The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Kicking The Devilish Demon Drink Into Touch This Hallowe'en!. Mwahahahaha!

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Hello

I'm Mouse, well normally! [hgrin]

Welcome to the Bus. We are a mixed bunch of Babes, some of us drink, some of us don't and some of us are trying to find out the best way to cut down or stop completely.

There is plenty of room on the Bus for everyone so, come say hi. [hsmile]

And, if you'd like to see what brought us all here, you can read all of the past threads, including the original one by JWN RIGHT HERE

Morning all,
Dotv I would really advise you to a) get legal advice (most places do a free half hour and you'd qualify for legal aid) and b) get your benefits claims in NOW so you WILL have somewhere to live and something to live on, maybe look at crisis loans too and c) if you can get to somewhere big enough to have a John Lewis to work (I know you said you are very rural but must be a fair sized place for a JL) then get to AA. There is a lot of wisdom in the rooms about practical stuff but most importantly how to live (and misery IS indeed optional) whilst there is utter crap going on. If you think it's only money that is stopping you from drinking... well, I think you need something a bit stronger than that, and you will find it in the rooms, and you will be much less isolated. Hang in there.

Headed south to mum's house - bit scared - taking my laptop with me so shouldn't be out of touch. Going to start my step 4 on the train - am really so ready for this, I want to be well, I want the way I think and feel and all the rest of the iceberg of which drink was only the tip out in the open and dealt with.

Right better go and pack. Love to all x

Hope it all goes ok noteven, will be thinking of you today x

Have a good day babes

Morning all.

noteven - Be thinking of you today and over the next few days. Be strong. xx

Ma - you seem so down my lovely. Has you finally given in? Has it all just become too much for you? You have my number if you want to chat but please, don't sit alone and wondering why you bother.......

Noteven, good luck with the visit. Sounds like you're ready for it (although understandably a little scared). After what you've been through, you'll manage it I'm sure, and feel stronger when you come out the other side. Will be thinking of you.

Mouse, hope you get the cough sorted soon. Being ill's rubbish.

Hope everyone is OK this morning. No boing here today. Had a crap day yesterday and was so wound up by tea-time. Reached for the bottle, like I always used to. Argued with DH, slept really badly, and feel really down today. When will I learn??

Today I will not be drinking.

Hey All

Just to say that I am thinking of everyone who is struggling at the moment.

As mousie says - misery is optional, and I keep telling myself through the trying times, that nothing in my life has ever been improved by pouring alcohol onto it.

Chins up Brave Babes, coz it is easier to face the world head on rather than staring at the carpet.

Love to all
Bafana
xx

Well done SSM - I hope that you're okay. You will learn. One day x

Brrrr it's getting chilly out there this evening.

Well, I've finished work and been straight to the supermarket so am having a well deserved rest and hot mug of coffee. The cat seems to have taken up permanent residence on my lap again .

I'm not hanging around though, as am catching up on jobs in the evenings as part of my new 'get things done' regime. Keeps me busy and out of trouble. Now where did I leave my 'to do' list . . .

Laters x

Where is everybody? Busy being soberly productive, or struggling and feeling rubbish maybe? Hope everyone's OK.

I am getting to the end of yet another hungover day. Spent the morning beating myself up about overdoing the old vino yet again, then realised that wallowing was going to get me nowhere. I messed up but I WILL learn from this. No point going down the old 'poor me' route. Tomorrow is another day. And I will not be drinking. Darn it it's hard though isn't it?

Goodnight babes x

I'm here silly but just about to go to bed. Am worn out with all my productivity .

Hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Nothing like a stinking hangover to strengthen the resolve is there. You are right to put it behind you. I will join you in a sober Wednesday tomorrow.

Sleep well one and all x

Morning all,

Sorry to keep posting and running, but, I'm a bit daft busy work wise at the moment.

I hope you are all ok, it keeps me grounded and making the right decisions to check in here, if that's ok, although I am not being a help to anyone at the moment.

Sending my love and good vibes for good days, to everyone.
xxxx

thurso you are helping by just being here.
Morning also to everyone else. I am trying to be productive and getting lost in memories. But doing ok, and had the lovely privilege of meeting up with miflaw to go to an AA meeting last night which was great (meeting miflaw and the meeting!)
Right, time to get on with the job in hand.

send some of that motivation here please.

i can't bring myself to get anything done and i have a friend visiting friday and the house is a tip. should be doing loads but just can't find the oompf!

thinking of everyone. today i won't be drinking. yesterday i went out for an impromptu pub lunch with my sister and had two beers. on the plus side i didn't continue drinking afterwards or have anything in the evening so not too bad really.

I haven't had a drink since Saturday and I'm getting sadder. I don't miss the drink, I have a mantra now "white wine is cat's piss and makes you sick" but I am more tired, more depressed, can't concentrate and want to scream. What's that all about? Watching my OH drink all Sunday afternoon/night made me want to lash out. When I'm stone cold sober I look around and go "WTF?". Tempted to dive back into oblivion but NOT A GOOD IDEA. Oh, go on then..

(I won't, I'm at work - and patently not doing any :-))

atoslis you are doing so well. know what you about lashing out. I was going to have a good week but things have gone pear shaped, had a horrible call from lloyds bank yesterday threatening to reposess the house, bastards. DP know I was upset and thought box of wine would make me feel better, well did @ the time but feeling like shit today. I could have said no but the temptation was too much Am findiung very difficult to get motivated today

blossom123 - sorry to hear about the house, that's awful, think I'd have gone for the cat's piss in that situation.
They don't help do they, having drink in the house?
It would also help loads if sobriety was a barrel of laughs! :-)

atolis Cats piss situation you d omake me laugh. Well atleast e have not lost our sense of humour
isnde yes dp is making this really hard, I could have coped despite the massive anxiety I feel right now bastard bank grrrrrr but someone literally handing me a glass is too hard to resist, he is a weak prat but I am an idiot for not being stronger

Yo indie

blossom can your debt management people help with this? My goodness i feel for you. We use Payplan and they have been very good.
Thurso my friend, how are you and DH? Same old, same old here I'm afraid.
atosilis keep at it. I'm told it gets better

am still drinking but spritzers to try and reduce alcohol content - managed to tip half of last one down sink last night and leave about a third of a bottle, so slow progress. At least not waking up with a hangover.

Hey All

blossom sorry to hear about the house, really difficult times
Atoslis keep going, it does get easier, I found the first week or two incredibly difficult

I take my hat off to anyone that can attempt to stop drinking with an enabling or encouraging self sabotogue partner at home, I really do. It must make it so much more difficult.

mouseface how's everything with you guys?? Hope you are all well!

fairenuff I also have a permanent to do list but cuddling up on the sofa seems to be winning on these colder darker evening, although I still cannot like hot chocolate, so it's decaff tea here in great big steaming mugs, and I keep my hands warm at the same time.

This is the time of year that I am really glad I don't smoke I hated standing outside in the cold smoking!! Even in the snow and the rain, what an idiot!!

silver how's you apart from watching tumbleweed??

sillysillymum hope that you are having a better day today hangover free. Just hold onto how you felt yesterday if you feel the demon creeping up on you tonight.

thurso as noteven said - it's just enough to have you here. I am often so busy that it feels wrong to just post and run, but I love it when other people do - double standards to myself - and setting myself silly expectations. I shall try and do like you do and at least pop in.
Hope that sounds right - and not condescending!! Anyway glad that you are ok Checking in here always regrounds me too.

noteven very jealous that you have met Mifl!!

swallowed - large boot up the bum . Or if they are a real friend they will not be bothered by the state of the house, and just be pleased to see you!

indie Big hugs my friend, I think that not keeping wine in the house is a very sensible decision. Very pleased to see you reboarding Gerald.

Bproud whispers softly - the 24th. Strangely feeling anxious about it.

Right
After that marathon post, I am off to do some work
Hope everyone else is well
Bafana
xx

ma I am on a debt management plan, this is an old business debt and have missed a couple of payments so they are now calling in the debt. Bitch on the phone even said me yesterday don't worry you will not be homeless as you will be given social housing, if she had said it to my face I think I might have become violent. I am in such a mess and really need advice, top it all DS gf has been rushed into hospital as there is a problem with the pregnancy.

Bafana feel a bit guilty that I've not even met inde who lives, ooh, about 8 miles from me and yet 240 miles from home... but hey, this isn't meant to be about guilt any more is it, so I will put "meet up with isinde " on my to do list. When better from lurgy - I think you can keep that to yourself if you don't mind :) and wow for the 24th - it's just the 365th 24 hours, it has no power unless you let it.
atosilis it's been said before here that the good thing about stopping drinking is you get your feelings back. And the bad thing about stopping drinking is that you get your feelings back. To be honest, that's why I need AA, to teach me to live with sobriety.
I am not supposed to be on here, I only logged on to the computer to get my sister's list of what's in which cupboard, I need a good kick to get back on with it!

Oh dear, Blossom you DO NOT need that do you. Can you get any legal advice maybe? Sorry to hear about DS's GF , hope everything is okay.

Saf - I'm sure that you're friend isn't coming to see your house? Try not to stress about it.

IsinDe - lovely to see you posting again, how are those girls of yours? How are things with DP? And your drinking? Are you managing to keep it under control? Have you stopped? xx

noteven - I may just be a tiny bit jealous of you meeting MIFLAW DON'T TELL JWN whatever you do!!!

Sorry I'm not about as much, went to the doc last night and they are juggling my pain meds about and have given me Oramorph to self medicate with. So far it's not helping. At all.

It's been very quiet on here which I'm hoping that means everyone is busy being sober!

Silver - how are things? xx

bafana - you too, how are things? How is your dad? (hopes she has the right Babe)

Nemo had a great day at nursery today, we picked up his special shoes on Monday so he went and showed them off to his palls today!

Need to get some washing on now that we have water again, don't ask, be back later. xx

Mousef Thanks. Have already started seeking help today, I feel just a tinsy winsy bit stressed, I think they are trying to scare me and it is working. GF is 32 weeks, going to see them in hospital later, also feel for DS he is so young and scared has sat there for 2 days refusing to leave her side, fingers crossed all is going to settle down.

Afternoon all

Am home a little earlier today which makes a nice change.

Blossom I expect it's only a drop in the ocean, but could you put the money you would have spent on alcohol to one side to help towards the debts? It's surprising how it can add up over time. If your DH insists on continuing to drink a lot, even when he can't afford it, perhaps this might make him see that he has a problem controlling his drinking too, and he might be prepared to try and do something about it. Just an idea, ignore me if you like.

To be completely honest, I would not have been able to resist if I had alcohol in the house, or bought it daily. Especially in those early weeks. It would just have been too much of a temptation for me.

And I would be so at my DH for trying to sabotage me.

My drinking so much daily was habit mostly, rather than physical addiction so getting it all out of the house was the first step. Same as if you're trying to diet and you get rid of all the biscuits, crisps and chocolate and buy in fruit and low fat snacks.

Anyway, just my thoughts, rambling . . .

Saf can you just shove everything into a big cupboard for now and have a proper clear up later. I've done that a couple of few times in the past .

Mouse so glad Nemo likes his new shoes. I do hope something starts to work soon to help with your pain. Have you been able to get to the gym at all, or is it too bad at the moment?

Isinde it's good to hear from you again. Hope you feel a lot better soon too x