How's the head this morning winefiend?
I spent a pleasant evening chatting to Guitar Man on OD. Ex banker who had a breakdown but is fine now. We've agreed to pick it up again in the near future. I surprised myself actually. He was incredibly honest about his breakdown and was surprised when I didn't immediately block him. But shit, I went to hell and back in the dying days of my marriage so I kind of admire him for that. The therapist in me made me check out how he is these days and how he found 'redemption' and his reply seemed genuine, I recognised my own redemption in what he said.
So he asks me what I'm looking for. I bloody hate that question because I don't know. So I told him the truth, someone who 'gets' me, someone who's ok with themselves, someone with whom there's physical and emotional connection - but what that looks like in practice I don't yet know. Definitely NOT marriage though. I said I know that what I want may not happen but I'm ok with that. I'm happy. Normally I dance around that question but what's the point?
Today I'm off to the dump (can hardly contain my excitement). No further dates lined up with GG yet. Wembley has gone quiet .