Coming in late on this one...so much has happened. SugarPaste, Saffy very wise words. Its so f*ing hard to deal with the fact that we just want them GONE, so we can grieve properly and heal, and yet we know the DC's need them and WE, yes WE the women, those who keep it all together, have the DC's, have to adjust, and cope and do the right thing. I'm in the same position, but it's still so raw, I'm not coping....(which is why I'm not posting), and it saddens me that as further down the line as you are Wisey, sadness is still there. My father's absence in my life is STILL an issue with me, and brought very much to the forefront right now....My mother left him, believe it or not, and didn't want him in our lives. Big Mistake. My brothers and I really suffered. He's not perfect by any shape or form, but he does have a contribution, and he does love his children. My mum just made it impossible for him (mainly by moving to another continent...)It's one of the reasons that I'm fighting so hard so GG will stay involved, without threatening (and thanks to MNers, I stopped). Whatever I said last Friday night made an impact... though...
Anyway, I'm hijacking...we wives/partners feel abandoned, but we mustn't forget that the DC's do too, and despite how pissed off we are, how hurtful it is, those fuckers do have a role to play with them, even though it's over with us. I don't have the answers but I do know that ....and I also know to the core that the easier I make it for GG to be with DD's the more likely he is to do it and do it well...so can I say DAMN, even if it's on wisey's thread? So hurting and so angry.
But I know who my dad is, good and bad, and I know that he loves me, and that's really enough...my mum was the hero! Wisey, DD will get the whole thing, but she loves her D.....and that's OK, even if he is a complete shit.
Maybe try a few things: try to help DD deal with the new situation by admitting to the limboland and its difficulties, that PTM is trying to do the right thing (whether you believe it or not), ask PTM to be a little more discrete for her benefit (I'm being vvvvvvv polite here - but take the upper hand...) and...you all might really dish me for this....but the children also need to learn to compartmentalise their individual relationships, ie: not tell one parent what the other one said and certainly not relay messages. I learned that at 12yrs - it creates massive conflict/unrest and drama and is not good. As I was very alone when I discovered this survival technique, what I have told DC's close adult friends is to offer to be the neutral party. Only DD13 needs it right now, and she's responding to that very well.
Good to have stepped back to realise your worth, wisey we all MUST wobble all the time....but you comfort me with your resilience to get back on the "right" path...DD will hurt but the more she understands, the more she can make peace with it. Can you make it OK for her to talk to someone who will not tell you details, just reassure you that she's coping OK??
My english teacher always told me I waffled too much...I just cannot be succinct...