MrsMiggins takes control of her life BACK

[MrsMiggins]

here it is then....have to still be MrsMiggins as its the lady out of Blackadder and nothing to do with my RL.....

God this is going to be so hard

I feel calm again
Had a shouting/crying fit at tea time so DS & DD were crying too then left them eating icecream in the kitchen

Then just spoke to H on phone & couldnt help myself - getting cross and accusing with him while I could hear the dispair in his voice.
Hes just said about talking about money etc so again, why cant I believe that its final?

feel a bit sorry for HER being in hospital although last night I suddenly wondered if she was pregnant and thats why he left - after all he allegedly ended it 8 weeks ago....see doing it to myself again

I must print off Ggglimpopo's list and stick it on every phone in the house :-

I will not cry/beg/plead/yell
I will be cool, dignified and distant
I will pamper myself
Myself and my children are the most important people in my world
I will eat at least one delicious thing per day
I will buy something I lust after and display it where it will make me smile (shoes did it for me)
I will have a to-die-for haircut

I deserve better. He will be sorry.

However I feel calm again and am going to finish the kitchen, and am going to have a lovely weekend, and have booked a babysitter for Monday night so I can go to the gym, and I have a lovely new handbag which says "ILCK - If Looks Could Kill", and new jeans & top, and bought DD lovely cardigan - I dont usually buy brand new clothes for my kids but H never fails to buy himself lots of new clothes.

and my friend said last night that if he goes skiing in the spring with HER, why dont I go another time? after all he has holiday and can look after the kids - even if it was just a long weekend....and shes right - if hes going to have them at weekends, I need to start saving so I can do nice things for myself

thanks you guys

I know I dont know you personally but you really have helped me from going mad

I will try to rant on here if I feel bad rather than lowering myself to rant at H who clearly doesnt care....

Don't be so hard on yourself, MrsM. You're gonna have bad days! That's why you've got people to lean on. Vent away. Rant away. It's going to happen, hon.

Tomorrow is another day. One step at at time.

doesnt feel like it

i was so pleased as hadnt felt like crying today and DS stayed in bed

now I just want to wake him up so he can come & sleep with me

H rang around 6 and sounded really jolly til I passed phone str to DS -when I got it back he sounded sad.....just feeling bad
i'll get over it

yes but I managed to be so positive last 2 nights and didnt drink and kitchen looks fab....let myself down tonight by thinking I could just chill....

how am I going ot remain cool tomorrow when (if) he turns up?

I think you'll manage to remain cool.

You have all of us behind you. Just imagine that when he walks to your door.

Remember.... and remind yourself.... you are strong! You can do anything!

He's a weak-kneed bastard! He thinks with his dick! Honey, how hard is it to compete with that?

OK will try to be positive tomorrow

I have new jeans & top & haircut so will try to be aloof even if leave him with kids & go & cry at friends
being silly expecting myself to be fine after 5 days

I do feel better than I have for ages so thats something

thanks guys

Hi MrsMiggins, I am so sorry things didn't work out for you, but at least you know where you stand, I guess. I have enjoyed reading all the messages to MrMiggins - especially sticking his willy in the blender! I have been separated for six weeks now, and in a lot of ways I am quite enjoying it, but then most of the angxt from my dh's affair burnt out a while ago, so it's been fairly amicable. And the children seem to think that living in two houses is quite fun. But it is lonely. Wishing you all the best.

perhaps I should tell him he has to stay tomorrow night ^ have the kids and I will just leave....that would shock him

great
on MSN to one of H's friends and he is actually now seeing my PND as a good enough reason for H to run off

ignore any idiotic stuff like that,please.

just told him that
why is that men see abstanance (cant spell this late at night) as a good enough reason to wander off?

such bollocks
sorry but it is

Arsehole

It's ridiculous and so painfully silly. If you want a chat at any time, please call me. I know I'm not supposed to do it but if you want my number, I'll post it.

hes not an arsehole - still married and has been since 18 yrs old - now 33.
IVF with wife twice this year
coming to see me this weekend

I think just trying to make sense of it all - he did start by saying that H had everything most men would give their right arm for.....think he is hurting like me (though not as much)

this has come as a big shock for all my family & friends not me...so I guess we're all bad judges of character....

He may not be,but it is a very foolish and unhelpful thing to say.

MrsM, all this silliness aside, you sound so much more positive

I hope tomorrow is not too unbearable and, importantly, arseh doesn;t let your children down!

Put on your high heels, a good lick of make-up, hold your head up high and tell him he's in charge, then turn around and think 'I don't need you any more' as you disappear off to enjoy a night out with your friends[pmsl]

Keep your chin up - its hard, no matter how much we joke about it! It really is the pits, but you will get out of it, promise

And even if he did run away because you were ill, that makes him a coward.

I need more rooms to paint
was so positive last 2 nights
now tonight had no painting as finished kitchen and thought I deserved a rest but just made me morose

will try my hardest to be positive tomorrow...if nothing else, for my children

going to post them on members - I know some people dont like looking at our families but want to show you how lovely my children are

"friend" is pissing me off
going to switch MSN off

typical man saying that if not getting enough at home, OK to look elsewhere

Hey, hon, it's fine.

Mrs Miggins, if this is the guy that is comming to "support" you ovr the weekend I think is better to decline the offer! Why do men always manage to se their kind as victims???

maybe he is trying to find a reason that he can still be friends with my H
doesnt bother me - urely thats what friends are for - good and bad
just a pity my H didnt remember that marriage was all about good and vbad too

his loss

cant post my kids - the files are too big and cant seem to shrink them