Support thread for survivors of childhood sexual abuse PART 6

[CailinDana]

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The purpose of these threads is to allow survivors of childhood sexual abuse, their partners, friends, or parents, to talk in a safe place about what they think and feel. Nothing is off limits or taboo, just say what you want to say.

You can ask to see your records and get false information removed. You are not hysterical, you're having a perfectly normal reaction to an abnormal situation.

On a side note never eat a big meal half an hour after taking antibiotics

are you feeling ill Olympic?

I am going to go through my notes when I am in a better place. Have seen numerous drs at the same practice but suspect my notes are the problem. Even things written about me in my children's notes. If notes are the problem changing surgeries won't help. Think I have been scuppers because of who my parents are - both well known local GPs.

OK Offred - I think you should have rights with this - legally, you have rights, am sure of it - am sure if you asked on MN someone out there would know how to get an independent GP, who was not influenced by your parents, or your notes

One of the reasons I felt so hopeless as a teen is that literally every single time someone who was in a position of responsibility for me had a chance to help they didn't. There's only 3 people who have ever helped me when I've needed it; the fella who took me in and gave me his bedroom for 3 months, my counsellor friend who used to be my neighbour and my DH. Literally everyone else, school, parents, doctors who I have asked for help has kicked me when I was down. All my life.

I'm sure I will sort it out belle when I'm feeling more up to it. No use nor ornament atm. am studying law at uni...

Offred I would seek legal advice, I had a similar problem, changed practice and sought legal help. Just the threat made my new surgery listen.

Belle, just a wee bit, am trying not to move but my tooth swelling has gone down :o

I was thinking all this is a bit too much for you at the moment Offred. It's ok to just let things slide for the time being.

You are a brainy one then Offred, good on you

Oh Olympic, no cake for you! Just tea - and sympathy, plenty of that

hopefully you'll get a good sleep this evening with the antibiotics

Offred, same here with kicks in the teeth, when I went to college one of my lecturers tried to humiliate me out of the class for being a drop out, I came nearly top of the class and he quietly apologised, tosser.

Yes it is. But frigging gp is no use nor ornament too. Fortunately we have excellent self-referral services here. Very grateful. May need to go back to them. Don't think ADs would help anyway, just maybe go back to masking the problem.

Agree with letting things slide, just concentrate on the most immediate.

Can your dh take some of the slack?

Does make me . The types of different services/people I've seen. It is so hard to ask for help, to do it repeatedly and just be let down so badly each time is just really awful.

Sorry we where out and lost phone internet.

My GP showed me the letter that pyschcology sent her in it they basically said I had on going MH problems and there was nothing they could do this was after she referred me as an urgent case after I nearly ran my car into a lorry after first counselling session following disclosure and reality of the severity of the abuse hitting me only thing that stopped me was my kids and the thought of the lorry driver being hurt.

Book sounds good Cailin :)

I agree Offred. I asked my GP to refer me for counselling three years ago. After 6 months I heard nothing so I reminded her, two years later still nothing. Then I moved so that was the end of that. I'm not sure I'll bother with the NHS counselling, six sessions is a bit pathetic IMO.

I disagree about the ADs masking the problem by the way. I think they just help you to get your head straight enough to tackle the problem fully. But I can see why you're wary of them.

Had our usual tuesday night meal out and bingo gives us a chance to talk if I'm willing/in the mood.

DH is taking a lot of slack. Although he is out tonight and I couldn't really manage all that putting children to bed, he doesn't really get how i'm feeling I think. Think he's a bit pissed off with the extra pressure on top of work which he does for us and hates. I am putting a brave face on it but actually right now I just want him to go away and I want to be completely by myself.

Seems like a few of us have had gp's write us off.

Annoyingly we can be helped, just costs a bit more money.

That is awful dotty. Mental health services are absolutely shocking. If any other illness was treated with such contempt and ignorance there would be uproar.

I had a psychiatrist ask me if I had money worries and when I said yes he sneered and said "So does everybody else." Bastard! Why did he even ask me if he was just going to belittle me. He was an absolute cunt that guy.

I'm off to bed now guys, goodnight.

Hugs for anyone who wants them :)

Gp was not happy she looked into private services for me but said it was more suitable for after any trial I can't fault what she's done ever been my Gp for 18 years now.

Night and hugs back.

Dotty, hope you enjoyed bingo.

Offred, How you doing.

Belle and everyone hugs

Not explaining about ADs very well. I've used them very successfully in the past to provide a boost. However I am struggling to keep myself out of denial just now and I think in order to make myself feel better the ADs would just give me extra strength to put a lid on it and that wouldn't be ultimately helpful. If I wanted them I could just order them and pick them up without seeing GP.