Oh my God - you do know you will lose all respect and possibly contact from your teenage children if they ever find out you'd been living a lie for SIX YEARS.
Making a prick of their dad for SIX YEARS.
They will see you completely differently. Do you understand the gravity of that - for you? Let alone for them. Think I'm being dramatic? Trust me I'm not, I've been there as a kid.
You better pray with all your might they don't find out.
I've literally got chills thinking about if it were me...but it wouldn't be me because I could never do this to my husband and children.
Finish it now, you stupid stupid fool.
What is wrong with all that ^^ ?
That's not bashing the OP, it's all true. She has been living a lie for six years. She is making a prick of their dad. She is behaving like a stupid fool and, tbh, I think even OP would agree with that.
OP asked for opinions and she got them. There is no way on earth she expected posters to be softly, softly with her. This is hard hitting stuff, what she is doing. It is heaping misery upon her and her family.
I think the OP has trouble engaging with reality.
That is why she allowed herself to get into this mess in the first place.
That is why she does not respond to posters on her own thread.
That is why she leaves before she has resolved anything.
That is why she won't go for counselling.
Head in the sand, make it all go away is OP's approach to life.
If she had just addressed whatever was lacking in her life in the first place, she wouldn't have looked to an affair to solve things and would not now be in this sorry state.