead. Give yourself a bloody big round of applause. You deserve it.

Anneis level one of shred?? what's that when it's at home? I can totally relate to the numbing effects of wine, cider, vodka (and any alcohol available) it's so much easier to go into that haze than have to deal with life, stone cold sober!! I can bet your bottom dollar that there's more calories in wine than there is in ice cream I'm sorry that you're dreading going back to work, I feel the same, had a few days off and working all week next week, in a new job where I don't know what I'm doing Keep strong Anneis and be kind to yourself

Well said Venus

Hi all. Welcome phoenix. Its not easy being in a relationship with someone you don't love. Its why a lot of us drink.
Been out for a jog again. Am one pound of that pesky half stone mark...

Well done Anne, that shred is hard. Also for choosing not to drink tonight. You seem to find a good bit of willpower when it's needed.

Welcome back Pizza and Phase and hello to Phoenix.

Spanna yes day 20 today! Am feeling pretty proud to get there, as it seemed almost impossible 3 weeks ago. How are you feeling about it all? You are doing so brilliantly babe.

Little glad you will be posting every day! it is good to read ups and downs I know it helps me heaps to check in.

Mouse the meds sound very disorientating, I hope they are giving you plenty of pain relief along with the other stuff.

isinde your thoughts do seem to have a clearness about them today. I hope you are ok babe x

Joey glad that pesky reveiw is behind you now and wasn't too awful.

Waves to all other brave babes

Oops, I took ages to post that. Waves to Venus and Ma and well done on the jog. You will soon be celebrating the half stone mark. (I believe Spanna has pom poms for such occasions )

Get her pom poms out spanna

Pom Poms out and shaking - Go Ma Go Ma