ccc, me too. MN was at one point the only support I had. MN helped me see that no matter hard I tried, the relationship would only get worse that my happiness was the target my Ex had to eliminate, in any way possible.
MN helped me see that I ought not to put up with any of it, so ultimately I didn't.
MN was there when he left, when my entire family threw me under the bus by being literally half a world away, MN was there too when the same family, upon it's return a month later couldn't wait to get off the phone if I called. It was there when I realised how jealous and bitter my DSis was, how much nasty she had done while pretending to be nice, how passive aggressive she is, and how I needed to cut her from my life.
MN was there.
It still is.
Nowadays I give what I can back. I may not get it right too much, but I'm so happy that I can hand hold if needed to
I'm 18m on now, did the Freedom Programme, attend a Domestic Abuse support group, and did 6m of therapy.
The first 6m were a blur, it was just horrid, i had to overcome agoraphobia, the trauma of having been emotionally assaulted by the Ex and then by my family. I've been angry, and have worked through it all. Nowadays it's all manageable.
I have much further to go on my journey, but I do appreciate how far I have come. In such a short time, I have transformed, my life is unrecognisable, and I am happier than I have ever been in my life. My task now is to get used to the idea that I deserve it all! :D
I want ALL of us that have suffered at the hands of vile and nasty partners to take the leap of faith, to draw that deep breath and stand up and say NO MORE. I know that it's the hardest thing in the world to do, it's physically painful to have to try to find that courage, but I can't tell you all enough how bloody worth it is in the end.
If you have NOTHING more than MN to help support you, let me tell you that you are already RICH!, There are so many wonderful people here, that know so much really helpful stuff, you will have a 24 hour a day place where people who understand and care can listen, and support and even ((((hug)))) you if you need it.