Upset again by Dad's comments regarding our seperation.

[Lemmingswife]

Have spoken to my sister this weekend & she told me that she got herself into an argument with Dad over my situation.
She told me that Dad told her that she must not fall pray to any of this nonsence.
My sister told him that she would support me, as I was her sister & she had heard how he had threatened me.
My Dad said "Yes I did & I stand by what I said. I do not regret a word of it."
My sister told him that H has a very bad temper & that he does not know what goes on behind closed doors.
His response to this was "She is a liar & a drama queen and that girl is enough to bring out the temper in anyone!"
He said that members of our family do not give up on marriages & if my sister did what I am doing, she would get the same response.

This has all really upset me again. It looks like he really will reject me for going through with the seperation & I just don't know how I am going to get through this.

Guess I am going to have to get used to the fact that I will be dealing with these situations alone from now on.

Poor thing. I hope he feels better soon.

Yes it is very exhausting but worth it when they snuggle up to you later! Hope the docs goes well and have a good day!

Back from the doctors! DS has an inflamed throat & his glands are up everywhere, which will be causing the tummy pains.
He has been prescribed more antibiotics.

Poor chap! Hope all is well otherwise LW.

Haven't had time to think about things today, with DS being so poorly. He is in bed now having a very needed sleep, as he was awake a lot of last night.
Had to see the nurse practitioner, as all doctors were booked up. She told me he may seem to get worse before he gets better, but that he would be ok, as he is a tough cookie!
She is the nurse that I had to see when my HV reccomended I go on AD's, so knows a little about my situation.
She asked if HV was still seeing me, as she does not work for our surgery anymore.
I told her that she still visited regually & she said "She is very good, I didn't think she would let you go"
The nurse told me that if things get very tough, I can always go back for more AD's, as I must keep strong for my boys.
I told her that I was coping ok atm, but would consider them if I start to feel that I am not coping at all in the coming months.

Don't like to go down the AD road unless it is absolutely essential.
I don't think I am depressed atm, but I do have days of not coping as well as normal.

I dont think youre depressed either-thats a clinical condition,you may become so under such pressure-
youre coping as well as can be expected!
I had to give up dyeing clothes by the way

I was depressed for a little while after DS2 was born & that felt more of an out of control kind of low, IYKWIM?
I am in control of my emotions atm & sometimes I cope quite well - almost too well, then other days it all gets on top of me & I lose it a bit.
Certainly don't feel the need for AD's right now.

How are things with you now?
Have you tried to seek some kind of help yet?

swallow are you are shibori?

Lw I kept thinking I needed ADs but I didnt!

I get horribly upset at times, but don't think it is depression, it is just due to the circumstances.
How are things with you, GF?

Yes Glitterfairyxx

oh LW thank you only one week to go and I can tell all. We are in court on the 19th and after that I can say what has been happening. I would love to get support here but know he might be reading this and so cannot say. The only thing to say is his behaviour has got much worse.

Glad I was right swallowtail and am keeping up with you! LOL

By the way FWIW I think that nowadays we dont like to be depressed and think it is bad but I think it is the bodies natural defence against trauma and we shoudl jsut let it be. In the end we come out of it and things get better. I sometimes say well I feel a bit down at the moment and think that considering everything that is ok. Got some great advice on here though and having people to talk to even if I cant really talk about me really helps.

Ohhh, sorry, GF. Take care.x

I have been through a spell of depression & I do panic everytime I feel myself sinking, or feel like I am not coping well, but atm, I feel I am just very stressed due to everything that is going on.
Sometimes I have to block it all out for a bit, just to get through each day.

Wishing you lots of luck for your court case, GF.

Good luck for the 19th GF,im up w my ex the 16th next month!

Thinking of you too lw-BIG CYBER HUG!!!!!

THanks guys and I think taking it one day at a time is how it should be done. Because anything bigger looks frankly scarey most of the time.

I agree, GF. I have to tackle one day at a time myself atm, as if I thought too deeply into everything that is to come in the weeks/months to follow, I would lose the plot BIG time!

Think my DS1 is very in tune with the fact I am unhappy atm. He made me a little card today, which said: To Mummy, there is a flower for you in my bookbag.
I looked in his bookbag & there was a tiny squashed, dried out daisy! Bless him!

AAAh,what a little sweetie-i remenber my now very big ds1 asking me if he could get me some medicine for my lurgy the day after my ex dropped the bombshell!

He is a sweet & sensitive little boy, but I do worry about the effect all this is having on him.

The sooner your x is gone and they can have a new life with you the better imo LW! Even though you dread telling them adn it will probably be awful mine are better off now honest!