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Thats an awfully large amount of money, but i can understand why....

Do you have parents that could help you out at all? or would it be worth talking to the dentists about a payment plan ( we used to do these) so its not that amount of money in one go?

Mmm. Thank you watch I guess I have never had awesome sex then! I always felt self conscious with my ex because it was obviously 'just sex' to him, I never felt relaxed. Unless I'd had wine!! A few times I caught him watching TV while 'attending to my needs' Sort of puts a girl off you know.

Maybe Crap Date Policeman received complaints from neighbours of wild abandoned sex noises, saw you were in attendance at the scene so thought he would have a go at taking down your particulars

With regard to Good Sex Man. Just don't go getting hurt

I wouldn't be accepted for the credit watch for the payment plan. Gonna just have to save save save and then throw a wad of cash at them! It's ok I don't mind it's just gonna be proper knackering and not leave much of me left to dedicate to a relationship.

Morning ladies, sick children at the weekend kept me from the thread, but I am wisely using my time at work to catch up with the thread.
Time it is a relief to hear that I'm not the only one struggling with the idea of sleeping with someone new. I have only slept with 3 people in my past, so this is a big thing for me.
I have been very open and honest about my 'experience' with the ID guy I have had a few dates with & said that I am not going anywhere fast. But, the temptation to throw my past away and start a new life of wild sexual abandon is quite high!

But it is noce to know I am not the only one, as some of you guys seem very wordly wise

I think awesome sex is an individual thing. For me it's a magic combination of both loving AND downright filthy and repeat performances. You can't beat sex with someone skilled in that department, who loves you, adores your body and can't get enough of it - and it be mutual

ah- you cant be feeling self conscience. How can you be thinking about that? Thoughts like that should not be entering your head at all. Just, they shouldnt even come into it. My body is not perfect, my stomach is an actual mess. But, noone has ever said anything about it, because when im doing that, im certainly not thinking about it at all! :) Mr epic sex has got a big scar on his stomach too. Doesnt bother me. Makes no difference, clearly doesnt bother him either. Its all about confidence.
I also like people to be a little bit less on the vanilla side. A little bit of kink can be a fun thing. I had a fwb last year and i turned up at his with some handcuffs ( hardly the most shocking thing in the world) and he went a bit hugh grant stammering on me. It was funny as anything, but he was so embarassed to even look at them, let alone do anything with them. that was rubbish. So i decided no sex was better than 'just sex'

:( sorry you have to save that amount, thats so much. But then, id do the same for my child too.

awesome sex for me, is when you totally let go. No inhibitions. No moments of, hang on, does my butt look big in this position? Where you are totally comfortable with each other. I really dont think I could have awesome sex with someone I didnt have feelings for personally. But I am weird

ha, i am the ' no inhibitions girl'
always have been, always will be.

i can do sex with no feelings, as long as i fancy them. i could not, and would not have sex with someone i didnt like.
But fancying somone, and wanting a relastionship with them is two very different things i think.

wrigglytummy I'm so glad it's not just me!! I've only slept with 4 bodies in total I got married young and stayed married for 12 years, then had a mini relationship before meeting my last partner and was with him for 11 years so, apart from my 'first', that's my lot!!

There is this little part of me though that is really wanting to sleep with someone else just so my ex isn't the last person I slept with, iyswim??

My ex was rather cruel though, early on he made a couple of comments that stuck, that made me feel self conscious. Sex was also always on his terms, it was all about him and his needs. No kissing. No feelings of love. every Friday night without fail Having sex with someone new is going to be a totally different experience for me hopefully!

i get that. i was very pleased when i did that.

Ive not slept with that many, honestly.
I was engaged to my first, then we split up, and 3 months later i was with someone else, my husband to be.. and i was with him from age 20 to 30. we got involved in some 'other activites' and that took my number to 3.

where is stayed at 3 until i was 30. from 31 to now that number has jumped to 10. lol
But i dont think thats alot at all. 3 of which were fwb type things. the rest were one night things.

time - thats appaling :( really?
thats sad, sex is the best thing in the world. AND its free. Its there to be enjoyed, it SHOULD be enjoyed.

Time I'm sorry to hear how bad it was for you in the past, but it sounds like it is time for us both to get out there and have some fun - we deserve it!

Watch that's how I used to feel before I got involved with him. Sex with my ex husband probably wasn't brilliant, we were both young and inexperienced but we grew together, it was always nice. He made me feel loved and special and that made the sex good. My ex P was a abusive twat selfish man. Sex was not really a pleasure with him but I was so starved of love and affection from him that when we did have sex I was sort of grateful that he was interested in me.

I can't help but think I might have something quite nice to look forward to, even if the thought of it is scary.

wrigglytummy yes, I think you are right!!!

Ahhh just dive in time, the waters lovely :o

We won't go there with my 'number' though... and I can only guess roughly at it! Suffice to say I've been a bad girl but had some verrrrry good times :o

yeah, i think you need to go out there and just do it really.
you are only alive once. Its your body and you should enjoy it, it should give you pleasure. It really should.

So long as you are safe, and dont do anything you dont want to do, then really, have fun ;)
Bodies are amazing, peoples minds are amazing, they are there to be explored i think :)

I am quite excited at the prospect. Nervous petrified but excited. I do actually like myself and my body now, since leaving The Ex so that's a good start, I think.

Time - yes you do have something very nice to look forward to. It doesnt matter how many you have slept with or havent, when there is the right chemistry with the right person, all will be amazing.

Lubey - joining you in the bad girl thing. To be fair, I was very young and suffered terrible anxiety, so I probably had more one night stands that I should have, for the sake of having someone there at nights incase I died . I know my number, but no one else gets to know it.

I firmly believe men arent all that hung up on bodies anyways. Unless you have met a twat that believes all women should look like the skeletons on the daily fail and photoshopped half to death. As watch says, its all about the confidence.

It's the comments my ex made that I need to get out of my head and not take with me into the bedroom with someone new. Then, I think I will be ok.

Time I'm wondering if your ex was my ex. He was the same and its him to be honest who has caused me to have such low self esteem. WOuld regularly turn me down so that when he did sleep with me or showod me some affection I was pathetically gratefull.

OMG Zany yes. Right from day one, if I initiated sex he would turn away from me, curl into a tight little ball, would often sleep in his clothes too!! When we did share a bed together he would not only cocoon himself in the duvet but do that thing down the middle of the bed, to separate us. We didn't even share a room never mind a bed for the last 5 years we were together, he liked his bed to himself Also, we were together for 11 years but I only ever saw him naked a handful of times, if that. He would cover himself up at all times. I can see now that the problem really was with him but sadly he made it mine.

This is freaky, my ex didn't like me seeing him naked at all. Didn't like me to touch him or do oral (sorry - TMI) and I was with him for 5 years so I just thought well I must be really crap at it. If I initiated sex he would yell 'Beds for sleep now leave me alone'. For me it wasn't all the comments but all the other subtle looks he gave me. Personally it was his way of being controlling. The stupid thing is I still love him . It was him who proposed to me a couple of weeks ago.

Zany I can relate to that. It's my tosser of an ex I still wistfully think of too. And I don't know why!!!! It's so wrong. It couldn't be more wrong. His motto was 'treat em mean keep em keen' and it certainly worked.

I don't think it can be love though Zany, more likely to be traumatic bonding or Stockholm Syndrome because in all honesty, there is nothing to love. It's like a little puppy who is badly treated by his owner, he gets kicked and runs away, hiding under the table until his owner shows him a bit of kindness. He then goes back, tail wagging, all happy, until he gets kicked again. And so the cycle continues. Until the dog runs away and finds himself a new owner