The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Blowing Away The Booze In The Autumn Breeze.

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Hello.

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

I'm mouse and I have an abusive relationship with alcohol. I can't have just the one drink, ever.

I'm not alone here, there are Babes who are sober and have been for some time, Babes who are still drinking and trying their best to stop or cut down and then there are Babes who aren't ready to stop drinking. Yet.

So, why not come and say hi?

No judgy pants allowed on here I'm afraid, cakes and cheeses are!

And for those who want to know a bit more about the Bus, HERE is our journey so far.

Is 'mu go' tea that fancy green stuff from Japan?

Oh and, no legal the Ben10 thing wasn't me and I remember it wasn't Indie or MsGee but can't remember who, sorry.

Welcome Fairyloo and morning to rusmum.

Today is the dreaded Friday but guess what? I will not be drinking!

Right, off to work.

have read and caught up (you talk a lot you lot) but brain can't process much this morning.

noteven a thought - maybe spending time alone and just being is not a skill that comes naturally/easily to you and maybe that was a part of your drinking - avoiding just being in the evenings. so yes it's great to think of lots to do etc but maybe the building up of that skill is the key iyswim. have you ever done mindfulness meditation or anything like that? do you find relaxation stuff easy or a challenge?

sorry if i'm random and off track

ds's last day of part time today - he starts full time and school dinners from monday.

happy first day of autumn everyone - winter is coming but we can handle it!

Birthdays in sobriety are great Inde
sAf I think you are probably right. I am struggling a bit with trying to balance - in my head, anyways, where the line between "laziness" and "not overdoing it" is. Typical early recovery stuff I guess. I have tried meditation/ a bit of mindfulness - find it amazing during acupuncture, but my mind is off saving the world when I do it at home!! Hmmm, I need to not think.
Good luck for today ma - it's today your big presentation thingy isn't it?

Morning all
Fairy welcome to the bus.

I am also an AA member, and will celebrate 10 months of sobriety tomorrow morning - ODAAT!!
Like you - I cannot believe how awesome my life is on a daily basis, so much better.

Have been out running again this morning, I suppose I am tackling the running like the drinking, I actually cannot imagine ever being able to run 30 mins non stop, but tell myself that I am just choosing to do it today, no projecting, no setting targets, just keeping it in the day. Amazing how good I feel after it!

So - ExH is now not taking the kids this weekend, so need to change my plans to include them, so am trying to think of wet weather activities that are not expensive, will appeal to a 10 yr old and a 13 yr old, and will not drive me insane.
Answers on a postcard.

Have a good day everyone!
B
xx

Hello Fairy

Another AA member, sobriety date 16 Dec 2002.

One day at a time ...

Ahhh I'm too late - I wanted to jump on the bus in a spooky ghost like sheet on me after reading the spooky posts last night. Liked the story Isindie

Noteven I joined a gym a while ago and so I try and go there when I don't have the DC's - beats being on your own at times

Welcome Rusmum leave your guilt at the door - today is a new day

Hi Fairyloo

I didn't have much last night again, yeah. Seeing a very good friens of mine tonight - he is my scary movie buddy so looking forward to that

DP/XP rang last night but I didn't answer, he had sent a text earlier to say he was missing me and would call so I replied that I had nothing to say to him as I tried to talk the other night and it simply didn't work. Still feel gutted.

Hi Fairyloo.

I've been sober for around the same time as you, thanks to AA.

I had a similar time line to you also, with about 2 years of chaos and a very different life now!

Welcome.

Bafana, haven't made firm decision about AA as of yet, at the moment I am trying to keep it in the day.
Happy first day of Autumn to everyone

Morning everyone,

Season of mists and mellow fruitfullness, I seem to remember , how I hated Keats!!

I have bunked off college this morning, I wanted to be at home with DC. I have cooked a huge breakfast, washed up, and am currently boil washing jeans, so that they are tight enough!! (DC's not mine, mine are quite tight enough already!).

DC is upstairs packing his clothes, and then we are going to start on the boxes down here. Biting my lip a bit.

Bad news is that I drank last night, just gave in, or gave up or something. But, I stopped early, and drank tea, and don't seem to have the hangover that I deserve. These sentences don't actually convey how truly ashamed I feel, and stupid, and a bloody idiot. Why can't I just stop!! La la, day one then, no drink tonight for definite because we've got to be on the road at the crack of dawn tomorrow.

Speak later
love to all
xxx

Hello all - sorry about the prolonged silence, have been drowning under work, trying to deal with FIL who really doesn't want to be alive anymore, MIL who is beside herself with anxiety and stress, DH who is actually being a total star and DD who has learned to tell eeeny-weeny porkiepies all the time (along the lines of "I didn't do the poo-poo on the sofa Mummy, it was the horrid witch who came in, did it and then ran away"). Apart from that, all is fine.

And I still haven't had a drink. Am struggling a little bit, but am seeing a very helpful therapist about my OCD, and she's pretty good at the rest of the stuff as well, so not so bad.

Hope everyone is well - will catch up on thread tonight, but wanted to pop in and say hi.

Still awaiting the arrival of the JWN "boing" in my life!

BOING!! give it time tbm, it'll come!

noteven - i struggle with the evenings sometimes, i get really fed up with myself sometimes when i realise i have wasted several hours watching mind numbing drivel, SO, just recently i have joined a book club, i have a piece of sewing im doing, im getting my list of stuff together for the things i want to make for christmas pressies (i like to make food hampers with lovely chutneys and sweets and things in them) and im looking to enroll on a couture dressmaking class in the new year, i also try and get to a belly dancing class once a week to - its funny, but i have noticed that most of the babes on here have quite a creative bent! i wonder if its a running theme amoungst 'problem' drinkers?

msgee, i think we were quite lucky! we didnt have horridbabydoll, we had 'darling rabbit'! i think dd chose the name darling as thats what she always heard dh call me!

Feeling a bit alot peeved off. Just realised that there is a parents night out arranged with my DS's football team. XH will be there with conker thrower and DP/XP (still usure what he is classed as) was going to come to offer moral support, well I guess that won't be happening now. Also realised I bought tickets for a festival that I don't now want to go to on my own and this year I won't have the DC's Xmas Eve so it will be just me and the hound waking up Xmas morning Feeling weepy again now - just as well I'm the only one in the office

Here is one alkie who is definitely creative in any shape, manner or form

sorry to hear you are feeling so down!

meant definitely NOT ...

I'll be weepy with you .

Sorry Thurso, just realised I didn't send you tissues as well as to Zany

Thanks Obrigada

How are you today? Is the sun shining where you are? It's beautiful here.

Sun is shining at moment Thurso but not sure how long that will last, weather forecast not too promising. It has been a long week and I am so glad that it is finally Friday.

I'm all good now thanks Thurso and Obrigada

It's lovely and warm here. Planning on a quick swim again later

That's great Zany, any particular reason or just the fact that it's Friday

Zany do you have to go to the football thing? If X and CT are going to be there, DS will be represented. I really don't think you need that extra stress right now. Could you do something with DS afterwards or the next day instead.

Ditto the festival. If no-one springs to mind, see if you can flog the tickets, and just skip this one.

Christmas is horrendously difficult but how about this. Don't think about it all now. Anything could happen, plans change, you don't know yet, so don't project.

XP is not the man for you, I'm sure. We will help you to stay strong. He's messing with your head and you don't need that. Sending love x

Bafana - cinema, bowling, board games, wii fit, shopping, baking, swimming, dvds & popcorn. any good?

Day 4. Had a shitty day workwise today and still feeling foggy - including a bit of a sore throat. How long until I start feeling good? I want to feel good like James Brown (na na na na na na naa).

But have a homemade spag bol for dinner tonight, which DH will want red wine with. Not a huge fan of red these days, so hopefully it will be easy to resist. Saturday night drinking is going to be more of a challenge. My G&T (or two or three) ritual, followed by copious amounts of wine has long been my Sat night "treat". I just need to do it, don't I?

Finding it hard to keep up with everyone on the thread, so just a big for all of you. However, Mouseface's comment: "Newly - quite frankly, kill you. So, stay on the Bus and let us help you get through this xx" has been resonating with me all day since I read it this morning. I needed to hear some blunt talking, so thank you. And thank you also for the space on the bus too.

For the past couple of nights, it's been quite unpleasant when DH has kissed me goodnight reeking of booze. It doesn't bode well if I can't snog my husband, does it?