the pint is I can look younger than I am, especially to a person who is a lot older - I do wonder often if she actually knows what my age is, I was thinking of tellug her to make sure but keep forgetting. I told her at hte very start but this was a while ago and she ight not have paid attention as it was sort of before meeting. I mean she doesn't think I'm 20 but coould think , 35. It's also stupid as when I'm nervous I become a bit more girly and not as assertive and even my voice is a bit higher (not ridicullous 
, but you know..). I must try to sound deliberately mature which I do with some people but somehow not others. Power in r-ships..oh it's one of my fave subjects! it's so not black and white in many cases! I don't mind her being more powerful as in lead a bit, if that's what you mean, and yes she does come across as patronising sometimnes to many non-friends/relatives, but she's really softened with me over time - there was that goldem time in March when i saw her daily and she was extremely nice and on same wavelength and almost running around me - now it's kind of according to mood, she is still sometimes relaxed and takes me seriously, but at others - a bit patronising (but it really is part of her personality when not dealing with closest) - I think thisreflect this 'come here, go away' attitude she has to me!
But you know, with drinking, if she feels relaxed and warmer , why on earth does shhe bever offer to share a glass with me? Is it just trying to keep distance because she doesn't see me as friend/partner, or is it because she's scared of the outcome of us drinking together?? in which case she's not so powerful. is she. I know her very well now, well bar what she feels for me exactly - she sort of tells me what to do but if I disagree she often later does what i wanted even though to my face she said 'no', I'm sure if were in r-ship I'd be able to influence her, I can see that with her I know how to go about it, even now, but if we wre closer of course the power balance can completely chsange. I'm not really concerned about it - I just want to be with her, and if she did become unreasonable of course I'd speak up, but unlike men I've been with she's a lot wiser and more sensitive to create unreasonable situations..
WEll, yo could say that one last time doesn't change anything with your wiw- if you tried twice, what one more letdown (even though it's simplistic to look at it like that) - purely because it's yourlast chance and after this she wouldn't be scared of reprecussions. She is in a worse position if you like, as you told her that you want to be friendly and wouldn't msconstrue anything, so can she after that make a pass? she may think you meant it and also while you aer there you can still tell someone at school, plus she just doesn't get opportunity for any private talk as ther aer people there. After yo ulevae she could contact you by email and not neccessarily directly asking you out, but just to ask 'how aer you' and see how you reply. The only negative withthis , is that if sje doesnt reply you'll be waiting and hoping so iut's be best if you had her email address too. If you volunteer for more months will there be a summer break first? and also how often would you see her then? is it worth it? I don't think she'll ever approach yo uat school in front of people. I think it's best to exchange details or jus give her yours than see her rarely and hope she'll start something (she won't). Of course I did mean that do this if she's bee nquite warm these 4 weks, if cold or ignorng you then no, you have your pride, but if she was warm-ish and respinded to your chat on tues, I would try that.