Hi
How to I stay so positive?
Well, I am generally a glass half full sort of person. I also realise now more than ever how utterly miserable, worn down and trampled on I was in my marriage up until when we split.
I am a people's person, although I also like my own company to. I love my job, I love seeing my friends and socialing, and adore my kids and family.
Losing sis was the hardest thing ever, since losing my nan years ago. She was incredibly strong, positive and funny right up until the end. She inspired me - when people say how alike we are, I am incredibly proud. I miss her all the time, but she's with me.
I don't miss ex at all, I don't miss the cruelty and the emotional playing with my head. I do miss the kids not having a dad around, but realise that he hasn't been around for them for years either. I was remembering today a family holiday to Malta a couple of years ago. He spent all his time on his phone, and did nothing with us. It was a lovely family who we'd got friendly with that took youngest son under their wing, and I remember seeing him splashing about in the pool with their kids and their dad, and his dad just texting away on a sunbed. That was I now realise the beginning of the end.
I keep busy, I read, knit, play DS, watch TV....my evenings are quiet usually but the atmosphere is great. Kids always have friends round, or are out with friends. Its lovely. No more egg shells to walk on.
Also, I take each day as it comes. I try not to dwell on the past, but there is a fair amount of this, especially now when I'm not working. I accept it, and go with it. I don't think ahead too much at all. I don't worry about the future. Losing sis taught me how precious everyday is.
Sorry about the essay, but you did ask! 